FIVORIAMBEN'NY KARENY
Day 31
I mila mihomehy, satria izaho no olona farany tsy azoko eritreretina hiresaka momba ny vavaka. Lehibe aho, somary hyper aho, tsy mihetsika ary vonona hilalao foana. Sarotra tamiko ny nijanona nijanona teny amin'ny Mass. Ary ireo boky, amiko, dia fandaniam-potoana fotsiny amin'ny fialamboly tsara. Ka, tamin'ny fotoana nahavitako ny fianarako teny amin'ny lise, dia mety efa namaky boky latsaky ny folo tamin'ny fiainako manontolo aho. Ary raha namaky ny Baiboliko aho, dia sarotra ny fanantenana hipetraka sy hivavaka mandritra ny fotoana lava, raha tsy hiteny afa-tsy izay.
When I was only seven years old, I was introduced to the notion of a “personal relationship with Jesus.” I grew up with family prayer, with parents who deeply loved the Lord, and wove Christianity through everything we did. But it wasn’t until I left home that I realized how utterly weak, prone to sin, and helpless I was to change myself. That’s when a friend of mine began to speak about the “interior life”, the spirituality of the saints, and this personal call from God to union with Him. I began to see that a “personal relationship” with God was far more than going to Mass. It required my personal time and attention to Him so that I could learn to hear His voice and let Him love me. In a word, it demanded that I begin to take my spiritual life seriously and mivavaka. For as the Catechism teaches…
… Vavaka is ny fifandraisan'ny zanak'Andriamanitra amin'ny Rainy… -Katesizan'ny Fiangonana Katolika, tsy. 2565
As I began to take my prayer life seriously, a new joy and peace that I had never experienced before began to fill my heart. Suddenly, new wisdom and understanding of the Scriptures filled my mind; my eyes were opened to subtle evils that I had previously glossed over. And my somewhat wild nature began to be tamed. This is all to say that, if I have learned to pray, na iza na iza can pray.
God says in Deuteronomy,
I have set before you life and death, blessing and curse; therefore choose life… (Deut 30:19)
Since the Catechism teaches that “prayer is the life of the new heart,” then choose prayer. I say this because each day we have to choose God, to choose Him over everything else, to seek first ny kingdom, and that includes choosing to spend time with Him.
At first, prayer may be a joy for you, but there will be times when it’s not; times when it will be dry, difficult, and displeasing. But I have found that those times, even if they last for a good while, never last forever. He allows us to experience desolation in prayer, as long as needed, so that our faith in Him is tested and purified; and He allows us to taste His consolations, whenever needed, so that we will be renewed and strengthened. And the Lord is always faithful, never allowing us to be tried beyond our strength. So remember that, as pilgrims, we are traveling always through spiritual mountains. If you are on a peak, remember that a valley will come; if you are in a valley, you will eventually come to a peak.
One day, after a period of desolation, Jesus said to St. Faustina:
My daughter, during the weeks when you neither saw Me nor felt My presence, I was more profoundly united to you than at times [when you experienced] ecstasy. And the faithfulness and fragrance of your prayer have reached Me. After these words, my soul became flooded with God’s consolation. -Famindrampon'Andriamanitra ao amin'ny fanahiko, Diary, n. 1246
Keep before you the goal of prayer, it’s purpose. It’s not to “get your prayers done”, so to speak; a race to get through your Rosary, a mad rush to skim through your pray book, or a dash to whip off a devotion. Rather…
…Christian prayer should go further: to the knowledge of the love of the Lord Jesus, to union with him. -Katesizan'ny Fiangonana Katolika, tsy. 2708
One Hail Mary prayed with the heart is more powerful than fifty prayed without. So, if you begin to pray a Psalm, for example, and three sentences in, you sense God’s presence, His reassurance, or hear a word of knowledge in your heart, then stay there in that place and linger with Him. There are times when I’ll begin a Rosary or the Divine Office… and it’s two hours later that I finally finish because the Lord wanted to speak to my heart words of love in between the beads; He wanted to teach me more than what was written on the page. And that’s okay. If Jesus rang the doorbell and said, “Can I speak with you for a moment,” you wouldn’t say, “Give me 15 minutes, I’m just finishing my prayers.” No, in that moment, you have reached your goal! And the goal, says St. Paul, is…
…that [the Father] may grant you in accord with the riches of his glory to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in the inner self, and that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the holy ones what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, so that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. (Eph 3:16-19)
So that your heart, like a hot air balloon, may expand to contain more and more of God.
And so, as we said earlier in this Retreat, don’t be your own judge of your interior progress. It is has been discovered that tree roots grow far more in the freeze of winter than we realized. So too, the soul that remains rooted and grounded in prayer will grow interiorly in ways that they may not yet perceive. Don’t be discouraged if your prayer-life seems stagnate. To pray is an act of finoana; to pray when you don’t feel like praying is an act of fitiavana, ary “Love never fails.” [1]1 Cor 13: 8
My spiritual director once said to me, “If fifty times during prayer, you become distracted, but fifty times you turn back to the Lord and begin to pray again, that’s fifty acts of love for God that may be more meritorious in His eyes than a single, undistracted prayer.”
…one makes time for the Lord, with the firm determination not to give up, no matter what trials and dryness one may encounter. -Katesizan'ny Fiangonana Katolika, tsy. 2710
And so, my friends, it may seem to you that the ‘balloon of your heart” is not filling up as fast as you like. So tomorrow, we’ll talk about more foundational principles of prayer that I am certain will help you fly heavenward…
FAMINTINANA SY SORATRA MASINA
The goal of prayer is knowledge of the love of Jesus and union with Him that will come by way of perseverance and determination.
Ask, and it will be given you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you…. If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will the heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him. (Luke 11:9, 13)
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| ↑1 | 1 Cor 13: 8 |
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