Kubhalwe kuhambo oluya ekhaya…
AS Inqwelomoya yethu inyuka namafu amdaka aya emoyeni apho kuhlala khona iingelosi nenkululeko, ingqondo yam iqala ukubuyela emva ngexesha lam eYurophu…
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Khange kube kudala ngokuhlwa, mhlawumbi iyure enesiqingatha. Ndicule iingoma ezimbalwa, ndathetha umyalezo owawusentliziyweni yam kubantu baseKillarney, eIreland. Emva koko, ndathandaza malunga nabantu ababeze ngaphambili, ndicela uYesu ukuba athulule uMoya wakhe kwakhona kubantu abakhulileyo nabadala abeza ngaphambili. Beza, njengabantwana abancinci, iintliziyo zivulekile, zilungele ukwamkela. Xa ndithandazayo, indoda endala yaqala ukukhokela iqela elincinci kwiingoma zokudumisa. Kwakugqityiwe konke, sahlala sijongile, imiphefumlo yethu igcwele uSpirt novuyo. Babengafuni ukuhamba. Nam andizange. Kodwa ndanyanzeleka ukuba ndiphume neengcango zangaphambili kunye neqela lam elilambileyo.
Njengoko iqela endandihamba nalo ligqibile ipitsa yalo, ndandingonwabanga; Ndisendiva isandi sentliziyo yam iimvumi zaseIreland ezantsi kwesitalato zivakalisa iingoma zazo ezimyoli zeceltic njengokuba besigqithisile kubo. "Ndi Ku fumana ukubuyela emva phaya, "ndixelele iqela lam elindigxothayo.
Amalungu ebhendi onke ayekwiminyaka yamashumi amathathu, mhlawumbi emncinci. I-banjo, ikatala, i-mandolin, i-harmonica, ixilongo kunye ne-bass ezimileyo. Baqokelela kwisangqa ngaphambili kwindawo yentselo, eyayingabikho ngaphezulu kweenyawo ezilishumi elinambini ububanzi. Kwaye bacula. Oo, bacula, umculo uphuma kwii-pores zabo. Bacula iingoma endandingazange ndizive kwiminyaka edlulileyo, iingoma ezibhalwe ngaphambi kokuba ndizalwe, iingoma ezazigqitha kwisithethe somculo omde waseIreland. Ndema apho ndingakholelwa sisandi ndisivayo sivela kwaba bafana. Ndaziva ngathi ndithunyelwe emva ngexesha, ndibuyela kumhla apho ubumsulwa babulungile, xa sasihamba esitratweni ebusuku kuphela, xa izindlu zibiza imali engaphantsi kwama- $ 50,000 kwaye kwakungekho mntu waziyo ukuba eli gama lithetha ukuthini. Ndothuka, kuba uvuyo endandinalo entlanganisweni ngorhatya yayilelo enye uvuyo bendiluva ngoku intliziyo yam ibixhentsa kwisingqi somntu ukulunga. Ewe yile nto ibiyiyo: Ndikuve ukulunga kwendalo, kwaye ndiyafunga uMdali wayekhona edanisa nam…
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Olunye uqhushululu luthintela iingqondo zam zibuyele emhlabeni njengoko iinqwelomoya zethu zibhabha ngaphezulu. Ndijonge kumbono owawusaziwa nguThixo kuphela kunye nemimoya yakhe yokulungiselela: iidolophu ezincinci, iifama, kunye namabala amasimi alula phambi kwam njengoko imizimba yamanzi ethe saa ibonisa ingubo eluhlaza okwesibhakabhaka ngaphezulu. Kwaye kubonakala ngathi ndiyaqonda… xa uThixo ejonga eli hlabathi, ngaphaya kwamafu, ngaphaya kwemida, ngaphaya kwesahlulo esidalwe ngumntu ngokwakhe, akaboni buhlanga nenkolo. Ukhangele entliziyweni yomntu, kwaye ngumoya wovuyo uyadanduluka, "Kulungile!"Amagqabi ekwindla ayabhengeza, uluhlaza oluhlaza elwandle uyayicula, isandi sokuhleka kwendoda emva kwam… ah, kulungile. Indalo-phakathi kokuncwina nokuncwina kwayo-ikhupha ingoma yentliziyo yoMdali ..."Ndikudalile kuba ndikuthanda! Ndikufuna ngoku kuba ndikuthanda! Soze ndikushiye kuba ndikuthanda! "
Ndabeka iseti yentloko kwaye ndaqala ukumamela uMichael Bublé croon ingoma yakhe "Ekhaya"… sndingqongwe ngabantu abasisigidi, ndiziva ndindedwa, ndifuna ukugoduka, oh ndiyakukhumbula, uyazi… Hayi ingoma "yobuKrestu" ngomntu ngamnye kodwa ingoma yokulangazelela ukulunga kwakudala, ikhaya-Indawo apho abaninzi, ngaphandle kokungasebenzi kakuhle, iyindawo yokhuseleko. Ubuso benkosikazi yam kunye nabantwana bam bayadlula phambi kwam, kwaye andikwazi ukuzibamba ndijike eyam ndibheke efestileni njengoko iinyembezi ezishushu ziqala ukuhla ... ukwimo yomntu, Yalukwa yaza yabunjwa kwimiphefumlo eyahlukileyo nengabuyisekiyo yosapho lwam. Kulungile. Ilungile kakhulu.
UKULUNGA KUNEGAMA
Kwaye ndibona ngokucacileyo ngakumbi kunangaphambili ukuba umsebenzi ophambi kwam, phambi kweCawe iphela, kukubonisa umhlaba oku kulunga, oku kulunga unegama: Bawo, Nyana, kwaye UMoya oyiNgcwele. AyikokuLunga okude, amandla angenabuntu athe ehla ngokungaqhelekanga eluntwini nangawuphi na umzuzu. Hayi, ngumnikelo osoloko ukho, okusondele kakhulu, osondeleyo kangangokuba imiphefumlo yam iliva izulu lilukiwe kulo mzuzu wangoku…
Ubukumkani bamazulu busondele. (Mat 4:17)
Sidibana nayo emthandazweni wethu, siyiva kwingoma emnandi yomphefumlo womntu, siyibona esibhakabhakeni ekhwaza ukuba Okulungileyo unegama. Ukulunga kunegama!
Ndiyabona kananjalo ukuba kufuneka sifumane indlela yokubonisa ukuba ubuKatolika abuyiyo ifilosofi, iziko, okanye umbutho nje… kodwa ngumendo, indlela yokuphila ukufumana Ukulunga, okanye mandithi, xo laniso ngokulunga ukuze ukhulule ubuntu kwiingcinga ezigqwethekileyo zenyaniso kunye nobuhle obukhokelela ebukhobokeni nasentlungwini. Yindlela yokuphila kuwo wonke umphefumlo, kuwo onke amadoda nabafazi, kuwo onke amaJuda, amaSilamsi, nabangakholelwa kubukho bukaThixo. Yindlela, ezimiliselwe kwiNyaniso, ekhokelela kuBomi, ikhokelela ekuLungeni… ukulunga esele kufunyenwe kungqonge umqondiso, umthendeleko Yobukho. Ubukho bukaThixo.
Njani Nkosi Ndingalihambisa eli gama lithi indalo yakho ilungile, kwaye iBandla lakho likhokelela ekuLungeni uqobo? Ingenziwa njani le nto ngelixesha iCawe yakho iphulukene nokuthembeka kwayo kwaye iya isiba ngokubonakalayo njengomnqolobi woxolo?
Isibane sebhanti esiqinisayo siyacinywa. Inqwelomoya iqala ukungabinanto. Okwangoku lixesha lokuba ugoduke…
