Rembrandt van Rijn, “Kudzoka kwemwanakomana anopambadza”; c. 1662
MY nguva muRoma kuVatican muna Gumiguru, 2006 yaive chiitiko chenyasha huru. Asi yaivewo nguva yemiedzo mikuru.
Ndakauya semupilgrim. Yakanga iri donzo rangu kuzvinyudza mumunamato kuburikidza neyakavakirwa yemweya uye nhoroondo chivakwa cheVatican. Asi panguva iyo yangu yemaminetsi makumi mashanu nemashanu yekukwira kubva kuAirport kuenda kuSt.Peter's Square yakanga yapera, ndakanga ndaneta. Motokari yakanga isingadaviriki — matauriro aiitwa vanhu nemotokari zvakatoshamisa; murume wese anozviitira!
St Peter's Square yakanga isiri iyo mamiriro epo ndaitarisira. Yakakomberedzwa netsinga huru dzemumigwagwa nemazana emabhazi, matekisi, uye mota dzinohwina neawa yega yega. St. Peter's Basilica, iyo yepakati Chechi yeVictoria City uye Roma Katurike Chechi, iri kukambaira nezviuru zvevashanyi. Paunopinda muBasilica, mumwe anokwaziswa nemiviri inosunda, kupenya makamera, magadhi ekuchengetedza asina kuseka, mafoni ekurira, uye kunyonganiswa kwemitauro yakawanda. Kunze, nzira dzemumigwagwa dzakazara nezvitoro uye ngoro dzakatakurwa nemarozari, zvidhinha, zvifananidzo, uye chero chinhu chipi zvacho chechitendero chaunofunga nezvacho. Zvinotsausa zvinoera!
Pandakatanga kupinda muSt.Peter, maitiro angu aive asiri izvo zvandaitarisira. Mashoko aya akazara mukati mangu kubva kune imwe nzvimbo… ”Dai vanhu Vangu vakashongedzwa sekereke ino!"Ndakadzokera pakadzikama zvine hukama mukamuri yangu yehotera (iri pamusoro penzwi romuitaly rine ruzha), ndokugwadama. "Jesu… ivai nengoni."
KUNYENGETERA KURWARA
Ndakanga ndiri muRoma kweinenge vhiki. Chinonyanya kukosha, chokwadika, chaive vateereri naPapa Benedict uye konzati manheru apfuura (verenga Zuva reNyasha). Asi mazuva maviri mushure memusangano unokosha iwoyo, ndakanga ndaneta uye ndagumbuka. Ndakanga ndichishuva runyararo. Ndakanga, panguva iyoyo, ndanamata gumi nemaviri eRosaries, Divine Mercy Chaplets, uye Liturgy yemaawa… ndiyo chete nzira yandaigona kuramba ndakanangana nekuita urwu rwendo rwekunamata. Asi ini ndaigona zvakare kunzwa muvengi asiri kumashure kumashure, vachindidzinga miedzo diki kwandiri pano neapo. Dzimwe nguva, kunze kwebhuruu, ndaingoerekana ndanyudzwa mune kusava nechokwadi kuti Mwari hakuna kana kuvapo. Aya ndiwo aive mazuva… hondo pakati pe grit nenyasha.
RIMA usiku
Husiku hwangu hwekupedzisira muRome, ndanga ndave kuda kurara, ndichifarira ruzivo rwezvemitambo paterevhizheni (chimwe chinhu chatisina kumba), ndichitarisa nhabvu dzinoonekera dzezuva iri.
Ndakanga ndoda kuvhara TV apo ndakanzwa shungu dzekuchinja machannel. Sezvandakaita, ndakasangana nezviteshi zvitatu zvine kushambadzira-zvemhando yekushambadzira. Ini ndiri murume ane ropa dzvuku uye pakarepo ndakaziva kuti ndaive kuhondo. Mhando dzese dzepfungwa dzakamhanya mumusoro mangu pakati pekuda kuziva kukuru. Ndakavhunduka uye ndakanyangadzwa, panguva imwe chete ndichidhirwa…
Pandakazovhara terevhizheni, ndakashamisika kuti ndakakundwa nemusungo. Ndakawira pasi nemabvi neshungu, ndikakumbira Mwari kuti vandiregerere. Uye pakarepo, muvengi akasvetuka. “Ungaita sei izvi? Iwe wakaona papa mazuva maviri apfuura chete. Hazvibvumike. Hazvifungiki. Hazvikanganwirwi. ”
Ndakapwanyika; mhosva yakaiswa pandiri senguo nhema nhema inorema yakagadzirwa nemutobvu. Ndakanyengerwa nekuyevedza kwechivi. “Mushure meminamato yese iyi, shure kwenyasha dzese dzawakapihwa naMwari… waigona sei iwe? Wakagona sei? ”
Asi, neimwe nzira, ini ndaigona kunzwa iyo Ngoni dzaMwari dzichitenderera pamusoro pangu, kudziya kweMoyo wavo Unoyera unopfuta padhuze. Ndakapotsa ndavhundutswa nekuvapo kwaRudo uku; Ini ndaitya kuti ndanga ndichizvikudza, uye saka ndakasarudza kuteerera zvakanyanya rational manzwi… “Unokodzera makomba egehena… hazvitendeseke, hongu, hazvitendeseke. Oo, Mwari vanoregerera, asi chero nyasha dzaAifanira kukupa, chero maropafadzo Aange achizodurura pauri mumazuva ari mberi akaenda. Ichi ndicho chirango chako, ichi chako chete chirango. ”
MEJUGORJE
Chokwadi, ndanga ndichironga kupedza mazuva mana anotevera mumusha mudiki unonzi Medjugorje muBosnia-Herzegovina. Ikoko, zvinonzi, Mhandara Yakaropafadzwa Maria yanga ichiratidzika zuva rega rega kune vanoona. [1]cf. PaMedjugorje Kwemakore anopfuura makumi maviri, ndanga ndanzwa chishamiso mushure mechishamiso chichiuya kubva panzvimbo ino, uye zvino ndanga ndichida kuzvionera kuti zvaive nezvei. Ndakave nepfungwa huru yekutarisira kuti Mwari vainditumira ikoko nechinangwa. "Asi izvozvi chinangwa chaenda," rakataura izwi iri, ringave rangu kana remumwe munhu wandaive ndisisa kwanise kutaura. Ndakaenda kuConfession neMisa mangwanani akatevera kuSt.Peter, asi iwo mazwi andakanzwa kare… vakanzwa zvakanyanya kunge chokwadi pandakakwira ndege yekuSplit.
Iwo mairi nehafu yeawa motokari nemumakomo kuenda kumusha weMedjugorje kwainge kwakanyarara. Mutyairi wangu wekombi aitaura Chirungu zvishoma, izvo zvaive zvakanaka. Ini ndaingoda kunamata. Ndakada kuchemawo, asi ndakazvidzora. Ndakanyara. Ini ndakaboora Ishe wangu ndikatadza kuvimba kwake. “O Jesu, ndiregererei, Ishe. Ndine urombo. ”
“Hongu, waregererwa. Asi nguva yaenda… unofanira kungoenda kumba, ” rakadaro izwi.
Kudya kwaMARIYA
Mutyairi akandisiya mumoyo weMedjugorje. Ndakanga ndine nzara, ndakaneta, uye mweya wangu wakaputsika. Sezvo chaive Chishanu (uye musha uripo uchitsanya neChitatu neChishanu), ndakatanga kutsvaga nzvimbo yandaigona kutenga chingwa. Ndakaona chikwangwani kunze kwebhizinesi chaiti, "Kudya kwaMary", uye kuti vaipa chikafu chemazuva ekutsanya. Ndakagara pasi kumvura nechingwa. Asi mukati mangu, ndanga ndichishuvira Chingwa cheHupenyu, Izwi raMwari.
Ndakatora bible rangu ndokuvhura kuna John 21: 1-19. Iyi ndiyo ndima iyo Jesu anoonekwa zvakare kuvadzidzi mushure mekumuka kwake. Vari kubata hove naSimoni Peter, uye hapana chavari kubata. Sezvaakamboita kare, Jesu, uyo akamira pamhenderekedzo, anovadaidza kuti vakande mambure avo kune rimwe divi rechikepe. Uye pavanodaro, inozadzwa kusvika pakufashukira. NdiIshe! ” anodanidzira John. Naikoko, Petro anosvetukira mugungwa ndokushambira akananga kumhenderekedzo.
Pandakaverenga izvi, moyo wangu wakada kumira apo misodzi yakatanga kuzadza maziso angu. Aka ndekekutanga Jesu kuzviratidza kunaSimoni Petro mushure mekunge aramba Kristu katatu. Chinhu chekutanga chinoitwa naIshe ndechekuti zadzai mumbure wake nezvikomborero- kwete chirango.
Ndakapedza kudya kwamangwanani, ndichiedza nesimba kuti ndigare ndakadzikama pamberi pevanhu. Ndakatora bhaibheri mumaoko ndokuverenga.
Zvino vakati vadya, Jesu akati kuna Simoni Petro: Simoni waJona, unondida here kupfuura idzi? Zvino akati kwaari: Hongu Ishe; munoziva kuti ndinokudai. ” Akati kwaari: Chedza makwayana angu. Akati kwaari rwechipiri: Simoni waJona, unondida here? Zvino akati kwaari: Hongu Ishe; munoziva kuti ndinokudai. ” Akati kwaari: Fudza makwai angu. Akati kwaari rwechitatu: Simoni waJona, unondida here? Petro akarwadziwa nekuti wakati kwaari rwechitatu: Unondida here? Zvino akati kwaari: Ishe, imwi munoziva zvinhu zvose; munoziva kuti ndinokudai. ” Jesu akati kwaari, "Fudza makwai angu…" Shure kwaizvozvo akati kwaari, "Nditevere."
Jesu haana kutuka Peter. Haana kururamisa, kupopotera, kana kudzorera zvekare. Akangobvunza kuti, "Unondida here?"Uye ndakapindura," Hongu Jesu! Iwe ziva Ndinokuda. Ndinokuda zvisina kukwana, zvisina tsarukano… asi unoziva kuti ndinokuda. Ndapa hupenyu hwangu nekuda kwenyu Ishe, uye ndinohuhuhuhu zvakare. ”
"Nditevere."
KUMWE KUDYA
Ndapedza kudya "kudya kwekutanga," kwaMary, ndakaenda kuMisa. Ndapedza, ndakagara panze pazuva. Ndakaedza kunakirwa nekupisa kwayo, asi izwi rakatonhora rakatanga kutaura kumoyo wangu zvakare… “Sei maita izvi? Oo, chii chingadai chiri pano! Zvikomborero zvauri kurasikirwa nazvo! ”
"Oo Jesu," ndakati, "Ndapota, Ishe, ivai netsitsi. Ndine urombo. Ndinokudai, Ishe, ndinokudai. Unoziva kuti ndinokuda… ”Ndakafemerwa kuti ndibate bhaibheri rangu zvakare, ndikarivhura nguva ino kuna Ruka 7: 36-50. Musoro wechikamu chino unoti “Mukadzi Anotadza Akaregererwa"(RSV). Iyo inyaya yemutadzi ane mukurumbira anopinda mumba memuFarisei umo Jesu aive achidya.
… Akamira kumashure kwake patsoka dzake, achichema, akatanga kunyorovesa tsoka dzake nemisodzi yake, ndokudzipukuta nebvudzi romusoro wake, ndokutsvoda tsoka dzake, ndokudzizodza nechirongo chearabhasta chechizoro.
Zvakare, ndakanzwa kunyudzwa mukati mehunhu hwepassage. Asi aive mazwi aKristu anotevera, sezvaAkataura nemuFarise aisemeswa nemukadzi, zvakandibata bata.
“Mumwe mukweretesi aiva nevaviri vane chikwereti; mumwe akanga ane chikwereti chamadhinari mazana mashanu, uye mumwe makumi mashanu. Vakati vasina kukwanisa kubhadhara, akabva avaregerera vese. Zvino ndiani wavo achamuda zvakanyanya? Simoni muFarisi akapindura akati, "Ndinofunga ndouyo waakakanganwira zvizhinji." … Zvino akatendeukira kumukadzi ndokuti kuna Simoni… “Naizvozvo, ndinokuudza, zvivi zvake, zvaregererwa, nekuti ada zvikuru; asi unokanganwirwa zvishoma, unoda zvishoma. ”
Zvekare zvakare, ndakapererwa sezvo mazwi eMagwaro akacheka nepakati pechando chekupomerwa mumoyo mangu. Sezvineiwo, ndaigona kunzwa rudo rwaAmai kuseri kwemashoko aya. Ehe, kumwe kudya kunofadza kwechokwadi nyoro. Ndikati, "Hongu, Ishe, munoziva zvese, munoziva kuti ndinokudai"
DZIDZISO
Husiku ihwohwo, pandaive ndakarara pamubhedha wangu, magwaro akaramba achiuya ari mupenyu. Pandinotarisa kumashure, zvinoita sekunge Maria aive aripo nemubhedha wangu, achipuruzira bvudzi rangu, achitaura zvinyoro nyoro kumwanakomana wake. Akaita kunge ari kundisimbisa… "Unoita sei nevana vako?”She asked. Ndakafunga vana vangu chaivo uye kuti pane nguva dzandaivanyima chibatiso nekuda kwehunhu hwakaipa ... asi nechinangwa chega chekuvapa izvo, izvo zvandakaita, pandakaona kusuwa kwavo. "Mwari Baba havana kusiyana, ”Akaita seaitaura.
Ipapo nyaya yeMwanakomana Mupambadzi yakauya mupfungwa. Panguva ino, mazwi ababa, mushure mekumbundira mwanakomana wavo, akanzwika mumweya wangu…
Kurumidza uuye nenguo yakanaka, umupfekedze; muise mhete paruoko rwake, neshangu patsoka dzake; muuye nemhuru yakakodzwa, mubaye, uye ngatidye tifare; nekuti uyu mwanakomana wangu wakange afa, zvino wararamazve; wakange arashika, asi wawanikwa; (Ruka 15: 22-24)
Ivo baba vanga vasiri kunetseka pamusoro pekare, pamusoro pokurasikirwa nenhaka, kufuridzirwa mikana, uye kupandukira… asi kupa zvikomborero zvakawanda pamwanakomana ane mhosva, uyo akamira ipapo asina chinhu - homwe dzake dzakadururwa hunhu, mweya wake usina chiremerera, uye kureurura kwake kwakanyatsonzwikwa. Chokwadi akanga aripo zvaive zvakakwana kuti baba vafare.
"Munoona, ”Rakadaro izwi rinyoro kwandiri… (rakapfava kudaro, raifanira kunge riri raMai…)“baba havana kunyima maropafadzo avo, asi vakaadururira — mamwe makomborero akakurisa kudarika zvaive nemukomana uyu pakutanga."
Ehe, ivo baba vakamupfekedza iyo "nguvo yakanakisa. ”
GOMO KRIZEVAC: GOMO ROMUFARO
Mangwanani akatevera, ndakamuka nerugare mumoyo mangu. Rudo rwaAmai rwakaoma kuramba, kutsvoda kwake kunotapira kupfuura huchi pachayo. Asi ini ndanga ndichiri ndakabatwa nechiveve, ndichiri kuyedza kugadzirisa mambure echokwadi nekumonyoroka kwaitenderera mupfungwa dzangu-mazwi maviri, achirwira moyo wangu. Ndakanga ndine rugare, asi zvakadaro ndakasuruvara, ndichiri zvishoma mumumvuri. Zvakare, ndakatendeukira kumunamato. Pamunamato ndipo patinowana Mwari… tozoona kuti haasi kure zvakadaro. [2]cf. Jakobho 4: 7-8 Ndakatanga neMunamato weMunamato kubva kuLiturgy yeMaawa:
Zvirokwazvo ndakaisa mweya wangu mukunyarara nerunyararo. Semwana zororo mumaoko amai vake, saizvozvo mweya wangu. Haiwa Israeri, tarira kuna Jehovha Kubva zvino nekusingaperi. (Pisarema 131)
Hongu, mweya wangu waiita kunge uri mumaoko aAmai. Vakanga vari maoko akajairwa, uye zvakadaro, padhuze uye chaiye kupfuura zvandakanga ndamboona.
Ini ndanga ndichironga kukwira Gomo reKrizevac. Pane muchinjikwa pamusoro pegomo iro wakabata mucherechedzo - siringi yeMuchinjikwa waKristu. Masikati iwayo, ndakasimuka ndiri ndega, ndichikwira gomo nekushinga, ndichimira nguva dzese paProvince dzeMuchinjikwa dzaimira munzira yakaoma. Zvaitaridza sekunge kuti ivo Amai avo vaifamba munzira yekuKarivhari vaive vava kufamba neni. Rumwe rugwaro rwakangoerekana rwazadza pfungwa dzangu,
Mwari anoratidza rudo rwake kwatiri pakuti, tichiri vatadzi, Kristu akatifira. (VaRoma 5: 8)
Ini ndakatanga kufungisisa kuti, paMisa yega yega, Chibayiro chaKristu chiri chechokwadi uye chaicho chaitwa kwatiri kwatiri kuburikidza neEucharist. Jesu haafe zvakare, asi chiito chake chisingaperi cherudo, icho chisina kuganhurirwa kumiganhu yenhoroondo, chinopinda panguva panguva iyoyo. Izvi zvinoreva kuti Ari kuzvipa ega nekuda kwedu isu tichiri vatadzi.
Ndakambonzwa kuti, kanopfuura zviuru makumi maviri pazuva, Misa inotaurwa kumwe kunhu munyika. Saka paawa imwe neimwe, Rudo rwakaiswa pamuchinjikwa chaizvo kune avo ndivo vatadzi (ndosaka, kana zuva rasvika rekuti Chibayiro chibviswe, sezvakafanotaurwa munaDanieri naZvakazarurwa, kushungurudzika kuchafukidza nyika).
Zvakanyanya kuoma sezvo Satani aindimanikidza kuti nditye Mwari, kutya kwaive kuchinyungudika nhanho imwe neimwe yakananga pamuchinjikwa weKrizevac. Rudo rwaive rwatanga kudzinga kutya… [3]cf. 1 Johani 4:18
CHIPO
Mushure meawa nehafu, ini ndakazosvika pamusoro. Ndakadikitira zvikuru, ndakatsvoda Muchinjikwa ndichibva ndagara pakati pematombo. Ndakarohwa kuti tembiricha yemhepo nemhepo zvaive zvakakwana sei.
Munguva pfupi, ndakashamisika kuona kuti pakanga pasina munhu pamusoro pegomo kunze kwangu, kunyangwe paive nezviuru zvemapilgrim mumusha. Ndakagara ipapo kweinoda kusvika awa, ndakanyanyisa kugara ndega, ndakanyarara, kunyarara, uye nerunyararo… sekunge mwana akazorora mumaoko amai vake.
Zuva rakanga rovira… uye o, iko kunyura kwezuva. Yaiva imwe yeakanaka kwazvo andisati ndamboona… uye ini rudo kuvira kwezuva. Ini ndinozivikanwa nekungwarira kusiya tafura yekudya kwemanheru kuti nditarise imwe pandinonzwa ndiri padyo naMwari mune zvakasikwa panguva iyoyo. Ndakafunga nechemumoyo, “Zvinofadza sei kuona Mary.” Zvino ndakanzwa mukati mangu,Ndiri kuuya kwamuri mukudoka kwezuva, sezvandinogara ndichiita, nekuti munovada zvikuru.”Chero zvisaririra zvemhosva zvakanyungudika: ndakanzwa kuti ndizvo tenzi kutaura neni zvino. Ehe, Mary anga anditungamira pamusoro pegomo ndokumira padivi paakandigadzika pamakumbo aBaba. Ndakanzwisisa ipapo uye kuti rudo rwavo runouya pasina muripo, maropafadzo avo anopiwa pachena, uye kuti…
… Zvinhu zvese zvinoshandira zvakanaka kune avo vanoda Mwari… (VaRoma 8: 28)
“Hongu, Ishe. Unoziva kuti ndinokuda! ”
Sezvo zuva rakazodzika pamusoro pechiso chakananga kune rimwe zuva, ini ndakadzika gomo nemufaro. Pakupedzisira.
Mutadzi uyo anonzwa mukati make kubviswa zvachose kwezvose zvitsvene, zvakachena, uye zvakakomba nekuda kwechivi, mutadzi uyo mumaziso ake ari murima rakazara, akabviswa kubva mutariro yeruponeso, kubva pachiedza chehupenyu, uye kubva kubatana kwevatsvene, ndiye shamwari iyo Jesu yaakakoka kuzodya, iye akanzi abude kubva kuseri kwemazhanje, uyo akanzi ave mudikani kumuchato wake uye mugari wenhaka kuna Mwari ... Ani naani ari murombo, ane nzara, mutadzi, kudonha kana kusaziva ndiye muenzi waKristu. —Mateu Murombo
Haatiitire zvinoenderana nezvivi zvedu, kana kutipa mubayiro sezvakafanira zvivi zvedu. (Pisarema 103: 10)
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Kutanga kuburitswa munaNovember 5th, 2006.
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| ↑1 | cf. PaMedjugorje |
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| ↑2 | cf. Jakobho 4: 7-8 |
| ↑3 | cf. 1 Johani 4:18 |