Kumaphiko eengelosi

ILIZWI NGOKU NGOKUFUNDA KWENKOSI
ka-Okthobha we-2, 2014
Isikhumbuzo seengelosi ezingcwele,

Imibhalo yeLigugu Apha

IT Kuyamangalisa ukucinga ukuba, ngalo mzuzu, ecaleni kwam, sisidalwa sengelosi esingandilungiseleli nje kuphela, kodwa sijonga ubuso bukaBawo kwangaxeshanye:

Inene, ndithi kuni, ukuba anithanga niguquke nibe njengabantwana, anisayi kungena ebukumkanini bamazulu… Qinisekani ukuba anideleli namnye waba bancinane; kuba ndithi kuni iingelosi zabo ezulwini zihlala zijonge ubuso bukaBawo osemazulwini. (IVangeli yanamhlanje)

Bambalwa, ndiyacinga, bahoye ngokwenyani lo mgcini uyingelosi ababelwe bona, kungasathethwa ke Ncokola nabo. Kodwa uninzi lwabangcwele abanjengoHenry, Veronica, Gemma noPio bahlala bethetha nabo kwaye babone iingelosi zabo. Ndabelana ngebali nawe malunga nendlela endivuswe ngayo ngentsasa elandelayo kwilizwi elingaphakathi, ebengathi ndiyazi ngokuqonda, yayiyingelosi yam Thetha Nkosi, ndimamele). Kwaye kukho umntu wasemzini owavela kwiKrisimesi enye (funda Ibali lokwenyani leKrisimesi).

Kwakukho elinye ixesha elandivelela njengomzekelo ongachazekiyo wobukho bengelosi phakathi kwethu…

Ndathetha kwinkomfa eyayiseCalifornia nabanye abambalwa kwiminyaka embalwa eyadlulayo, kubandakanya uSondra Abrahams, umfazi osele ephakathi aphakathi owasweleka ekliniki etafileni yokusebenza ngo-1970. Ubalise indlela awabona ngayo izulu, isihogo, kunye nePurgatory, ngokunjalo NguYesu, uMariya, kunye neSt. Kodwa inye into eyenzeka ngamanye amaxesha xa ethetha kukuba "iintsiba zengelosi" zibonakalise ngokoqobo ngaphandle kwendawo. Zibonakala rhoqo njengezinto ezincinci, ezimhlophe ezithambileyo onokuzifumana kumqamelo phantsi. Nangona umyalezo ka Sondra ndiwufumene unamandla, uhlala ethetha ngeenyembezi ngokungathi wayeqala ukudibana nohambo lwakhe lwasemoyeni, ndandinengxaki encinci ngayo yonke loo nto.

Ndadibana noSondra emfihlekweni emva kwexesha kwaye ndammema ukuba adibane nam ngasese. Xa sasisiya kwigumbi lokuhlanganisana, sadlula kwipaseji edibeneyo. Ngokukhawuleza, ndonganyelwa livumba le roses. "Kwenzeka lonke ixesha," utshilo uSondra engaphosanga nesandi.

Xa singena kwigumbi lokuhlangana, sahlala phantsi sathetha ngezinto ezininzi. Imfundiso yakhe yecawa yayivakala, kwaye kwangoko sasondelelana. Ngequbuliso, kwiblawuzi yakhe, iintsiba ezimhlophe zazambathisa imizimba yam phambi kwamehlo am. Ndothukile, ndiyikhombe. “Owu wethu, kulungile, oku kusoloko kusenzeka,” watsho xa wayebeka usiba phezu kwetafile, echaza ukuba iingelosi (ahlala ezibona) zibonisa ubukho bazo ngale ndlela. Wandibuza ngelinye ixesha ukuba ndifuna ukuhlonipha into yokuqala yoMnqamlezo awayevunyelwe ukuba ayiphathe, ndaza ndathi ewe. Ufake isandla ebhegini yakhe, wavula isingxobo esincinci sesikhumba, kwachitheka iintsiba ezimhlophe ezincinci. Wahleka, "Ndicinga ukuba bayayenza le nto ukonwaba, ngamanye amaxesha."

Njengokuba ndijonga iintsiba, bendinokuthandabuza ndicinga ukuba sele bekhona — xa kwahlulwa umzuzwana emva koko intsiba emhlophe yawa kancinci kancinci isuka entla kwam nasekunene, yadada yaya emhlabeni. Ndabona ukuba ayinakwenzeka le nto. Kwakungekho mntu wumbi kwigumbi, sasihambahamba, kwaye ndandihleli iinyawo ezininzi kuye. Ndasala ndigqiba kwelokuba intsiba kungenzeka ukuba livela komnye wemithombo emibini… kwaye akukho namnye owayevela kule nqwelo moya yasemhlabeni.

UThixo usinike iingelosi ukuba zisikhusele, zisikhokele, kwaye zisilungiselele. Ndikhumbula ubungqina bomntu ovela kwilizwe lesithathu elothusayo akuva ukuba asiboni iingelosi eMntla Melika. "Sihlala sibabona ngalo lonke ixesha," utshilo. Ndaphendula ndathi, “Ndicinga ukuba kungenxa yokuba asisengamahlwempu emoyeni, asisengabo abantwana bomoya. Banoyolo abahlambulukileyo intliziyo; baya kumbona uThixo nezinto zikaThixo.

Kodwa ndinoluvo lokuba singena kumaxesha apho singaqala khona ukubona aba bathunywa basezulwini bobabalo njengoko iNkosi ilihlutha iBandla laKhe kwaye, kwakhona, iba njengomntwana. Kwaye uyakusithwala ngamaphiko eengelosi. 

Okanye iintsiba. 

Uyabona, ndithuma isithunywa phambi kwakho, ukuba sikugcine endleleni, sikufikise endaweni endiyilungisileyo. Mqwalasele kwaye umthobele. Musa ukumvukela, kuba akasayi kukuxolela isono sakho. Igunya lam likuye. Ukuba uyamthobela kwaye wenze konke endikuxelela kona, ndiya kuba lutshaba kwiintshaba zakho kwaye ndibatshaba kwiintshaba zakho. (ukhetho lokuqala lokufunda; iEksodus 23: 20-22)