URembrandt van Rijn, 'Ukubuya konyana wolahleko'; Malunga no-1662
MY ixesha eRoma eVatican ngo-Okthobha ka-2006 yayisisiganeko sobabalo olukhulu. Kodwa yayilixesha lezilingo ezinkulu.
Ndize njengomhambi. Yayiyinjongo yam ukuba nditshone emthandazweni ngendlu yokomoya neembali ezingqonge iVatican. Kodwa ngexesha lokukhwela kwinqwelo-mafutha yam imizuzu engama-45 ukusuka kwisikhululo seenqwelomoya ukuya eSt. Ukuhamba kwabantu yayingakholeleki — indlela abantu abaqhuba ngayo bothusa nangakumbi; elowo ngokwakhe!
ISt.Peter's Square yayingeyiyo imeko endandiyilindele. Ijikelezwe zii-artery eziphambili zeenqwelo-moya ezinamakhulu eebhasi, iiteksi, kunye neemoto eziqhuzula iyure nganye. IPeter Basilica yaseSt. Ukungena kwi-Basilica, umntu ubuliswa yimizimba etyhalayo, iikhamera ezibengezelayo, oonogada abangenaburharha, iiselfowuni, kunye nokudideka kweelwimi ezininzi. Ngaphandle, iipavumente zizele ziivenkile kunye neenqwelwana ezilayishwe iirosari, iitrinkets, imifanekiso eqingqiweyo, kwaye nangalo naliphi na inqaku lenkolo onokucinga ngalo. Iziphazamiso ezingcwele!
Ukuqala kwam ukungena eSt.Peter, impendulo yam ibingeyiyo le bendiyilindele. Amagama aphuma ngaphakathi kum evela kwenye indawo… “Akwaba abantu bam bebehombise njengalecawa!”Ndibuyele kuthe cwaka kwigumbi lam lehotele (elibekwe ngaphezulu kwendlela enengxolo yase-Itali), ndaguqa ngamadolo. “Yesu… yiba nenceba.”
UMLOBO WOKUTHANDAZA
NdandiseRoma malunga neveki. Eyona nto ibalaseleyo, ewe, yayiyiyo abaphulaphuli kunye noPapa Benedict kunye nekhonsathi kubusuku obungaphambili (funda Usuku loMusa). Kodwa kwiintsuku ezimbini emva kwentlanganiso exabisekileyo, ndandidiniwe kwaye ndiphazamisekile. Bendirhalela Uxolo. Ngelo xesha, ndandisele ndithandaze inqwaba yeeRosari, iChristmas Mercy Chaplets, kunye neLiturgy of the Hours… yayiyiyo kuphela kwendlela endinokuhlala ndigxile ekwenzeni olu hambo lomthandazo. Kodwa bendinokuluva utshaba lungekude kakhulu, lundoyisela izilingo ezincinci apha naphaya. Ngamanye amaxesha, ndingaqondanga, ndandiye ndicinge ukuba uThixo akakho. Zazinjalo iintsuku… amadabi phakathi kovalo nobabalo.
UBUMNYAMA
Ngobusuku bam bokugqibela eRome, ndandiphantse ndilele, ndonwabela ezemidlalo kwimidlalo kamabonakude (into esingenayo ekhaya), ndibukele imidlalo yebhola ekhatywayo yosuku.
Ndandizokuvala iTV xa ndiziva ndifuna ukutshintsha iitshaneli. Njengoko ndenzile, ndadibana nezikhululo ezintathu ezibonisa intengiso yamanyala. Ndiyindoda enegazi elibomvu kwaye kwangoko ndayazi ukuba bendisemfazweni. Zonke iintlobo zeengcinga zibalekile entlokweni yam phakathi kolwazi olubi. Ndandisoyika kwaye ndanezothe, kwangaxeshanye nditsaliwe…
Xa ndathi ekugqibeleni ndavala umabonwakude, ndothuka kuba ndandinikezele kulo mgibe. Ndawa ngamadolo lusizi, ndambongoza uThixo ukuba andixolele. Kwaye kwangoko, utshaba lwahlasela. “Ungayenza njani le nto? Wena owabona upapa kwiintsuku ezimbini ezidlulileyo. Ayikholeleki. Ayicingeki. Andinakuyixolela. ”
Ndacinezeleka; ityala libekwe phezu kwam njengengubo emnyama emnyama eyenziwe ngelothe. Ndakhohliswa bubuhle besono. “Emva kwayo yonke le mithandazo, emva kwazo zonke izipho uThixo akunike zona… ungakwenza njani oko? Ingaba ungenza kanjani?"
Nangona kunjalo, ngandlela thile, bendiyiva Inceba kaThixo endanda phezu kwam, ubushushu bentliziyo yakhe eNgcwele evutha kufutshane. Ndiphantse ndoyikiswa bubukho balolu Thando; Ndandisoyika ukuba ndikhukhumele, kwaye ke ndakhetha ukumamela ngakumbi ngqiqweni amazwi… “Ufanelwe yimingxuma yesihogo… ayikholeleki, ewe, ayikholeleki. Owu, uThixo uyakuxolela, kodwa nokuba loluphi na ufefe ebefanele ukukunika lona, nokuba zeziphi na iintsikelelo ebezakuthulula zona kwiintsuku ezizayo uhambe. Esi sisigwebo sakho, esi sesakho nje isohlwayo. ”
I-MEDJUGORJE
Ewe, bendiceba ukuchitha iintsuku ezine ezilandelayo kwilali encinci ebizwa iMedjugorje eBosnia-Herzegovina. Kulapho, kuthiwa, iNtombikazi eyiNtombikazi kaMariya ibivele imihla ngemihla kubabonisi. [1]cf. KwiMedjugorje Kwaphela iminyaka engamashumi amabini, ndivile ummangaliso emva kwale mimangaliso isiza kule ndawo, kwaye ngoku bendifuna ukuzibonela ukuba ingaba ingantoni. Ndandinomdla omkhulu wokuba uThixo undithumele apho ngenjongo. "Kodwa ngoku loo njongo ihambile," lithe eli lizwi, nokuba lelam okanye lelomnye umntu bendingasakwazi ukuxelela. Ndaya kwi-Confession neMisa ngentsasa elandelayo eSt.Peter, kodwa loo mazwi ndiwevile ngaphambili… baziva ngathi bayinyani xa ndandikhwela inqwelo-moya eya eSplit.
Ukuhamba iiyure ezimbini ezinesiqingatha uhamba ezintabeni ukuya kwidolophana yaseMedjugorje kwakuthe cwaka. Umqhubi wam weklabhu wayethetha isiNgesi esincinci, esasilungile. Ndandifuna nje ukuthandaza. Nam ndandifuna ukukhala, kodwa ndazibamba. Ndandineentloni. Ndiyigqobile iNkosi yam ndasilela ukuthemba kwayo. “O Yesu, ndixolele, Nkosi. Ndiyaxolisa.""
“Ewe uxolelwe. Selihambile ixesha… kufuneka ugoduke nje, ” litshilo ilizwi.
Isidlo sikaMary
Umqhubi undishiyile entliziyweni yeMedjugorje. Bendilambile, ndidiniwe, kwaye umoya wam wonakele. Kuba ibinguLwesihlanu (kwaye ilali apho ibizila ukutya ngolwesiThathu nangooLwezihlanu), ndiye ndaqala ukukhangela indawo apho ndingathenga khona isonka. Ndabona umqondiso ngaphandle kweshishini othi, "Ukutya kukaMariya", kwaye babebonelela ngokutya kweentsuku ezikhawulezayo. Ndiye ndahlala phantsi ndabeka amanzi nesonka. Kodwa ngaphakathi kwam, ndandinqwenela iSonka soBomi, iLizwi likaThixo.
Ndithathe ibhayibhile yam yaza yavula kwaJohn 21: 1-19. Le yindawo apho uYesu abonakala khona kwakhona kubafundi emva kokuvuka kwakhe. Babambisa iintlanzi kunye noSimon Peter, kwaye ababambisi nto kwaphela. Njengoko ebesenza ngaphambili, u Yesu, owayemi elunxwemeni, ubabiza ukuba baphose umnatha kwelinye icala lesikhephe. Kwaye xa besenza, igcwele ukugcwala. YiNkosi! ” ukhwaza uJohn. Emva koko, uPetros utsiba elwandle aze adade aye elunxwemeni.
Xa ndifunda le nto, intliziyo yam yaphantse yama njengoko iinyembezi zaqala ukugcwala amehlo am. Eli lixesha lokuqala uYesu ebonakala ngokukodwa kuSimon Petros emva kokuba emkhanyele kathathu uKrestu. Into yokuqala eyenziwa yiNkosi yile gcwalisa umnatha wakhe ngeentsikelelo—Ngokohlwayi.
Ndigqibile isidlo sam sakusasa, ndizama nzima ukugcina ukuzola esidlangalaleni. Ndithathe ibhayibhile ezandleni zam ndafunda.
Bakuba begqibile ukudla, wathi uYesu kuSimon Petros, Simon kaYona, uyandithanda na ngaphezu kwaba? Athi kuye, Ewe, Nkosi; uyazi ukuba ndiyakuthanda. ” Athi kuye, Dlisa amatakane am. Aphinde athi kuye okwesibini, Simon kaYona, uyandithanda na? Athi kuye, Ewe, Nkosi; uyazi ukuba ndiyakuthanda. ” Athi kuye, Yalusa iigusha zam. Aphinde athi kuye okwesithathu, Simon kaYona, uyandithanda na? Waba buhlungu uPetros, kuba ethe kuye okwesithathu, Uyandithanda na? Wathi kuye, Nkosi, uyazazi izinto zonke; uyazi ukuba ndiyakuthanda. ” Athi uYesu kuye, Dlisa izimvu zam… Emveni koko wathi kuye, Ndilandele.
UYesu akazange amkhalimele uPetros. Khange alungise, akhuze, okanye abuyise izinto ezidlulileyo. Ubuze nje, "Uyandithanda?”Ndaphendula ndathi,“ Ewe Yesu! Wena azi Ndiyakuthanda. Ndikuthanda ngokungapheleli, ngokungafanelekanga… kodwa uyazi ukuba ndiyakuthanda. Ndincame ubomi bakho ngenxa yakho, Nkosi, ndobuya ndibunikele. ”
"Ndilandele."
ESINYE ISIDLO
Emva kokutya “isidlo sokuqala” sikaMary, ndaya eMthendelekweni. Emva koko, ndahlala phandle elangeni. Ndizamile ukonwabela ubushushu bayo, kodwa ilizwi elipholileyo laqala ukuthetha nentliziyo yam kwakhona… Uyenzele ntoni le nto? Owu, inokuba yintoni apha! Iintsikelelo ophoswa zizo! ”
“Owu Yesu,” ndathi, “Nceda, Nkosi, yiba nenceba. Ndiyaxolisa. Ndiyakuthanda, Nkosi, ndiyakuthanda. Uyazi ukuba ndiyakuthanda… ”Ndaye ndaphefumlelwa ukuba ndiphinde ndibambe ibhayibhile yam kwakhona, ndayiqhekeza ngeli xesha kuLuka 7: 36-50. Isihloko seli candelo “Umfazi Onesono Uxolelwe”(RSV). Eli libali lomoni odume kakubi ongena endlwini yomFarisi apho uYesu wayesitya khona.
… Emi emva kwakhe ezinyaweni zakhe, elila, waqala wazinyisa iinyawo zakhe ngeenyembezi, wazisula ngeenwele zentloko yakhe, wazanga iinyawo zakhe, wabathambisa ngeoli yegasi yealabhasta.
Kwakhona, ndaziva nditshone kulomntu uphambili kwindinyana. Kodwa yayingamazwi kaKristu alandelayo, njengoko wayethetha nomFarisi owayekruqukile ngumfazi, wandibamba.
“Umboleki-mali uthile wayenabantu ababini abanamatyala kuye; omnye wayenetyala leedenariyo ezimakhulu mahlanu, omnye ke zimashumi mahlanu. Bakuba bengenakuhlawula, wabaxolela bobabini. Ke nguwuphi na kubo oya kumthanda ngakumbi? Waphendula uSimon umFarisi wathi, Ndiba ngulowo uxolelwe ngokungaphezulu. Wajika wakhangela kumfazi, wathi kuSimon… “Ngenxa yoko ndithi kuwe, Izono zakhe uzixolelwe, bezizininzi; ngokuba uthande kakhulu; kodwa yena oxolelwe kancinane, uthanda kancinane. ”
Kwakhona, ndaye ndanemincili njengoko amazwi esibhalo esika ingqumbo yesityholo entliziyweni yam. Ngandlela thile, bendinokuqonda uthando lukaMama ngasemva kwala magama. Ewe, esinye isidlo esimnandi senyaniso yethenda. Ndathi, “Ewe, Nkosi, uyazi yonke into, uyazi ukuba ndiyakuthanda…”
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Ngobo busuku, xa ndandilele ebhedini yam, izibhalo zaqhubeka ziphila. Njengoko ndijonga ngasemva, kubonakala ngathi uMariya wayekhona ecaleni kwebhedi yam, ephulula iinwele zam, ethethela phantsi kunyana wakhe. Wayebonakala endomeleza… “Ubaphatha njani abantwana bakho?Ubuzile. Ndacinga ngabantwana bam kwaye kukho amaxesha apho ndandiye ndibabambe inyhweba ngenxa yokuziphatha gwenxa… kodwa ngeenjongo zonke zokubanika, endazenzayo, ndakuba ndibabona lusizi lwabo. "UThixo uBawo akahlukanga, ”Wabonakala esitsho.
Emva koko lafika ibali loNyana wolahleko lathi qatha engqondweni. Ngeli xesha, amazwi katata, emva kokuwola unyana wakhe, avakala emphefumlweni wam…
Khawuleza, nizise kuye ingubo ende, eyona intle, nimambathise, nifake umsesane esandleni sakhe, neembadada ezinyaweni zakhe. Nizise ithole, eliya lityetyisiweyo, nixhele; sidle, sibe nemihlali. kuba lo nyana wam ubefile, wabuya waphila; ubelahlekile, wafunyanwa. (ULuka 15: 22-24)
Utata wayengakhathali ngaphezulu kwexesha elidlulileyo, elahlekileyo kwilifa, amathuba aqhekekileyo kunye nemvukelo… kodwa ukunika iintsikelelo ezininzi kunyana owayenetyala, owayemi apho engenanto — iipokotho zakhe zazinokulunga, umphefumlo wakhe ungenasidima, kunye nokuvuma kwakhe okuhlelweyo. Inyaniso ebekhona kwanele ukuba utata abhiyoze.
"Uyabona, ”Latsho eli lizwi limnene kum… (lilulamile, bekufanele ukuba lelikaMama…)“Utata akazange azibambe iintsikelelo zakhe, kodwa wazigalela — nangaphezulu ngeentsikelelo ezazinako ngaphambili."
Ewe, utata wamnxibisa "eyona ingubo ibalaseleyo. ”
INTABA YEKRIZEVAC: INTABANGO YONWABO
Ngentsasa elandelayo, ndavuka ndinoxolo entliziyweni. Uthando lukaMama kunzima ukwala, ukwanga kwakhe kumnandi kunobusi uqobo. Kodwa bendisendindindisholo, ndisazama ukulungisa imingxunya yenyaniso nokuphazamiseka okujikelezayo engqondweni yam — amazwi amabini, elwela intliziyo yam. Ndinoxolo, kodwa ndibuhlungu, nangokuzinzile ezithunzini. Ndaphinda ndathandaza. Kusemthandazweni apho sifumana khona uThixo… kwaye sifumanise ukuba akakho kude kangako. [2]cf. UYakobi 4: 7-8 Ndiqale ngomthandazo wasekuseni ovela kwiLiturgy yeeyure:
Inene, ndiwumisile umphefumlo wam, wathi cwaka noxolo; Njengomntwana uphumle ezingalweni zikanina, kunjalo nangomphefumlo wam. Lindela kuYehova, Sirayeli, ngoku nangonaphakade; (INdumiso 131)
Ewe, umphefumlo wam wawubonakala usezandleni zikaMama. Babezingalo eziqhelekileyo, ukanti, zisondele kwaye ziyinyani ngakumbi kunangaphambili.
Bendiceba ukunyuka iNtaba iKrizevac. Kukho umnqamlezo phezu kwaloo ntaba ubambe into-isilili yomnqamlezo wokwenene kaKristu. Ngaloo mva kwemini, ndahamba ndedwa, ndinyuka intaba ngomdlandla, ndimisa rhoqo kwizikhululo zomnqamlezo ezazimi ecaleni kwendlela engqindilili. Kwakubonakala ngathi kwangalo mama wayehamba indlela eya eKalvari ngoku wayehamba nam. Esinye iSibhalo ngokukhawuleza sagcwalisa ingqondo yam,
UThixo ubonakalisa ukusithanda kwakhe ngokuthi, sakubon 'ukuba sisengaboni, uKristu asifele. (KwabaseRoma 5: 8)
Ndiqale ukucamngca ukuba, ngalo lonke ixesha leMisa, idini likaKristu liyinyani kwaye liyinyani kuthi nge-Ekaristi. UYesu akafi kwakhona, kodwa isenzo saKhe saphakade sothando, esingaphelelanga kwimida yembali, singena ngexesha ngalo mzuzu. Oko kuthetha ukuba Uzinikela ngenxa yethu ngelixa sisengaboni.
Ndakhe ndeva ukuba, ngaphezulu kwama-20,000 XNUMX amaxesha ngosuku, iMisa kuthethwa kwenye indawo emhlabeni. Ke ngeyure nganye, uthando lubekwa emnqamlezweni ngokuchanekileyo kwabo bathi are Aboni (yiyo loo nto, xa kufika umhla wokuba iDini lipheliswe, njengoko kwaxelwa kwangaphambili kuDaniel nesiTyhilelo, usizi luya kugubungela umhlaba).
Kwakunzima ngoku njengokuba uSathana wayendicinezela ukuba ndoyike uThixo, uloyiko lwalunyibilika inyathelo ngalinye lisiya kula mnqamlezo waseKrizevac. Uthando lwaluqala ukukhupha uloyiko… [3]cf. Eyoku-1 kaYohane 4:18
ISIPHO
Emva kweyure enesiqingatha, ekugqibeleni ndafika encotsheni. Ndabila kakhulu, ndamanga uMnqamlezo emva koko ndachopha phantsi phakathi kwamatye. Ndachukumiseka bubushushu bomoya kunye nomoya ogqibeleleyo.
Kungekudala, ndamangaliswa kukuba kwakungekho mntu phezu kwentaba ngaphandle kwam, nangona kwakukho amawaka abantu abahambahambayo elalini. Ndihleli apho phantse iyure, intle ndedwa, ndithule cwaka, ndinoxolo… ngokungathi kunjalo umntwana uphumle ezandleni zikanina.
Ilanga lalitshona… yho, hayi ukutshona kwelanga. Yayenye yezona zinto zintle endakha ndazibona… kwaye nam uthando ukutshona kwelanga. Ndiyaziwa ngokushiya ngobulumko itafile yokutya ukuze ndibukele enye njengoko ndiziva ndisondele kakhulu kuThixo kwindalo ngelo xesha. Ndacinga ngaphakathi, “Inokuba kumnandi kanjani ukubona uMary.” Ndeva ngaphakathi kwam,Ndiza kuwe ukutshona kwelanga, njengoko ndihlala ndisenza, ngenxa yokuba ubathanda kakhulu.”Nantoni na eshiyekileyo yesityholo inyibilikile: Ndivile ukuba yiyo inkosi ndithetha nam ngoku. Ewe, uMary wayendikhokelele encotsheni yentaba wema ecaleni kwakhe njengoko wandibeka ethangeni likaBawo. Ndaqonda apho kwaye uthando lwaKhe luza ngaphandle kweendleko, iintsikelelo zaKhe zinikwa simahla, kwaye…
… Zonke izinto zisebenzela ukulunga kwabo bathanda uThixo… (KwabaseRoma 8: 28)
“Ewe, Nkosi. Uyazi ukuba ndiyakuthanda! ”
Njengokuba ilanga lisiya kutshona ngaphaya kwelanga ndisiya kwimini entsha, ndehla intaba ngovuyo. Ekugqibeleni.
Umoni oziva ngaphakathi kwakhe ehluthwe konke okungcwele, okumsulwa, nokunyaniseka ngenxa yesono, umoni ozibona esekumnyameni ngokupheleleyo, ekhutshwe kwithemba losindiso, ekukhanyeni kobomi, naku umthendeleko wabangcwele, inguye umhlobo owamenywa nguYesu esidlweni sangokuhlwa, lowo wayeceliwe ukuba aphume ngasemva kweeheji, lowo wacelwa ukuba abe liqabane emtshatweni wakhe kwaye abe yindlalifa kaThixo… Nabani na ohluphekileyo, olambileyo, isono, ukuwa okanye ukungazi lundwendwe lukaKristu. —UMateyu olihlwempu
Akasiphathi ngokwezono zethu, Akasiphathi ngokwezigqitho zethu. (INdumiso 103: 10)
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| ↑1 | cf. KwiMedjugorje |
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| ↑2 | cf. UYakobi 4: 7-8 |
| ↑3 | cf. Eyoku-1 kaYohane 4:18 |