Ukucamngca okulandelayo kusekwe kufundo lweMisa yesibini namhlanje yosuku lokuqala lwe-Advent 2016. Ukuze ube ngumdlali osebenzayo kwi Ukuchasana noVukelo, kufuneka kuqala sibe nenyani uguquko lwentliziyo...
I ndifana nehlosi kwikheji.
Ngokubhaptizwa, uYesu wavula umnyango wentolongo yam wandikhulula… kanti, ndizifumana ndihamba ndisiya ngapha nangapha kwakuloo mkhuba wesono. Ucango luvulekile, kodwa andibaleki ndiye kwiNtlango yeNkululeko… amathafa ovuyo, iintaba zobulumko, amanzi okuhlaziya ... ndiyababona mgama, ukanti ndihleli ndilibanjwa ngokuzithandela. . Ngoba? Kutheni ndinga ukubaleka? Kutheni ndithandabuza? Kutheni ndihlala kulo mkhuba wesono ongekho nzulu, wokungcola, wamathambo, nowenkunkuma, usiya ngapha nangapha, emva naphambili?
Ngoba?
Ndakuva uvula umnyango, Nkosi yam. Ndifumene umbono wobuso bakho bothando, loo mbewu yethemba xa usithi, “Ndiyakuxolela." 
Ndikubonile ujika kwaye uvutha indlela-indlela engcwele-phakathi kwengca ende kunye neentshinyela. Ndikubonile uhamba phezu kwamanzi udlula kwimithi emide… emva koko uqalise ukunyuka iNtaba yoThando. Uguqukile, kwaye ngamehlo othando ongenakulibaleka ngumphefumlo wam, wolula isandla, wandikhomba, wahleba wathi,Yiza, landela ...Ilifu layigubungela indawo yakho okomzuzwana, xa lishukumayo, wawungasekho, wawungekho… konke ngaphandle kwentsingiselo yamagama akho: Yiza undilandele…
TWILight
Ikheji ivulekile. Ndikhululekile.
Inkululeko uKrestu wasikhulula. (Gal 5: 1)
… Kanti andinguye. Xa ndithatha inyathelo ndisiya emnyango, umkhosi wanditsala ndabuya umva? Yintoni lento? Yeyiphi le nto yokutsala inditsalela kuyo, le ntshukumo indilukuhlayo ndibuyela ezingontsini zobumnyama? Phuma! Ndiyakhala… ukanti unxibe unxibe kakuhle, uqhelekile… kulula.
Kodwa Entlango! Ngandlela thile, mna azi Ndenzelwe iNtlango. Ewe ndenzelwe yona, ayisiyiyo le nto! Kwaye… Intlango ayaziwa. Kubonakala kunzima kwaye kunzima. Ngaba kuya kufuneka ndiphile ngaphandle kolonwabo? Ngaba kuya kufuneka ndiyeke ukuqhelana, intuthuzelo ekhawulezileyo, ubulula beli tyala? Kodwa lo mngxunya ndibhinqileyo awufudumali — kuyabanda! Lo mkhwa umnyama kwaye uyabanda. Ndicinga ntoni? Ikheji ivulekile. Baleka wena sidenge! Balekela kwiNtlango!
Kutheni ndingabaleki?
Kutheni ndingu phu laphule kule ndlela? Ndenza ntoni? Ndenza ntoni? Ndiyakwazi ukungcamla inkululeko. Kodwa ndi… ndingumntu kuphela, Ndingumntu nje! UnguThixo. Unokuhamba emanzini kwaye unyuke iintaba. Awungo ngempela indoda. UnguThixo owenziwe inyama. Kulula! KULULA! Wazi ntoni ngokubandezeleka komntu?
Umnqamlezo.
Ngubani othe?
Umnqamlezo.
Kodwa ...
Umnqamlezo.
Ngokuba kuvavanywa yena neembandezelo zakhe, unako ukubanceda abo bahendwayo. (Heb 2:18)
Ubumnyama buyehla. Nkosi, ndiza kulinda. Ndiza kulinda kude kube ngomso, emva koko ndiya kukulandela.
UBUSUKU BOKULWA
Ndiyakucaphukela oku. Ndiyayicaphukela le nto. Ndiyalicaphukela ivumba lalo uthuli lungcolileyo.
Ndikukhulule NDIKHULULELE!
UYesu nguwe lowo ?! UYESU?
Umendo uhamba ngokholo. Ukholo lukhokelela enkululekweni.
Kutheni ungezi uzondilanda? Umendo… umda…. indlela… iruti…
Yiza undilandele.
Kutheni ungezi uzondilanda? KuYesu?
Ikheji ivulekile.
Kodwa ndibuthathaka. Ndiyathanda… Nditsalelekile esonweni sam. Nantso ke. Yinyaniso leyo. Ndiyayithanda le nto. Ndiyayithanda… ndiyayicaphukela. Ndiyayifuna. Hayi andiyenzi. Hayi andiyenzi! Oh Thixo. Ndincede! Ndincede Yesu!
Ndingowenyama, kuthengiswe ebukhobokeni besono. Into endiyenzayo andiyiqondi. Kuba andenzi into endiyifunayo, kodwa ndenza le ndiyithiyileyo… ndibona kumalungu am omnye umgaqo olwa nomthetho wengqondo yam, undithimbela emthethweni wesono ohleli kumalungu am. Hayi usizana endilulo! Ngubani na oya kundihlangula kulo mzimba ufayo? Ndiyambulela uThixo ngoYesu Krestu iNkosi yethu. (Roma 7: 14-15; 23-25)
Yiza undilandele.
Njani?
... ngokusebenzisa UYesu Kristu iNkosi yethu. (Roma 7:25)
Uthetha ukuthini?
Inyathelo ngalinye ukusuka kwindlwana yintando yam, indlela yam, imiyalelo yam-Oko kuyinyaniso. Ndiyinyaniso, kwaye inyaniso iya kunikhulula. Yindlela omele ukuhamba ngayo ekhokelela kuBomi. Ndiyindlela eyiNyaniso noBomi.
... ngokusebenzisa UYesu Kristu iNkosi yethu. (Roma 7:25)
Ke kufuneka ndenze ntoni?
Xolela utshaba lwakho, unganqweneli izinto zommelwane wakho, sukujonga umzimba wenkanuko, ungayinquli ibhotile, ungarhaleli ukutya, ungazenzi inqambi kunye nawe, musa ukwenza izinto eziphathekayo zibe nguThixo wakho. Ungonelisi ngeminqweno yenyama yakho echasene nentando yam, indlela yam, imiyalelo yam.
Yambathani iNkosi uYesu Kristu, kwaye ningenzi malungiselelo ngeminqweno yenyama. (Roma 13:14)
Ndiyazama Nkosi… kodwa kutheni ndingahambeli phambili kwiNdlela? Kutheni ndibambekile kulo mkhwa?
Kungenxa yokuba wenza amalungiselelo enyama.
Uthetha ukuthini?
Ityala lesono. Udanisa nomtyholi. Udlala ngothando ngentlekele.
Kodwa Nkosi… ndiyafuna ukukhululeka esonweni sam. Ndifuna ukukhululeka kule kheyiji.
Ikheji ivulekile. Indlela ibekiwe. Yindlela… iNdlela yoMnqamlezo.
Uthetha ukuthini?
Indlela eya enkululekweni yindlela yokuzincama. Ayikokungavumi ukuba ungubani, kodwa awunguye. Awulilo ihlosi! Niyimvana yam encinci. Kodwa kufuneka ukhethe ukunxiba Oyinyani. Kuya kufuneka ukhethe ukufa kokuzingca, ukwala ubuxoki, indlela yobomi, ukumelana nokufa. Kukukhetha mna (uThixo wakho okuthandayo kude kube sekupheleni!), Kodwa kukukhetha nawe-ukuba ungubani, ungubani kum. Indlela yoMnqamlezo kuphela kwendlela, indlela eya enkululekweni, indlela eya eBomini. Iqala xa usenza ngokwenyani amazwi endiwathethileyo ngaphambi kokuba ndibeke indlela yam yoMnqamlezo:
Hayi ukuthanda kwam kodwa ukuthanda kwakho. (UMarko 14:36)
Yintoni endimele ndiyenze?
Yambathani iNkosi uYesu Kristu, kwaye ningenzi malungiselelo ngeminqweno yenyama. (Roma 13:14)
Uthetha ukuthini?
Sukwenza okwahlukileyo mntwanam! Musa ukujonga nje umfazi othandekayo! Yala isiselo esiya kukutsala uphelelwe lithemba! Yithi hayi kwimilebe enokuhleba kwaye itshabalalise! Shenxisa iqhekeza elinokutya ubudlakudla bakho! Bamba igama eliza kuqala imfazwe! Yala ngaphandle okophula umthetho!
Nkosi, oku kubonakala kunzima kakhulu! Nokuba zincinci ezona zono zam, okona kuncinci ndikwenzileyo… nkqu nezi?
Ndifuna kuba ndinqwenela ulonwabo lwakho! Ukuba utyhola ngesono uya kulala ebhedini yakhe. Ukuba udanisa nomtyholi, uya kukutyumza iinzwane zakho. Ukuba udlala ngothando, intshabalalo iya kukutyelela… kodwa ukuba uyandilandela, uya kukhululeka.
Ucocekile lwentliziyo. Yile nto ubuza kum?
Hayi, mntwana wam. Nantsi into endiyinikela! Awunakwenza nto ngaphandle kwam.
Njani Nkosi? Ndingaqaqambisa njani intliziyo yam?
… Ungenzi malungiselelo kwiminqweno yenyama.
Kodwa ndibuthathaka. Lo ngumgca wokuqala wedabi. Kulapho nditshona khona. Ngaba awuyi kundinceda?
Sukujonga kwi-rut okanye umva kwixesha lakho elidlulileyo. Musa ukujonga ekunene nasekhohlo. Jonga phambili kum, kum kuphela.
Kodwa andikuboni!
Mntwana wam, Mntwana wam… andikuthembisanga ukuba andinakuze ndikushiye? Ndilapha!
DAWN
Kodwa ayifani. Ndifuna ukubona ubuso bakho.
Umendo uhamba ngokholo. Ukuba ndithe ndilapha, ndilapha. Ngaba uya kundifuna apho ndikhona?
Ewe, Nkosi. Ndingenaphi?
Ukuya kwiTabernakele apho ndijonge khona. Kwilizwi lam apho ndithetha nawe khona. Ku-Confessional apho ndikuxolele khona. Ukungenani apho ndikuchukumisayo. Kwaye kwigumbi elingaphakathi lentliziyo yakho apho ndiza kudibana nawe yonke imihla kwimfihlelo yomthandazo. Le yindlela endifuna ukunceda ngayo, Mvana yam. Yiyo le nto kuthethwa ngayo xa iSt.
… NgoYesu Kristu iNkosi yethu.
Ngale mijelo yobabalo endiyibonisileyo ngoMoya wam nakwiCawa yam, enguMzimba wam.
Ukufuna emva kwam, ke, ukwenza ukuthanda kwam, ukuthobela imiyalelo yam, yile nto ithethwa nguSt.
… Ukwambatha iNkosi uYesu Kristu.
Kukubeka uthando. Uthando yingubo yokwenyani kuwe, leyo yenzelwe iNtlango, hayi iCage yeSin. Kukuphalaza ingwe yenyama kwaye unxibe uboya beMvana kaThixo, odalwe ngokomfanekiselo wayo.
Ndiyaqonda, Nkosi. Ndiyazi ngentliziyo yam ukuba le nto uyithethayo iyinyani—ukuba ndenzelwe iNtlango yeNkululeko… Ayisiyiyo le nto ilusizi endigcina ndikhotyokisiwe kwaye ibiba uvuyo njengesela ebusuku.
Injalo loo nto, Mntwana wam! Nangona indlela yokuphuma kwiCage iyindlela yoMnqamlezo, ikwayindlela yoVuko. Uvuyo! Kukho uvuyo noxolo nolonwabo olulindele wena entlango engaphaya kokuqonda. Ndiyakunika, kodwa hayi njengoko ihlabathi linikezela… hayi njengeXesha elithembisayo.
Uxolo lwam lufumaneka kuphela ngokuthembela. Umendo uhamba ngokholo.
Ke kutheni ndihlala ndilwa novuyo lwam nolonwabo noxolo, ngakumbi uxolo !?
Sisiphumo sesono santlandlolo, ibala lendalo ewileyo. Ude ufe, uya kuhlala uziva ukutsala kwenyama ukuya kwiCage. Kodwa musa ukoyika, ndinawe, ukukusa ekukhanyeni. Ukuba uhlala kum, ngoko nasemzabalazweni, uya kuthwala isiqhamo soxolo kuba ndiyingcambu kunye ne-stalk kunye neNkosana yoXolo.
Yiza Nkosi, unditsale kule ndawo!
Hayi, Mntwana wam, andizukutsala ebuhlanti.
Kutheni Nkosi? Ndikunika imvume!
Kungenxa yokuba ndikudalele UKUBA SIMAHLA! Wenzelwe iNtlango YENKULULEKO.
Ukuba ndingakunyanzela ungene emathafeni awo, akusayi kuba sikhululekile. Into endiyenzileyo ngoMnqamlezo wam yaphule imixokelelwane eyayibophileyo, yavula umnyango owawukubambile, yabhengeza uloyiso kulowo uza kukutshixa, kwaye akugcine ekunyukeni iNtaba yoThando yentsikelelo kuBawo okulindeleyo. Kugqityiwe! Ucango luvulekile…
Nkosi, ndi—
Yiza, mntwana wam! UBawo ulindele wena ngenzondelelo eshiya iingelosi zikhala zoloyiko. Sukulinda! Shiya ngasemva kwamathambo, kunye nokungcola, kunye nenkunkuma-ubuxoki bukaSathana, umchasi wakho. I-Cage yi-ILLUSION yakhe. Baleka, mntwana! Balekela kwinkululeko yakho! Umendo uhamba ngokholo. Kukunyathela ngentembeko. Yoyiswa ngokushiywa. Yindlela emxinwa kwaye erhabaxa, kodwa ndiyathembisa, ikhokelela kwezona ndawo zintle: eyona mimandla mihle yesidima, amahlathi amade olwazi, imilambo ebengezelayo yoxolo, kunye neentaba ezingapheliyo zobulumko — ingcamlo yentlanganiso yothando . Yiza mntwana… come ukuba yile nto uyiyo ngokwenene-yimvana hayi ingonyama yasendle.
Ungenzi malungiselelo enyama.
Yiza undilandele.
Banoyolo abahlambulukileyo intliziyo;
ngokuba baya kumbona uThixo bona. (Mat 5: 8)
Ubhaptizo, ngokudlulisela ubomi bobabalo lukaKristu, lucima isono santlandlolo kwaye lubuyisele indoda kuThixo, kodwa iziphumo zendalo, buthathaka kwaye zithambekele ebubini, ziyaqhubeka emntwini kwaye zimbizele emfazweni wokomoya….
Isono esingalunganga siyalwenza buthathaka uthando; ibonakalisa uthando olungahambelaniyo nezinto ezidaliweyo; kuthintela inkqubela yomphefumlo ekusebenziseni izidima kunye nokuziphatha kokuziphatha okuhle; kufanelekile ukohlwaywa okwethutyana. Isono sangabom esingaqondakaliyo nesilahlwayo siyasilahla kancinci kancinci ukuba senze isono esibi. Nangona kunjalo isono se-venial asiwaphuli umnqophiso noThixo. Ngobabalo lukaThixo inokubuyiselwa ebantwini. “Isono esingathandekiyo asimhluthi umoni ubabalo lokungcwalisa, ubuhlobo kunye noThixo, uthando kunye nolonwabo olungunaphakade."
-IKatekism yeCawa yamaKatolika, n. I-405, 1863
KUKRESTU, KUHLALE KUNETHEMBA.
Ukupapashwa kokuqala ngo-Okthobha 26, 2010.
Nceda uqwalasele ukubuyisa isishumi kule nkonzo kule Advent.
Ndikusikelele kwaye ndiyabulela.
Ukuhamba noMarko kule Advent The Ngoku iLizwi,
cofa kwibhena engezantsi ukuya rhuma.
I-imeyile yakho ayizokwabelwana naye nabani na.
