Iimpawu zothando

 

NGOMNYHADALA WENKONZO YETHU YE-GUADALUPE

 

Ngokuchanekileyo kwiminyaka elishumi elinesithoba eyadlulayo ukuza kumhla, ndazingcwalisa ubomi bam bonke nobufundisi kwiNkosazana Yethu yaseGuadalupe. Ukusukela ngoko, undivalile kwigadi efihlakeleyo yentliziyo yakhe, kwaye njengoMama olungileyo, uye wanakekela amanxeba am, wandanga amabala, wandifundisa ngoNyana wakhe. Undithande njengabakhe-njengoko ebathanda bonke abantwana bakhe. Ukubhalwa kwanamhlanje, ngandlel 'ithile, sisiganeko esibalulekileyo. Kungumsebenzi 'womfazi owambethe ilanga esebenza nzima ukuzala' unyana omncinci… kwaye ngoku wena, Rabble yakhe encinci.

 

IN ihlobo lasekuqaleni kuka-2018, njenge isela ebusuku, isaqhwithi somoya esikhulu sabetha ngqo kwifama yethu. Oku Isiphepho, njengoko ndiza kufumanisa kwakamsinya, ndinenjongo: ukuzenza izithixo endandizinamathele entliziyweni yam amashumi eminyaka…

 

UKUDALA I-VOIDS

Emva kokubhubha kukadadewethu xa ndandineminyaka elishumi elinethoba kuphela, phantse ubusuku bonke, ndaye ndaqonda ukuba ndifuna intuthuzelo ngezinye iindlela ngaphandle koThixo. Nangona ndandiqhubeka nokuya rhoqo kwiMisa kunye noVumo, ndaye ndazifumana ndifuna intuthuzelo ekuphathweni nasekuthandweni kwamantombazana endandithandana nawo. Kodwa oko kwakhokelela kwingxaki. Utywala buya buba "ngumvuzo", indlela "yokuphumla" ekupheleni kweveki. Okanye ndandiphethukela kwezemidlalo, ekuchitheni ixesha phambi komabonwakude, okanye ekutyeni nakwikofu. Ngamanye amaxesha bendiza kuba ne-cigar okanye ndikhuphe umbhobho. Kamva, xa ndatshata noLea, ndafuna intuthuzelo ngomtshato wethu, ngamanye amaxesha ndikhala ezandleni zakhe, ndinqwenela ukuba umzuzwana ungadluli. Nokuba indalo yaba sisincamathelisi kum; yaba yindawo yam yokuthuthuzela, isondo endiza kuphumla kulo endaweni kaTata.

Uyabona, xa ndandineminyaka esixhenxe ubudala, ndamema uYesu ukuba abe "yiNkosi yam noMsindisi," athe wahlala unanamhla. Ndandimthanda uThixo kakhulu ukuba "ndimjike"; Bendisazi ukuba mhlawumbi unecebo kuyo yonke le ntlungu; Ndiyazi ukuba, ukulahla ukholo lwam, iyakuba yintlekele iyodwa… Ke, bendisakholelwa kwaye ndimlandela. Kodwa andisayi Ethembekileyo Yena. Ndingazithemba ezi ntuthuzelo. Zazibonakala, kulawulo lwam; abakwazanga kundingcatsha; abanakujika umhlaba wam ujonge phantsi, ndacinga njalo.

Ngokumangalisayo, phakathi kolu “mvukelo luncinane,” uThixo wandibizela ebufundisini phakathi kweminyaka yoo-90. Waqala ukwenza okuninzi ukuphilisa ukuthembela kwam kuye. Ndazibophelela kwimithandazo yemihla ngemihla, ukuvuma izono rhoqo, ukufunda ngokomoya, isikhokelo somoya njalo njalo. Ezi zihlala zizisa intuthuzelo enkulu kunye nobukho bukaThixo. Ndandifunda ukuthembela kwiNceba yaKhe. Kodwa ke, ndaxhoma ezi zinto zintofontofo. Zazinokuthenjwa, ziqikelelwa. Babekhona xa ndinestress okanye ndinesithukuthezi. Ndacinga ukuba ndingabathanda bobabini “UThixo nobutyebi.” ^[1]cf. Mat 6:24 Bendingalunganga.

 

INTSHUKUMO

Uqhwithela lwalugqityiwe kwimizuzwana eli-15. Imithi emininzi entle ejikeleze iyadi yethu kumathafa anenkqayi ayagungqiswa. Kwacaca ukuba indalo nako jika umhlaba wam ujonge ezantsi. Ndandinomsindo kwaye ndikrakra iintsuku. Kwakhawuleza kwacaca ukuba andiyithandi nje indalo; yayisisithixo esincinci.

Kwiinyanga ezizayo, uxinzelelo lokujongana nesaqhwithi, kunye nokulungiswa kwendlu yethu eyayiqhekeka, kwaphazamisa ubudlelwane bam nenkosikazi yam. Kwiintsuku nje phambi kweKrisimesi, sithathe ikhefu omnye komnye. Bendihlala ehotele emva koko ndihlala indawo yomhlobo wam. Kwakuyeyona veki zimbini zibuhlungu ebomini bam (inokwenzeka njani le nto thina?). Kodwa phakathi kwayo, u Yesu watyhila esinye isithixo: ukuxhomekeka emfazini wam. INkosi yenza okuninzi emva kwaloo Krismesi ukutyhila ukophuka nokungasebenzi kakuhle entliziyweni yam. Waqala ukuphilisa imiba yengcambu ebomini bam kwaye wazisa inkululeko entsha emphefumlweni wam. Ndacinga ukuba okona kubi kuphelile.

Kodwa kweli hlobo liphelileyo bekukho isaqhwithi esahlukileyo ngokupheleleyo. Kwisithuba seenyanga ezimbini, ukonakala koomatshini, izithuthi nayo nayiphi na enye into, kwasifaka ezingamashumi amawaka eedola ematyaleni ngaloo ndlela kundisokolisa. Njengokuba bendihlala ndisenza, bendimnqula ngokunqwala uThixo — ndize ndibuyele kubo obunye ubutofotofo, izithixo ebendinazo hayi sisajongiwe…

 

IINKONZO ZOKUTHOBA

Ekuqaleni kuka-Novemba kulo nyaka, unkosikazi wam wangena e-ofisini yam wathi, “Ndicinga ukuba kufuneka uphinde uyicingisise indlela yakho yewayin kunye nepayipi yakho. Uyazithanda iziyolo zakho nokuba zezi okanye kukutya okanye ikofu okanye… mna. Ndiyazi ukuba awunxilanga kwaye unoxanduva oluhle, kodwa kunjalo, ufikelela kwezi zinto kuxinzelelo. Ndicinga ukuba inokuba uthumela umyalezo ongafanelekanga koonyana bethu, kwaye inyani ithi, nam ndiyasokola kule ndlela yenu. ”

Ndihleli ndedwa imizuzwana. Oko wayendixelela kona, ndandisele ndikwazi ngaphakathi. UMoya oyiNgcwele wayesele endilungiselele kwasekuqaleni konyaka ngokundishukumisela ukuba ndiphinde ndifunde Ubusuku obumnyama ngu-St. John woMnqamlezo, incwadi yeklasikhi malunga nemfuno yokuzibandakanya ukuze uqhubele phambili kumanyano lobuthixo. Njengoko uSt John esitsho ngokuncamathisela okungaphaya komnye umsebenzi wakhe:

Intaka ingabanjwa ngetyathanga okanye ngentambo, kodwa ayikwazi ukubhabha. —St. UYohane woMnqamlezo, op. cit ., ikepusi. xi. (cf. Ukunyuka kweNtaba yeKarmele, Incwadi I, n. 4)

Owu, bendifuna ukubhabha ndiye kuThixo! Okoko kwavela isaqhwithi, ndandikwimfazwe yoqobo emphefumlweni wam. UYesu wayefuna yonke into-kwaye ndandifuna yonke into yakhe… kodwa ndandingekakulungeli ukuyikhulula ngokupheleleyo. Ndingazenza izizathu zokuba, emva kwayo yonke loo nto, bendisokola ngokwaneleyo, ukuba ezi ntuthuzelo zazingekho ukuba engekho ngqiqweni. Ingcamango yokubavumela bahambe yabonakala iyinto elusizi ukuyenza. 

UYesu emjonge, ndamthanda bathi kuye, Kukho nto-nye uyisweleyo; Yiya uthengise ngeempahla zakho, uphe amahlwempu, woba nobutyebi ke emazulwini; uze undilandele. Akubona loo nto, wasuka wawa ngobuso, wemka ebuhlungu, kuba ebenemfuyo eninzi. (UMarko 10: 21-22)

Yintoni eyenzekayo emva koko, andinamazwi. Ngequbuliso, a lubabalo lwenguquko yeza phezu kwam. Ndabiza uLea ukuba abuyele eofisini yam. Ndamjonga ndathi, "Ndingathini bhala ngezi zithixo eCaweni, kwaye ngoku, unamathele kweyam? Unyanisile sithandwa. Ndinikezele uthando lwam kwezi zinto. Kodwa uYesu usicela ukuba simthande kunye naye ngentliziyo yethu yonke, ngomphefumlo wethu wonke, nangamandla ethu onke. Lixesha, sithandwa. Lixesha lam, kube kanye, ukuba ndiziqhekeze ezi zithixo ndize ndizishiye ngokupheleleyo kuye." Iinyembezi zovuyo kunye nolindelo lwawa njengemvula. Ifestile yamathuba yayivuliwe. Ubabalo lwalukho.

Ndiye efrijini ndafika ndathatha itoti yebhiya nale wayini besisele nayo. Emva koko ndaya evenkileni ndaza ndaqokelela imibhobho yam kunye necuba (ebendilithengile kwiminyaka esixhenxe eyadlulayo xa umamazala wam wayesifa ngumhlaza, kwakhona, ukukhusela ukubandezeleka kwam ngesithixo sentuthuzelo). Nangona kunjalo, njengoko ndandihamba ndisiya kutshisa ezi zinto, kwathi gqi into engaphakathi. Ngokukhawuleza, ndibuhlungu kakhulu ndaza ndaqala ukukhala, emva koko ndakhala, emva koko ndaphakama. Ndothuka. Andizange ndikuqonde ukuba kwenzeka ntoni kum, mhlawumbi nokuhanjiswa okuncinci kohlobo oluthile. Ke, ndaqokelela isibindi sam ndaza ndaphosa imibhobho emlilweni. Emva koko ndayigalela emhlabeni le wayini, besendilila.

Ke… njengamanzi aqala ukungena emthonjeni ongenanto… uxolo lwaqala ukugcwalisa izithuba zothando.

 

UKUFUMANA UKUPHUMULA

Ngosuku olulandelayo, ndandizibuza ukuba ingaba ndiye kude kakhulu na. Ndazibuza ukuba ingaba oku kugqithisile na. Kwaye, iNkosi ngokulunga kwayo, yandicacisela ukuba kutheni le nto kufuneka ndiyenzile:

Ezi zithixo zithathe indawo yaM. Ezi ntuthuzelo zithathe indawo entliziyweni yakho ebekelwe mna kuphela-Mna ndikudalele mna ndedwa. Mntwana wam, kubhaliwe kwathiwa, “Yizani kum nonke nina nibulalekayo, nisindwayo ngumthwalo, ndoninika ukuphumla.” Kodwa ujikele kwenye indawo ukuze uphumle, yiyo loo nto uhlala ungenaxhala.

Ukuguqukela kuYesu kolu phumlo kuthetha ukufulathela okanye ukulahla imithwalo yethu. Kodwa kutheni singenzi oku? Impendulo yile ibizwa nguSt.Thomas Aquinas ubufanasini okanye "ukuthamba" -omphefumlo  ngubani ongafuniyo ukubandezeleka.

Abo bathambekele kolu lonwabo banokunye ukungafezeki okunzulu, okuthi babuthathaka kwaye balahle ekunyatheni indlela yomnqamlezo. Umphefumlo onikezelwe kulonwabo ngokwendalo uziva umoyike ubukrakra bokuzincama. -Ubusuku obumnyama, INcwadi yokuQala, uCh. 6, n. 7

Kodwa oku kuthamba kuyaxoka. Ngokwenene iyasibamba iimpahla ezinkulu oko kuya kuzisa inzaliseko enkulu ngakumbi.

Ukufezekiswa kweenjongo zethu kufuna ukuba singaze sime kule ndlela, oko kuthetha ukuba kufuneka siqhubeke nokususa iimfuno zethu kunokuba sizanelise. Kuba ukuba asizilahli zonke ngokupheleleyo, asizukufikelela ngokupheleleyo usukelo lwethu. Isigodo somthi asinakuguqulwa sibe ngumlilo ukuba akukho nokuba sinye isixa sobushushu esisilelayo kumalungiselelo alo. Umphefumlo, ngokufanayo, awunakuguqulwa ungene kuThixo nokuba ungafezekanga ...  —St. UYohane woMnqamlezo, Ukunyuka kweNtaba yeKarmele, Incwadi I, Ch. 11, n. 6

Ukusukela ngala mhla "ndazichithachitha" ezo zithixo, bendinamava amaza emva kobabalo, amandla amatsha okuqonda kunye noxolo phakathi kweenyembezi zovuyo. USt John woMnqamlezo wakha wathi sinokuthi siqhubele phambili ngokukhawuleza ukuya kumanyano lobuthixo ukuba siyalahla sonke isono kunye nokunamathela okungaphezulu. Ngamanye amagama, asigwetywanga kubomi bokungazoli, ukubandezeleka kunye noxinzelelo ngelixa sisemhlabeni. UYesu wathi:

Ndizele ukuze babe nobomi, babe nabo ngokuyintabalala. Ngaphandle kokuba ukhozo lwengqolowa luwele emhlabeni luze lufe, luhlala lukhozo nje lwenkozo. kodwa ukuba iyafa, ivelisa isiqhamo esininzi. (UYohane 10:10, 12:24)

 

HAYI ukuthanda kwam

Cingisisa ngale nto: yonke into eme phakathi kwakho nooGift yintando yakho! Yenza into "enzima" (ubuncinci ivakalelwa ngaloo ndlela ekuqaleni) ukufumana i eyona into. Umama wethu uthe kuMkhonzi kaThixo uLuisa Piccarreta ukuba ufuna bonke abantwana bakhe bazi i ubomi obungaphakathi obufanayo anayo ngokuhlala kwintando kaThixo, hayi eyethu.

Ngaba uyazi ukuba yintoni esenza ukuba singafani? Yintando yakho ephanga ubutsha benceba, ubuhle obugcina uMdali wakho, amandla oyisa kwaye anyamezele yonke into kunye nothando oluchaphazela yonke into. -INkosikazi yethu eLuisa Piccarreta, Intombikazi enguMariya kuKumkani weNtando kaThixo, UHlelo lwesiThathu (ngoguqulelo lukaMfu Joseph Iannuzzi); UNihil Obstat kwaye Imprimatur, UNksk. UFrancis M. della Cueva SM, umthunywa ka-Archbishop wase-Trani, e-Italiya (umthendeleko kaKrestu uKumkani); ukusuka Incwadi yokuthandaza yokuthanda kukaThixo, p. 87

Ndifumene le nyaniso ngalo mzuzu. Ngokuchithwa kwezi zithixo, ngoku kukho indawo entliziyweni yam yokuthanda kukaThixo; kukho “umhlaba olungileyo” wokuhlwayela imbewu yoBukumkani; ^[2]cf. ULuka 8:8 kukho intliziyo engenanto engenanto ukuze igcwaliswe ngoButhixo. ^[3]cf. Fil 2: 7 Kwaye ndizifumana ndikhala ngamazwi ka-Augustine, "Ndikuthandile mva, O Nkosi! Ndikuthandile mva! ”

Owu, kunini apho iminqweno yam ivuselelwe kwaye kwangoko, Nkosi, ubufuna kwaye ubiza ukuba ndithathelwe phezulu kunye nawe! —St. UTeresa waseAvila, osuka Imisebenzi eqokelelweyo yaseSt. Teresa waseAvila, Vol. 1

Yesu Krestu, Nkosi yam, nokuba izono zam ukusukela ebuntwaneni bam, kunye nezo ndizibeke ukuza kuthi ga kweli lixa, zinkulu kakhulu… inceba yakho inkulu kunobubi bezono zam. —St. UFrancis Xavier, osuka Iileta kunye nemiyalelo kaFrancis Xavier; icatshulwe kwi Mkhulu, Ngomhla wama-2019, iphe. 53

 

IKHONDO

Sisiphi isifundo ke namhlanje? Kungenxa yokuba kufuneka wenze imithambo sibindi. Ndiqinisekile ukuba, ngenxa yokuba ufunda le nto, unenceba yokwenza oko kuyimfuneko. Kodwa kufuneka ube nesibindi - ukuze 'ungoyiki.' Iminyaka, bendikhwaza njengendoda eyimfama uBhartimeyu, Ndenzele inceba, Yesu, nyana kaDavide. Kodwa eyona nto bendiyiswela sisibindi sokuyeka le ndiyibambeleyo.

Wema uYesu wathi, Mbize. Bayibiza ke imfama, besithi kuye, Yomelela; Vuka, uyakubiza. ” Walahla ecaleni ingubo yakhe, yesuka yeza kuYesu. (UMarko 10: 46-52)

Walahla ecaleni ingubo yakhe. Waphiliswa kunye naloo nto. Ubambelele ngantoni namhlanje? Okanye, yintoni ndinamathele kuwe. Kungenxa yokuba enyanisweni, efihliweyo ngaphakathi kwintlungu yokuyeka ezo zinto zihambe (umnqamlezo) yimbewu yobomi obutsha kunye nokukhanya (uvuko). Ngoko ke…

… Masisuse wonke umthwalo nesono esisincamatheleyo sizingise ekubalekeni ugqatso oluphambi kwethu ngelixa sigcine amehlo ethu ethe ntsho kuYesu, inkokeli nomphelelisi wokholo. Ngenxa yovuyo olwalubekwe phambi kwakhe, wawunyamezela umnqamlezo… (Heb 12: 1-2)

Oku kuthethile, bongoza uMama wakho osikelelweyo ukuba akuncede, njengoko izicaka zomtshato waseKana zaya kuye xa zaziphelelwe yiwayini. 

Ngaba uza kuyibeka intliziyo yakho, ukuthanda kwakho kunye nesiqu sakho ezandleni zam zoomama ukuze ndikulungiselele, ndikulahle, ndikomeleze kwaye ndikuthulule yonke into? Ukuba wenjenjalo, ndiya kukugcwalisa ngokupheleleyo ngokukhanya kokuthanda kukaThixo, kwaye ndenze kuwe ubomi bayo obungcwele. -INenekazi lethu eLuisa, eIbid. Incwadi yokuthandaza yokuthanda kukaThixo, p. 86

Izimbiza zewayini yakho, oko kukuthi, intando yakho mabakhuculwe kuqala ngaphambi kokuba bazaliswe ngokuthanda kukaThixo. UMama wethu uza kukunceda. Emva koko, ubongoza uNyana wakhe ukuba atshintshe amanzi obuthathaka bakho kwiwayini yamandla akhe; ukuya tshintsha ukuthanda kwakho kube kukuthanda kukaThixo. UMama wethu, njengomlamli wobabalo, “Ndiya kukuzalisa ngokupheleleyo” ngale Wayini intsha ithululwa njengolwandle ukusuka kwiNtliziyo ekhanyayo yeNceba kaThixo. Uya kuyenza! Kwelakho icala, sisibindi sokuba hayi, kanye kunye, kwezi zinto uncamathiselwe kuzo.

UYesu wakhe wathi kuLuisa, "Ukungena [kwintando kaThixo] izidalwa zifuna kodwa zisuse ilitye elinqabileyo lokuthanda kwazo… Umphefumlo unqwenela kodwa kwenziwe konke, uMyolelo wam uyawuthatha wonke umsebenzi. ”  Ukuba unomlawuli wokomoya, mtyhilele ezo zithixo oziva ngathi kufuneka zitshabalaliswe ngaphambi kokuba wenze nantoni na ebukhali. Ukuba awunaye umphathi, cela uMama wethu kunye noMoya oyiNgcwele ukuba athobe inzondelelo yakho ukuze wenze kuphela oko kukholekileyo kuThixo. Sukuwela kwimpazamo yokucinga ukuba izinto ezintle ezinje ngendalo, itshokholethi, isini somtshato, okanye iglasi yewayini ayilunganga. Hayi! Yintoni enesono neyonakalisayo kuxa ezi zinto ziye zaba zizithixo ezithi emva koko zidale "izithuba zothando" apho ukuthanda kukaThixo kufanele kulawula khona. Cela uMama wethu isihlalo soBulumko ukuba sikunike ulwazi kunye nobulumko obufunekayo ukuze ube ngulomntu uYise wakudalela ukuba ubenguye, ekuthi ekugqibeleni, kufumaneke kwisipho nakubabalo lokuphila kwintando kaThixo.

Lubabalo lokundifundisa, lokuphila nokukhula emphefumlweni wakho, ungaze ulushiye, ukuba ube ngumnini kunye nelungelo lokufumana ubunini bakho ngento enye. Ndim endiwunxibelelanisa nomphefumlo wakho kuxinzelelo olungenakuqondwa: lubabalo lweendawo zobumbeko ... Yinto yomanyano olufana nolomanyano lwasezulwini, ngaphandle kwalomhlaba isigqubuthelo esifihlela ubuThixo inyamalala… -Ubhalwe nguBonchita Conchita (uMaría Concepción Cabrera Arias de Armida), ucatshulwe kwi Isithsaba kunye nokuGqitywa kwako konke ukungcwatywa, NguDaniel O'Connor, iphe. 11-12; Qaphela. URonda Chervin, Hamba nam, Yesu

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Lixesha, mhlobo wam, lokutshisa iinqanawa kwaye ugcwalise izinto ezingenalo uthando.

Suka ume ukhaliphe!
—INenekazi lethu eLuisa, Intombikazi enguMariya eBukumkanini, Usuku 2