Ukufunda ixabiso lomphefumlo omnye

UMark noLea bekonsathi kunye nabantwana babo, ngo-2006

 

Ubungqina bukaMarko buyaqhubeka… Ungafunda iiCandelo I - III apha: Ubungqina bam.

 

UMSEBENZI kunye nomvelisi wenkqubo yam kamabonwakude; iofisi yesigqeba, imoto yenkampani, kunye nabasebenzi abasebenza kakhulu. Yayingumsebenzi ogqibeleleyo. 

Kodwa ngenye imva kwemini yehlobo ndimi efestileni yeofisi yam, ndijonge idlelo lenkomo ekupheleni kwesixeko, ndaziva ndingazinzanga. umculo bekusembindini womphefumlo wam. Ndandingumzukulwana we-Big Band crooner. UGrampa wayekwazi ukucula kunye nokudlala ixilongo ngokungathi akukho mntu. Xa ndandineminyaka emithandathu ubudala, wandinika i<em>harmonica. Xa ndandineminyaka esithoba, ndabhala ingoma yam yokuqala. Ngeshumi elinesihlanu, ndabhala ingoma endandidla ngokuyicula nodadewethu eyathi, emva kokusweleka kwakhe kwingozi yemoto kwiminyaka emine kamva, yaba yibhola “yakhe” (mamela Ndisondele Kakhulu Entliziyweni Yam ngezantsi). Kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo, kuyo yonke iminyaka yam kunye Ilizwi elinye, ndandifumbe intaphane yeengoma endandizimisele ukuzirekhodisha. 

Ngoko xa ndamenyelwa kwikonsathi, andizange ndikwazi ukuxhathisa. “Ubukhulu becala ndiza kucula iingoma zam zothando,” ndazixelela. Umfazi wam wabhukisha ukhenketho oluncinane, ndaza ndahamba. 

 

IINDLELA ZAM ASIZO INDLELA ZAKHO

Kubusuku bokuqala njengoko ndandicula iingoma zam, ngequbuliso ngaphakathi, “ilizwi” laqalisa ukutshisa entliziyweni yam. Kwaba ngathi mna ayenayo ukuba ndithethe into ebiwuxhokonxa umphefumlo wam. Ndenjenjalo ke. Emva koko, ndacela uxolo ngokuzolileyo eNkosini. “Ah, uxolo Yesu. Ndathi andisayi kuphinda ndenze ubulungiseleli ngaphandle kokuba Undicele. Andisayi kuphinda ndiyivumele loo nto ukuba yenzeke!” Kodwa emva kwekonsathi, elinye ibhinqa leza kum laza lathi, “Enkosi ngomculo wakho. Kodwa utheni uthethe ngokunzulu kum.” 

“Owu. Ewe, ilungile loo nto. Ndiyavuya…” ndaphendula. Kodwa nangona kunjalo, ndagqiba ekubeni ndibambelele emculweni. 

Ndithi andisayi kumkhankanya, andisayi kuphinda ndithethe egameni lakhe. Kodwa ke kube ngathi kuvutha umlilo entliziyweni yam, ndivalelwe emathanjeni am; Ndidiniwe kuzibamba, andinako! ( Yeremiya 20:9 )

Kubusuku obubini obulandelayo, kwaphinda kwaphinda kwaloo nto inye. Kwaye kwakhona, abantu beza kum emva koko besithi yayililizwi elithethiweyo elalibalungiselela kakhulu. 

Ndabuyela ekhaya emsebenzini wam, ndididekile—yaye ndingazolanga nangakumbi. "Yintoni ingxaki yam?", ndazibuza. “Unomsebenzi oncomekayo.” Kodwa umculo wawutshisa emphefumlweni wam… ngokunjalo neLizwi likaThixo lenjenjalo.

Kwiinyanga ezimbalwa kamva, iindaba endandingazilindelanga zafikelela kwidesika yam. “Bayawusika umboniso,” watsho umntu endisebenza naye. "Intoni?! Iireyithingi zethu ziyenyuka!” Umphathi wam ukuqinisekisile ngengcaciso ethambileyo. Engqondweni yam, ndandizibuza enoba oko kwakungekuko na ngenxa yeleta eyayisiya kumhleli wephepha lasekuhlaleni endandilithumele kwiiveki nje ezimbalwa ezidluleyo. Kuyo, ndabuza ukuba kutheni iindaba zeendaba zinomdla wokupapasha imifanekiso yemfazwe okanye i-fender benders ... kodwa emva koko ndaphepha iifoto ezibalisa ibali lokwenyani lokuqhomfa. Imbuyekezo yayimanyumnyezi evela kwabanye abasebenzi. Umphathi weendaba, owayengumKatolika okhutheleyo, wandithethisa. Kwaye ngoku, ndandiphelelwe ngumsebenzi. 

Ngokukhawuleza, ndazibona ndingenanto yokwenza kodwa umculo wam. Ndathi kumfazi wam: “Ngoko, senza phantse imali eninzi kwezo konsathi njengomvuzo wam wenyanga. Mhlawumbi singawenza asebenze.” Kodwa ndazihleka ndedwa. Inkonzo yexesha elizeleyo kwiCawa yamaKatolika enabantwana abahlanu (ngoku sinesibhozo)?? Siza kulamba! 

Ngenxa yoko, mna nomfazi wam safudukela kwidolophu encinane. Ndakha istudiyo endlwini ndaza ndaqalisa ukurekhoda okwesibini. Ngobusuku esaligqiba ngabo icwecwe kwisithuba esingangonyaka kamva, saqalisa ukhenketho lwethu lokuqala lwekonsathi yentsapho (ekupheleni kobusuku ngabunye, abantwana bethu babesiza baze bacule ingoma yokugqibela kunye nathi). Kwaye njengangaphambili, iNkosi yaqhubeka ibeka amazwi entliziyweni yam ukuba kutshiswa ndade ndawathetha. Ndaza ndaqalisa ukuqonda. Ubulungiseleli asiyiyo le nto ndimele ndinikele ngayo, kodwa yinto uThixo afuna ukuyinikela. Ayisiyiyo le nto ndiyithethayo, kodwa oko uYehova akuthethayo. Mna ke, ndimelwe kukuba ndinciphe, ukuze akhule. Ndafumana umalathisi wokomoya [1]Fr. URobert "Bob" Johnson weMadonna House yaye phantsi kolwalathiso lwakhe kwaqalisa, ngobulumko nangokukhwankqisa ngandlel’ ithile, ubulungiseleli bexesha elizeleyo.

Ekugqibeleni sathenga indlu enkulu, yaye kunye nabantwana bethu, saqalisa ukukhenketha eKhanada naseUnited States siphila ngoLungiso lukaThixo nangawuphi na umculo esasinokuthengisa. Kodwa uThixo akagqibanga ukundithoba. Wayesandula ukuqalisa. 

 

IXABISO LOMPHEFUMLO OMNYE

Umfazi wam wayebhalisele ukhenketho lwekonsathi eSaskatchewan, eKhanada. Abantwana ngoku babefundiswa ekhaya, umfazi wam wayexakeke kukuyila iwebhusayithi yethu entsha kunye neqweqwe lecwecwe, kwaye ke ndandihamba ndedwa. Ngoku, sasiqalisile ukurekhoda iCD yam yeRosari. Sasisebenza iiyure ezininzi, ngamanye amaxesha sifumana iiyure ezi-4-5 kuphela lala ubusuku ngabunye. Sasidiniwe yaye sivakalelwa kukudimazeka kobulungiseleli kwiCawa yamaKatolika: izihlwele ezincinane, ukunyuselwa kakubi, nokungakhathali okukhulu.

Ubusuku bokuqala bokhenketho lwam lwekonsathi ezintandathu yaba sesinye isihlwele esincinane. Ndaqalisa ukukhalaza. “Nkosi yam, ndiza kubondla njani abantwana bam? Ngaphezu koko, ukuba undibizele kulungiselela abantu, baphi na?

Kwikonsathi elandelayo, kwaphuma abantu abangamashumi amabini anesihlanu. Ngobusuku obulandelayo, ishumi elinesibini. Kwikonsathi yesithandathu, ndandisele ndikulungele ukuphosa itawuli. Emva kokwaziswa ngumamkeli-ndwendwe, ndangena kwindawo engcwele ndaza ndaphosa iliso kwindibano encinane. Yayilulwandle lweentloko ezimhlophe. Ndiyafunga ukuba baye bakhupha i-geriatric ward. Ndaza ndaqalisa ukumbombozela kwakhona, “Nkosi, ndiyabheja ukuba abandiva nokundiva. Ndithenge iiCD zam? Kusenokwenzeka ukuba banabadlali abaneengoma ezisi-8.” 

Ngaphandle ndandizolile yaye ndinobubele. Kodwa ngaphakathi, ndandikhathazekile kwaye ndichithe. Kunokuba ndihlale ngobo busuku kumzi wogcino-zincwadi (umfundisi wayengekho edolophini), ndapakisha izinto zam ndaza ndaqalisa uhambo lweeyure ezintlanu ukuya ekhaya ngaphantsi kweenkwenkwezi. Ndandingekho iimayile ezimbini ukusuka kuloo dolophu xa ngequbuliso ndeva ubukho bukaYesu esitulweni esisecaleni kwam. Yayinamandla kangangokuba ndandikwazi “ukuva” ukuma Kwakhe kwaye ndimbone ngokwenyani. Wangqiyama kum njengoko wayethetha la mazwi entliziyweni yam:

Phawula, ungaze ulijongele phantsi ixabiso lomphefumlo omnye. 

Ndiye ndakhumbula. Kwakukho inenekazi elinye apho (elalineminyaka engaphantsi kwama-80 ubudala) leza kum emva koko. Wachukumiseka ngokunzulu waza waqalisa ukundibuza imibuzo. Ndaqhubeka ndipakisha izinto zam, kodwa ndaphendula ngembeko ngaphandle kokunikela ngexesha lam ngokupheleleyo phu laphule kuye. Kwaye ke iNkosi yathetha kwakhona:

Ungaze ulijongele phantsi ixabiso lomphefumlo omnye. 

Ndalila lonke uhambo oluya ekhaya. Ukususela ngelo xesha ukuya phambili, ndandingafuni ukubala izihlwele okanye ukugweba ubuso. Enyanisweni, xa ndifika kwiziganeko namhlanje ndize ndibone isihlwele sabantu, ndivuya ngaphakathi kuba ndiyazi ukuba kukho umphefumlo omnye apho uYesu afuna ukumchukumisa. Bangaphi abantu, uThixo afuna ukuthetha nabo, indlela Afuna ukuthetha ngayo…asiyondaba yam. Akandibizanga ukuba ndiphumelele, kodwa ndithembeke. Ayithethi ngam, okanye ukwakha ulungiselelo, ilungelo lokuthengisa, okanye udumo. Imalunga nemiphefumlo. 

Kwaye ngenye imini ekhaya, ngelixa kudlala ingoma kwipiyano, iNkosi yagqiba ekubeni ilixesha lokuphosa iminatha ngakumbi ...

Iza kuqhubeka…

 

 

Nizisa ukhanyiso lweNkosi ehlabathini ukuba luthabathe indawo yobumnyama.  —HL

Ube yikhampasi kum kuyo yonke le minyaka; phakathi kwaloo mihla bathi bamva uThixo, ndithembe ilizwi lakho ngaphezu kwayo nayiphi na enye. Indigcina kwindlela emxinwa, eCaweni, ndihamba noMariya ukuya kuYesu. Indinika ithemba noxolo kwisiphango. —LL

Ubulungiseleli bakho buthetha lukhulu kum. Ngamanye amaxesha ndiye ndicinge ukuba kufuneka ndiyiprinte le mibhalo ukuze ndihlale ndinayo.
Ndiyakholelwa ngokwenene ukuba inkonzo yakho iyawusindisa umphefumlo wam...
—EH

…ube ngumthombo othe rhoqo welizwi likaThixo ebomini bam. Ubomi bam bomthandazo buyaphila ngoku kwaye amaxesha amaninzi imibhalo yakho iphinda le nto ayithethayo uThixo entliziyweni yam. —JD

 

Sisaqhubeka nokunyusa ingxowa-mali yobulungiseleli bethu kule veki.
Ndibulela kuye wonke umntu othe waphendula
ngemithandazo nangeminikelo yenu. 

 

Ukuhamba noMark kwi The Ngoku iLizwi,
cofa kwibhena engezantsi ukuya rhuma.
I-imeyile yakho ayizokwabelwana naye nabani na.

 

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1 Fr. URobert "Bob" Johnson weMadonna House
exhonyiweyo EKHAYA, UBUNGQINA BAM.