Insimu Eyincithakalo

O Jehova, sake saba ngabangane.
Mina nawe,
ngihamba ngibambene ngezandla ensimini yenhliziyo yami.
Kodwa manje, ukuphi Nkosi yami?
Ngiyakufuna,
kepha thola kuphela amakhona afiphele lapho esake sathanda khona
wangivezela izimfihlo zakho.
Lapho futhi, ngathola uMama wakho
futhi ngakuzwa ukuthinta kwakhe okusondele ebunzini lami.

Kodwa manje, ukuphi?
Ngempela, ngahamba,
kodwa ubuyile,
futhi insimu, lapho yayivele iluhlaza, isibe nsundu futhi ayinyumba,
zinothuli futhi ziyincithakalo,
kuhlotshiswe kuphela ngamaqabunga omisiwe namahlumela angenalutho…
namathunzi enkumbulo adlulayo.
Kuyiphutha lami—mina culpa.
Kuyisono sami, ukukhetha kwami, ukuhlubuka kwami, ukungabaza kwami, ukwehluleka kwami
okuchithe insimu yenhliziyo yami.
Ngikumemile futhi — kodwa yizwa umoya kuphela,
ixubene nezinyembezi ngalokho okwake kwaba khona,
kepha ayisekho.

Ngoba othandiweyo wami akasekho,
futhi Kuye, konke ukuthula, lonke ithemba, yonke injabulo.

Manje,
Ngizohlala lapha ebhentshini elibandayo lamatshe
iqiniso neqiniso,
futhi
linda.
Mhlawumbe, Uzofika,
futhi ugwadule lwenhliziyo yami luyoba a
ingadi
futhi.

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Ingane yami — isithandwa sami.
Ngiye kuphi ngaphandle enkabeni yensimu,
maphakathi nenhliziyo yakho?
Lapho ngikulindile, ukungithola lapho ngikhona.
Nifuna Mina emakhoneni, okungukuthi, izinduduzo ezazikhona.
Kepha manje ngikudonsela ekujuleni,
Ngokujulile
ku
the
phakathi
lapho kukhona i-Oasis efihliwe.

Yimi leyo Oasis, ngicashe ngaphansi kwamaqabunga awile notshani obude.
Woza enkabeni yenhliziyo yakho.
Wozani endaweni yeqiniso elinqunu
lapho kungasekho khona amakhona okucasha,
azikho izindlela ezisemaceleni zokubaleka,
awekho amabhentshi okuphumula—
kodwa ichibi elijulile lothando Lwami olungenakuqondakala.
Woza, uwele kuleli chibi,
kwalasha wenhliziyo yami enesihe.
Yebo, shiya manje izisekelo nokulindelwe izolo
futhi
ziphonse
ku
the
ekujuleni
we
Unknown
lapho umuntu ebona engaboni,
uyazi ngaphandle kokwazi,
futhi uthanda ngaphandle, kwesinye isikhathi, ukuzwa uthando.

Ichibi Lenhliziyo Yami, ngaphakathi kwensimu yangaphakathi yomphefumulo wakho,
yindawo yokuphumula yangempela.

Bheka, angikulahlanga,
kodwa ngikuholele ekujuleni kwenhliziyo yakho uhlanganiswe Nami.
Inhliziyo yami, maphakathi nenhliziyo yakho — inhliziyo yakho, isikhungo Sami.

Lapha manje, ngane yami, sekuyisikhathi sokujula,

kuya
hamba
Ngemuva

lokho okungasakwazi ukusiza kepha ukuvimba umphefumulo wakho
kusukela
ubunye baphezulu Nami.
Ungalibali ezindaweni lapho esake sahlangana khona,
ngoba angikho lapho…
… Futhi ngeke umthole Lowo omlangazelelayo.

Kepha Mntanami,
Ngilapha,
ku
phakathi
yenhliziyo yakho,
kungafihlekile emoyeni wakho,
kepha ingqondo nomphefumulo (kufanele kube njalo, okwamanje).
Ngena ngesango lokholo,
ephakamisa isibambo sethemba,
bese uphonsa sonke isiqu sakho kwalasha
zothando Lwami nesihe.

Futhi sizothanda kakhulu kunanini ngaphambili…