Umyezo Ophanzileyo

Owu Yehova, sasikhe saba ngabahlobo.
Wena nam,
ndihamba ndibambene ngesandla egadini yentliziyo yam.
Kodwa ngoku, Uphi Nkosi yam?
Ndikukhangela,
kodwa fumana kuphela iikona ezibunayo apho sasikade sithanda khona
wandityhilela iimfihlelo zakho.
Apho ndifumene uMama wakho
kwaye ndaziva ukuba uyasondela ebusweni bam.

Kodwa ngoku, Uphi?
Nyhani ke ndimkile,
kodwa ndibuyile,
kwaye umyezo, wawukhe watyaba, ubrawuni kwaye awunabumba,
Ngothuli nolophu,
ihonjiswe kuphela ngamagqabi omisiweyo kunye namasetyana angenanto…
kunye nezithunzi ezidlulayo zenkumbulo.
Ityala lam—mna culpa.
Sisono sam, ukhetho lwam, ukuvukela kwam, ukuthandabuza kwam, ukusilela kwam
Utshabalalisile umyezo wentliziyo yam.
Ndikumemile kwakhona, kodwa yiva kuphela umoya,
exutywe neenyembezi kwinto eyayikade ikho,
kodwa ngoku akasekho.

Kuba intánda yam ihambile,
kwaye kunye naye, lonke uxolo, lonke ithemba, lonke uvuyo.

Kwaye,
Ndiza kuhlala apha ebhentshini elibandayo
inyaniso nenyaniso,
kwaye
Yima.
Mhlawumbi, Uya kuza,
nentlango yentliziyo yam iya kuba
kumyezo
kwakhona.

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Mntwana wam — sithandwa sam.
Ndiye phi kodwa kumbindi wegadi,
liziko lentliziyo yakho?
Apho ndikulindile, ukuba undifumane apho ndikhoyo.
Nindifuna ezimbombeni, oko kukuthi, intuthuzelo ebikade ikho.
Kodwa ngoku ndikutsala nzulu,
Nzulu kakhulu
kungena
le
iziko
apho kukho iOasis efihliweyo.

NdingulaOasis, ndizifihle ngaphantsi kwamagqabi awileyo kunye nengca ende.
Yiza embindini wentliziyo yakho.
Yiza kwindawo yenyaniso ehamba ze
apho kungasekho zimbombo zokufihla,
akukho ndlela yecala lokusinda,
kungekho zitulo zokuphumla—
kodwa kuphela echibini elinzulu lothando lwam olungenakuqondakala.
Yiza, uwe kweli chibi,
ungene enzonzobileni yentliziyo yam enenceba.
Ewe, shiya ngasemva ngoku inkxaso nolindelo lwayizolo
kwaye
uziphose
kungena
le
ubunzulu
ye
unknown
apho umntu abonayo engaboni,
uyazi ngaphandle kokwazi,
kwaye uthanda ngaphandle, ngamanye amaxesha, ukuziva uthando.

Iphuli lentliziyo yam, ngaphakathi kwegadi yangaphakathi yomphefumlo wakho,
yindawo yokuphumla eyiyo.

Andikulahlanga;
kodwa ndikukhokelele ezinzulwini zentliziyo yakho umanyene naM.
Intliziyo yam, ngumbindi wentliziyo yakho — intliziyo yakho, ngumbindi waM.

Nantsi ngoku, mntwana wam, lixesha lokuba ungene nzulu,

ukuba
kuhamba
ngemva

oko akunakunceda kodwa kuthintela umphefumlo wakho
ku
umanyano olungcwele kunye nam.
Sukuhlala ixesha elide kwiindawo apho sidibene khona,
kuba andikho apho…
… Kwaye awuyi kufumana Lowo ulangazelela.

Kodwa Mntwana wam,
Ndilapha,
kwi
iziko
wentliziyo yakho,
ungazifihli emoyeni wakho.
kodwa ingqondo nomphefumlo (kuya kufuneka kunjalo, okwangoku).
Ngena ngesango lokholo,
ukuphakamisa isibambo sokuthenjwa,
Buphose bonke ubomi bakho enzonzobileni
ngothando lwam nenceba.

Kwaye siya kuthanda ngaphezulu kunanini na ngaphambili…