WELL, Kufanele ngikujwayele lokhu manje. Noma kunini lapho iNkosi ilele khona eqinile amazwi asenhliziyweni yami, ngilungele impi — ngokomoya nangokwenyama. Okwezinsuku manje, noma nini lapho ngifuna ukubhala, kunjengokungathi i-radar yami iminyene, futhi ukwakha umusho owodwa cishe akunakwenzeka. Kwesinye isikhathi kungenxa yokuthi “igama” alikakulungeli ukukhuluma okwamanje; ezinye izikhathi — futhi ngicabanga ukuthi lesi ngesinye sazo — kubonakala sengathi kukhona konke okuphumile impi ngesikhathi sami.
Lapho ngibuya ekhaya ngibuya isikhashana emvelweni ngesonto eledlule, ngilungele ukuqala ukukubhalela lokho engicabanga ukuthi amagama abalulekile kulelihora, ngithole ihhashi lami, uBhele, [1]qhathanisa Belle, kanye noQeqesho lwesibindi ngesibazi esesabekayo emlenzeni wakhe engozini ngenkathi sihambile (simsindisile ngesikhathi esifanele, yize manje sekufanele simelaphe kathathu ngosuku ngamakhambi namabhandeshi). Ngemuva kwalokho umshini wokuwasha wafa. Kwathi namhlanje, imishini yami yotshani yaphuka. Kube yinkinga eyodwa emva kwenye efuna isikhathi esiningi nokugijimela emuva naphambili, njll.
Ngikhungathekile.
Ngakho-ke, ngigcoba ezandleni zami nezingubo zami zimbozwe ukungcola, nginqume ukungena ehhovisi lami bese ngikubhalela inothi elisheshayo lokucela imithandazo yakho futhi ngikwazise ukuthi angilali ewashini lami. Empeleni, kuphambene impela: kuningi okwenzekayo, kangangoba mina ufuna ukusho, ukuthi sekuba ngumthwalo, njengoba kuhlale kwenzeka, lapho nginegama enhliziyweni yami engingakwazi ukulikhuluma:
… Kunjengokungathi umlilo uvutha enhliziyweni yami, uboshiwe emathanjeni ami; Ngikhathele ukuzibamba, angikwazi! (Jeremiya 20: 9)
Izinto seziqala ukwenzeka ngokushesha okukhulu emhlabeni wethu… eziningi zizothathwa isimanga. Ngiqonde ukuthi, uma ngingakwazi ukulandela okwenzeka ezindabeni — futhi ngibuka futhi ngifunda imicimbi yeSonto neyomhlaba ngokomkhuleko usuku ngalunye — umuntu ojwayelekile uzigcina kanjani azi? Kepha njengoba ngisho, konke lokhu kuyingxenye yeSiphepho. Lapho sisondela eIso, lapho imimoya ishesha, izikhathi ziba nezinxushunxushu eziningi, kulapho sizodinga kakhulu ukuhamba ngokukholwa nangomusa.
Ngakho-ke, kufanele ngibuyele kugandaganda wami. Kepha ngizokubhalela ngokushesha nje lapho ngingathola umzuzu… umzuzu ngaphandle kwenkinga!
Kepha nina, bazalwane, anikho ebumnyameni, ukuba lolo suku lunifice njengesela. Ngoba nonke ningabantwana bokukhanya nabantwana bosuku. Asibona abasebusuku noma abobumnyama. Ngakho-ke, masingalali njengabanye, kodwa masihlale siphapheme futhi sisangulukile. Labo abalele balala ebusuku, nalabo abadakiwe badakwa ebusuku. Kepha njengoba singabemini, masibe abahluzekile, sigqoke isivikelo sesifuba sokholo nothando, nesigqoko sokuzivikela esiyithemba lokusindiswa. Ngoba uNkulunkulu akasimiselanga ulaka, kodwa ukuzuza insindiso ngeNkosi yethu uJesu Kristu, owasifela, ukuze kuthi noma siphapheme noma silele siphile kanye naye. Ngakho-ke, khuthazanani futhi nakhane, njengoba nje nenza. (1 Thes. 5: 4-11)
Lesi yisikhathi esinzima kakhulu sonyaka,
ngakho-ke umnikelo wakho ubongwa kakhulu.
Imibhalo yaphansi
| ↑1 | qhathanisa Belle, kanye noQeqesho lwesibindi |
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