IT ko tetahi o nga akoranga tino kaha i roto i toku ora. Kei te pirangi au ki te whakapuaki ki a koe i nga mea i pa ki ahau i taku hokinga wahangu tata nei…
Ngā Whara me te Pakanga
I te tau kua pahure ake nei, i karanga te Ariki i ahau me tōku whānau i te "koraha" i Saskatchewan, Kanata kia hoki ki Alberta. Nā taua nekehanga i tīmata ai tētahi tukanga whakaora i roto i tōku wairua — he mea i tino tutuki i te wā o te Triumph te reti i te tīmatanga o tēnei marama. "9 Ngā Rā ki te Herekoretanga" e kī ana tā rātou paetukutukuKāore rātou e kata ana. I mātakitaki ahau i te tini o ngā wairua e huri ana i mua i ōku kanohi i te wā o te reti - tae atu ki ahau.
I aua rā, ka mahara ahau ki tētahi maharatanga o taku tau kōhungahunga. I whakawhitiwhiti koha māua - engari i warewarehia ahau. Kei te mahara ahau ki taku tū i reira me te whakaaro kua wehea ahau, kua whakama, kua whakama hoki. Kāore au i tino whakapono ki tēnā… engari i taku tīmatanga ki te whakaaroaro ki tōku ao, ka mōhio ahau, mai i taua wā, kua tonu i te āhua motuhake. I a au e tipu haere ana i roto i taku whakapono i a au e tamariki ana, ka nui ake taku whakaaro mokemoke i te mea ko te nuinga o ngā tamariki i roto i aku kura Katorika kāore i tae ki te Mīsa. Nō reira, kāore au i tino hanga i ngā hoa pakari i roto i aku tau kura. Ko tōku tuakana te hoa pai mōku; ko ōna hoa he hoa mōku. Ā, i haere tonu tēnei i a au e wehe atu ana i te kāinga, puta noa i taku mahi, ā, muri iho i aku tau minitatanga. I muri iho ka tīmata te toto ki roto i te oranga o tōku whānau. I tīmata ahau ki te ruarua i te aroha o taku wahine ki ahau, tae atu ki te aroha o aku tamariki. Kāore he pono o tēnā, engari i tupu haere te koretake o te māia, i nui haere ngā kōrero teka, ā, i kaha ake te whakapono, ā, nā tēnei i hua ake ai te taupatupatu i waenganui i a māua.
I te wiki i mua i te reti, ka tae katoa ki te taumata teitei. I mōhio ahau kāore he ruarua kei te whakaekea ahau i te taha wairua i taua wā, engari he tino pono, he roa, he tino tukino ngā kōrero teka, ā, i kī atu ahau ki taku kaiwhakahaere wairua i te wiki kua taha ake nei: "Mēnā i whiua a Padre Pio i roto i tōna rūma e ngā rewera, kei te pā ahau i te hinengaro ōrite." Ko ngā taputapu katoa i whakamahia e au i mua ko te ahua te tīmatanga o te korenga e angitu: te inoi, te nohopuku, te rōhari, me ētahi atu. Tae noa ki taku haerenga ki te Whaki hara i te rā i mua i te hokinga whakamuri ka mutu tonu ngā whakaeke. Engari i mōhio ahau ka hoki mai anō rātou… ā, nō reira, ka haere ahau ki te hokinga whakamuri.
I whakaorangia mai i te Pōuri
Kāore au e kōrero nui atu mō te reti engari me kī atu e raranga ana i te māramatanga o Ignatian me te wairuatanga o Thérèse, e honoa ana ki ngā Hakarameta, te inoi a tō tātou Wahine Tapu, me ētahi atu. Nā te tukanga i taea ai e au te uru atu ki ngā patunga me te tauira o ngā teka i puta mai i aua patunga. I ngā rā tuatahi, i tangi au i ngā roimata maha i te hekenga mai o te aroaro o te Ariki ki runga i tōku rūma iti, ā, i whakamāramahia tōku hinengaro ki te pono. He mana nui, he whakaora hoki ngā kupu ngawari i ringihia e ia ki roto i taku pukapuka. Ae, e ai ki tā tātou i rongo ai i roto i te Rongopai i tēnei rā:
Ki te u tonu koutou ki taku kupu, he tino akonga koutou naku, ka mohio koutou ki te pono, ma te pono koutou e rangatira. (Ioane 8: 31-32)
I tūtaki ahau ki ngā Tangata Toru o te Tokotoru Tapu, he mārama, he nui atu i taku i kite ai i roto i tōku ao. I tino pāngia ahau e te aroha o te Atua. I whakakitea mai e ia ki ahau te āhua o taku hoko mārire ki ngā teka a te "matua o ngā teka,"[1]cf. Ioane 8:44 ā, i ia whakamāramatanga, i whakawāteatia ahau i te wairua kino i whakapōrearea i tōku ao me ōku whanaungatanga.
I te waru o ngā rā o te reti, i kōrero ahau ki te toenga o te rōpū mō te nui o tōku kaha ki te aroha o te Matua — pērā i te tamaiti kua ngaro. Engari i taku kōrero tonu, me te mea he kōhao iti i puare i roto i tōku wairua, ā, ka tīmata te mimiti o te rangimārie tipua i pā ki ahau. Ka tīmata ahau ki te pōuri me te riri. I te wā okiokinga, ka haere ahau ki te ara raro. I taua wā tonu, ka whakakapia ngā roimata whakaora e ngā roimata manukanuka — anō. Kāore au i te mārama ki te mea e tupu ana. I karanga ahau ki a Tātou Wahine, ki ngā anahera me ngā hunga tapu. I "kite" ahau i roto i te kanohi o tōku hinengaro i ngā Āngera Nui i tōku taha, engari tonu, i mau ahau i te wehi tae noa ki te wiri.
I taua wā tonu, ka kite ahau i a rātou…
He Whakaeke Whakahē
I a au e tū ana i waho o ngā tatau karāhe i tōku aroaro, i roto i te kimo ka "kite" ahau i a Hātana e tū ana i reira me he wuruhi whero nui.[2]I te wā o taku reti, i kī mai taku pāpā i hikoi haere mai tētahi wuruhi nui i te marae o mua e noho ana ia. I ngā rā e rua i muri mai ka puta anō. E ai ki āna kupu, "He tino rerekē te kite i tētahi wuruhi." Kāore tēnei i te miharo ki ahau, nā te mea ko tētahi wāhanga o te reti he whakaora i tō mātou "rākau whānau". I muri i a ia ko ngā wuruhi whero iti ake. Kātahi ka "rongo" ahau i roto i tōku wairua i ngā kupu: "Ka pau koe i a mātou ina haere koe i konei." I tino ohorere ahau, ā, ka hoki whakamuri ahau.
I te kōrero i muri mai, kāore i taea e au te arotahi. I hoki tere mai ngā maharatanga o te wiriwiri haere o tōku hinengaro i te wiki i mua. I tīmata ahau ki te wehi kei hoki anō ahau ki ngā tauira tawhito,
ngā āwangawanga, me te manukanuka. I inoi ahau, i riria, ā, i inoi anō ahau… engari kāore i angitu. I tēnei wā, i hiahia te Ariki kia ako ahau i tētahi akoranga nui.
I tangohia e au taku waea ka tukuna he karere kuputuhi ki tētahi o ngā kaiārahi o te reti. "E Jerry, kua pōuri ahau." Tekau meneti i muri mai, e noho ana ahau i roto i tana tari. I a au e whakamārama ana ki a ia i te mea i puta ake nei, ka mutu taku mahi, ka mea mai ia, "E Mark, kua taka koe ki te wehi i te rewera." I miharo ahau i te tuatahi i tana kōrero i tēnei. Arā, mō ngā tau kua riria e au tēnei hoariri mate. Hei matua, hei upoko hoki mō tōku kāinga, kua tangohia e au te mana ki runga i ngā wairua kino i a au e whakaeke ana i tōku whānau. Kua kite ahau i aku tamariki e takahuri ana i runga i te papa me te mamae o te puku i waenganui pō, ā, i muri i ngā meneti e rua kua ora katoa i muri i te manaakitanga ki te Wai Tapu me ētahi inoi hei riri i te hoariri.
Engari i konei ahau… āe, i wiri, i mataku hoki. I inoi tahi māua, ā, i ripeneta ahau mō tēnei mataku. Kia mārama, ko ngā anahera (kua hinga) ko he kaha ake i a tātou te tangata — i a tātou anō. Engari…
Nō te Atua koutou, e ngā tamariki nonohi, kua hinga hoki rātou i a koutou: nā te mea nui atu ia i roto i a koutou i tera i roto i te ao. (1 Hoani 4:4)
I tīmata taku rangimārie ki te hoki mai, engari kāore i tino hoki. Kāore tonu i te tika tetahi mea. I a au e tata ana ki te haere ka mea mai a Jerry ki ahau: "He ripeka tōu?" Āe, ka mea atu ahau, me te tohu ki te mea kei tōku kaki. "Me mau tonu tēnei i ngā wā katoa," ka mea ia. "Me haere tonu te ripeka i mua i a koe, i muri hoki i a koe." I tana kōrerotanga i tēnā, ka mura tetahi mea i roto i tōku wairua. I mōhio ahau ko Ihu te tangata e kōrero ana ki ahau…
Te Akoranga
I taku wehenga atu i tana tari, ka pupuri ahau i taku ripeka. Inaianei, me kōrero e au tētahi mea pouri. Ko taua pokapū ataahua o te reti Katorika i noho ai mātou, pērā i te tini ke atu, kua noho hei wāhi mō ngā wānanga me ngā mahi o te Ao Hou pērā i te Reiki, me ētahi atu. I a au e hikoi ana i te ara ki taku rūma, ka pupuri ahau i taku ripeka ki mua i ahau. Ā, i a au e mahi ana, ka kite ahau, pērā i ngā atarangi, Ka tīmata ngā wairua kino ki te whakarārangi i te ara raro. I ahau e whiti ana i a rātou, ka piko rātou ki mua i te ripeka i tōku kaki. Kāore au i kōrero.
I taku hokinga atu ki taku rūma, i mura tonu tōku wairua. I mahi ahau i tētahi mea kāore au e mahi i te nuinga o te wā, kāore hoki au e tūtohu kia mahia e tetahi. Engari ka ara ake te riri tapu i roto i ahau. I hopukia e au te ripeka e iri ana. 
i runga i te pakitara, ā, ka haere atu ki te matapihi. Ka ara ake ngā kupu i roto i ahau, kāore e taea e au te aukati mēnā i hiahia ahau, i a au e rongo ana i te mana o te Wairua Tapu e puea ake ana. I hapainga e au te ripeka, ā, ka mea atu: "E Hātana, i runga i te ingoa o Ihu, ka whakahau atu ahau ki a koe kia haere mai ki tēnei matapihi ka piko ki mua i tēnei ripeka." I kōrero anō ahau… ā, i "kite" ahau i a ia e tere haere mai ana, e piko ana ki te kokonga i waho o taku matapihi. I tēnei wā, he iti rawa ia. Kātahi ka mea atu ahau, "Ka piko ngā turi katoa, ā, ka whakaae ngā arero katoa ko Ihu te Ariki! Ko taku whakahau tēnei kia whakaae koutou ko Ia te Ariki!" Ā, ka rongo ahau i roto i tōku ngākau i a ia e mea ana, “Ko ia te Ariki” — me te mea he āhua pōuri. Ā, i taku rongonga i tēnā, ka riria ia e ahau, ā, ka oma ia.
I noho ahau, ā, nga Kua ngaro rawa te tohu o te wehi. Kātahi ka rongo ahau i te hiahia o te Ariki ki te kōrero - pērā i ana mahi mano i roto i tēnei mahi minita. Nō reira ka tangohia e au taku pene, ā, koinei te mea e rere ana ki roto i tōku ngākau: "Me tuturi a Hātana ki mua i taku Ripeka nā te mea ko tāna i whakaaro ai he wikitoria, kua riro hei hinganga mōna. Me tuturi tonu ia ki mua i taku Ripeka nā te mea koia te taputapu o taku Mana, me te tohu o taku aroha — ā, e kore te Aroha e mutu. KO AU TE AROHA, nō reira, ko te Ripeka te tohu o te aroha o te Tokotoru Tapu kua haere atu ki te ao ki te kohikohi i ngā reme ngaro o Iharaira."
ka whiua koe e ahau hei maripi hei kohikohi
engari he māramatanga ki te iwi i roto i te pōuri.
— e rua ngā kurupae rakau —
ā, nō reira, i whaohia ai te whakahe o te katoa ki runga i tēnei Rākau.
te Rākau o te Ora, te Pūtake o te Ora.
ā, nō reira i riro ai hei rākau hua nui rawa atu.
me ngā manaakitanga wairua katoa.
ki te Toto o te Reme.
kei runga i ō koutou maramara e takoto ana te Tama a te Tangata,
te teina o te katoa, te Atua o te hanganga.
koinei te kī e wetekina ai ngā mekameka katoa, e motu ai ō rātou hononga,
Ki a rātou, ko te Ripeka tō rātou whakatau he; ko tā rātou whiu tēnei;
ko tā rātou whakaata tēnei e kite ai rātou
te whakaata tino tika o tā rātou whakakeke.
nāku hoki i hoko ai ngā wairua o ōku teina,
Nga whakaaro tata
Ko te tangata e titiro ana ki taua mea ka ora i te ngau a te nakahi. Ko te tikanga, he tohu tēnei mō te ripeka o te Karaiti.[5]“Ka titiro rātou ki a ia i werohia e rātou.” (Ioane 19:37) Engari me pēhea rā rātou, ēnei pononga, ēnei pononga, ēnei tamariki a Meri? …Ka mau i a rātou te hoari mata rua o te kupu a te Atua i roto i ō rātou mangai me te kara toto o te Ripeka i runga i ō rātou pokohiwi. Ka mauria e rātou te ripeka ki ō rātou ringa matau, me te rōhari ki ō rātou ringa maui, me ngā ingoa tapu o Ihu rāua ko Meri i runga i ō rāua ngākau. —Tanga. Louis de Montfort, Te Tuuturu Pono ki a Meri, kaore. 56,59
kua murua hoki e ia ō tātou hara katoa;
te whakakore i te here ki a tātou, me ōna kereme ture,
i tū atu ki a tātou, i tangohia atu hoki e ia i waenganui i a tātou,
e whao ana ki te ripeka;
te pahua i ngā rangatiratanga me ngā mana,
i meinga rātou e ia hei whakaaturanga tūmatanui,
māna rātou e ārahi wikitoria atu.
(Koro 2: 13-15)
Tauturu i te taviniraa ma te taime taatoa a Mark:
mā te Nihil Obstat
Ki te haerere me Mark i roto te Na Kupu,
paatohia te haki i raro nei ki ohauru.
Kaore e tukuna to imeera ki tetahi atu.
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| ↑1 | cf. Ioane 8:44 |
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| ↑2 | I te wā o taku reti, i kī mai taku pāpā i hikoi haere mai tētahi wuruhi nui i te marae o mua e noho ana ia. I ngā rā e rua i muri mai ka puta anō. E ai ki āna kupu, "He tino rerekē te kite i tētahi wuruhi." Kāore tēnei i te miharo ki ahau, nā te mea ko tētahi wāhanga o te reti he whakaora i tō mātou "rākau whānau". |
| ↑3 | Ina hoki, i te kōrerotanga a Ihu i tēnei, i mahara ahau he whakapono hē tēnei, he mea nōku ake rānei. Nō reira i rapua e au i roto i te Katekihama, ā, he pono, i whakawāteatia e Ihu ngā whekau o te Reinga i ngā mea katoa. tika i tōna hekenga ki te hunga mate i muri i tōna matenga: tirohia te CCC, 633 |
| ↑4 | cf. Phil 4: 7 |
| ↑5 | “Ka titiro rātou ki a ia i werohia e rātou.” (Ioane 19:37) |