Kupanda Chikondi

 

PA CHIKondwerero CHA DADY WATHU WA GUADALUPE

 

Zaka khumi ndi zisanu ndi zinayi zapitazo kufikira tsikuli, ndinapatula moyo wanga wonse ndi utumiki wanga kwa Amayi Athu a Guadalupe. Kuyambira pamenepo, adanditsekera m'munda wobisika wamtima mwake, ndipo ngati mayi wabwino, wasamalira mabala anga, nampsompsona mikwingwirima yanga, ndipo wandiphunzitsa za Mwana wake. Amandikonda monga momwe amadzikondera — monganso ana ake onse. Zolemba zalero, mwanjira inayake, ndizopambana. Ndi ntchito ya "Mkazi wobvala dzuwa akugwira ntchito kuti abereke" mwana wamwamuna wamng'ono… ndipo tsopano inu, Kalulu wake Wamng'ono.

 

IN kumayambiriro kwa chilimwe cha 2018, ngati mbala usiku, mkuntho wamkuntho udawomba pafamu yathu. Izi mkuntho, monga momwe ndikanadziwira posachedwa, ndinali ndi cholinga: kuwononga mafano omwe ndakhala ndikumamatira mumtima mwanga kwazaka zambiri…

 

KUPANGA VOIDS

Mlongo wanga atamwalira ndili ndi zaka khumi ndi zisanu ndi zinayi zokha, pafupifupi usiku wonse, ndinayamba kufunafuna chitonthozo m’njira zina osati Mulungu. Ngakhale kuti ndinapitirizabe kupita ku Misa ndi Confession kaŵirikaŵiri, ndinapeza chitonthozo m’kukhudzidwa ndi chikondi cha atsikana amene ndinali pachibwenzi. Koma zimenezo mosapeŵeka zinadzetsa mavuto. Mowa unakula kukhala “mphotho,” njira “yopumula” kumapeto kwa sabata. Kapenanso ndinkakonda kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, kuwononga nthawi n’kumaonera TV, kapena ndinkakondanso zakudya ndi khofi. Nthawi zina ndimakhala ndi ndudu kapena kuputa chitoliro. Pambuyo pake, pamene ndinakwatiwa ndi Lea, ndinafunafuna chitonthozo kupyolera mu ukwati wathu, nthaŵi zina ndinalilira m’manja mwake, ndikukhumba kuti nthaŵiyo isapitirire. Ngakhale chilengedwe chinakhala chomangika kwa ine; idakhala malo anga otonthoza, chovala chomwe ndidapumirapo m'malo mwa Atate.

Mwaona, pamene ndinali ndi zaka zisanu ndi ziŵiri, ndinaitana Yesu kukhala “Ambuye ndi Mpulumutsi” wanga, amene akhalabe mpaka lero. Ndinkakonda Mulungu kwambiri moti sindikanatha “kumutembenukira” Iye; Ndinadziwa kuti mwina anali ndi dongosolo mu chisoni chonsechi; Ndinadziwa kuti kusiya chikhulupiriro changa kukanakhala tsoka mwa iko kokha… Kotero, ine ndinakhulupirirabe ndi kumutsatira Iye. Koma ine sindirinso wodalirika Iye. Ndinkakhulupirira zinthu zabwinozi. Iwo anali ogwirika, mu ulamuliro wanga; iwo sakanakhoza kundipereka ine; iwo sakanakhoza kutembenuza dziko langa mozondoka, kotero ine ndinaganiza.

Chochititsa chidwi n’chakuti, mkati mwa “chipanduko chaching’ono” chimenechi, Mulungu anandiitana kuti ndichite utumiki cha m’ma 90. Iye anayamba kuchita zambiri kuti ndichiritse chikhulupiriro changa mwa Iye. Ndinadzipereka kupemphera tsiku ndi tsiku, kuulula kawirikawiri, kuwerenga zauzimu, malangizo auzimu ndi zina zotero. Izi nthawi zambiri zimabweretsa chitonthozo chachikulu chauzimu ndi kupezeka kwa Mulungu. Ndinali kuphunzira kudalira Chifundo Chake Chaumulungu. Komabe, ndinapitirizabe kutonthoza ena. Anali odalirika, odalirika. Analipo pamene ndinali wopsinjika maganizo kapena wosungulumwa. Ndinaganiza kuti ndikhoza kuwakonda onse awiri “Mulungu ndi Mamoni.” ^[1]onani. Mateyu 6: 24 Ndinali wolakwa.

 

MTUMWI

Mphepo yamkunthoyo inatha kwenikweni mkati mwa masekondi 15. Mitengo yambiri yokongola yozungulira bwalo lathu pa dazi inagwetsedwa. Zinapezeka kuti chikhalidwe ndikanathera kusintha dziko langa mozondoka. Ndinali wokwiya komanso wowawa kwa masiku ambiri. Posakhalitsa zinaonekeratu kuti sindinangoyamikira chilengedwe; linalidi fano laling'ono.

M’miyezi ikubwerayi, mavuto olimbana ndi chimphepocho, ndi kukonzanso nyumba yathu yomwe inali kugwa, zinasokoneza ubwenzi wanga ndi mkazi wanga. Masiku angapo Khrisimasi isanachitike, tinapumula kuchokera kwa wina ndi mzake. Ndinkakhala m’hotelo kenako m’nyumba ya mnzanga. Zinali masabata awiri opweteka kwambiri a moyo wanga (zinatheka bwanji kuti izi zichitike ife?). Koma mkati mwake, Yesu anavumbula fano lina: kudalirana ndi mkazi wanga. Ambuye anachita zambiri pambuyo pa Khrisimasi kuti awulule kusweka ndi kusagwira ntchito mu mtima mwanga. Adayamba kuchiritsa zomwe zidayambitsa moyo wanga ndikubweretsa ufulu watsopano m'moyo wanga. Ndinaganiza kuti zoyipitsitsa zatha.

Koma chilimwe chapitachi chinali chimphepo chosiyana kwambiri. M’miyezi iŵiri yokha, kuwonongeka kwa makina, magalimoto ndi china chilichonse, kunatilowetsa m’ngongole zambirimbiri motero zinandigwedeza kwambiri. Monga ndimachitira nthaŵi zonse, ndinkangovomereza kuti Mulungu ndi wachabechabe, kenako n’kutembenukira ku zinthu zina zotonthoza, mafano amene ndinali nawo. osati adakumana ndi…

 

KUSNYA MAFANO

Kumayambiriro kwa mwezi wa November chaka chino, mkazi wanga analowa mu ofesi yanga n’kunena mwachikondi kuti, “Ndikuganiza kuti uyenera kuganiziranso za mmene umaonera vinyo ndi chitoliro chako. Mumakonda zabwino zanu kaya ndi izi kapena chakudya kapena khofi kapena… ine. Ndikudziwa kuti simunaledzera komanso kuti ndinu wodalirika, komabe mukufikira zinthu izi mopsinjika. Ndikuganiza kuti mwina mukutumiza uthenga wolakwika kwa anyamata athu, ndipo kunena zoona, inenso ndikulimbana ndi njira yanu.”

Ndinakhala ndekha kwa mphindi zingapo. Zomwe amandiuza ndimazidziwa kale mkati mwake. Mzimu Woyera unali utandikonzekeretsa kale m’chakachi pondisuntha kuti ndiwerengenso Usiku Wamdima yolembedwa ndi St. John of the Cross, buku lachikale la kufunika kolekanitsa kuti tipite patsogolo ku mgwirizano waumulungu. Monga momwe St John adanenera za kuphatikizika kwa ntchito yake ina:

Mbalame imatha kugwiridwa ndi unyolo kapena ulusi, komabe imatha kuwuluka. —St. Yohane wa Mtanda, Kuwonekera cit ., kapu. xi. (onaninso. Kukwera kwa Phiri la Karimeli, Buku I, n. 4)

O, ndinkafuna kuwulukira kwa Mulungu! Chiyambireni chimphepocho, ndinali ndikukokerana kwenikweni m’moyo wanga. Yesu ankafuna zonse za ine—ndipo ine ndinkafuna zonse za Iye… Ndinkadzikhululukira kuti, pambuyo pa zonse, ndinali kuvutika mokwanira, kuti kutonthoza kumeneku kunalibe kuti zopanda nzeru. Lingaliro lowalola kupita linkawoneka ngati chinthu chomvetsa chisoni. 

Yesu pomuyang’ana, anamukonda iye nati kwa iye, Usowa kanthu kamodzi; Pita, gulitsa zomwe uli nazo, nupatse aumphawi, ndipo udzakhala ndi chuma kumwamba; ndiye ukabwere, unditsate. Pamenepo nkhope yake idagwa, nachoka ali wachisoni; pakuti adali ndi chuma chambiri. ( Marko 10:21-22 )

Zomwe zidachitika kenako, ndilibe mawu. Mwadzidzidzi, a chisomo cha kulapa anabwera pa ine. Ndinamuyitana Lea kuti alowe mu office mwanga. Ine ndinayang'ana pa iye ndipo ndinati, “Ine ndingakhoze bwanji lemba za mafano awa mu Mpingo, ndipo komabe, kumamatira kwanga? Ukunena bwino darling. Ndapereka chikondi changa ku zinthu izi. Koma Yesu akutipempha kuti timukonde naye mtima wathu wonse, moyo wathu wonse, ndi mphamvu zathu zonse. Yakwana nthawi, wokondedwa. Yakwana nthawi yanga, kamodzi kwanthawi zonse, kuti ndiphwanye mafanowa ndi kudzisiya ndekha kwathunthu kwa Iye.” Misozi yachisangalalo ndi chiyembekezo idagwa ngati mvula. Mwayi unali wotseguka. Chisomo chinali pamenepo.

Ndinapita ku furiji ndikukatenga chitini cha mowa ndi zomwe tatsala nazo. Kenaka ndinapita ku sitolo ndikusonkhanitsa mapaipi anga ndi fodya (zomwe ndinagula zaka zisanu ndi ziwiri zapitazo pamene apongozi anga anali kufa ndi khansa, kachiwiri, kuti ndichepetse kuvutika kwanga ndi fano la chitonthozo). Komabe, pamene ndinali kupita kumalo otenthetserako kutentha kuti ndikawotche zinthu zimenezi, chinthu china m’kati mwake chinalephera. Mwadzidzidzi, chisoni chachikulu chinandigwera ndipo ndinayamba kulira, kenaka kulira, kenaka kugwedezeka. Ndinadabwa kwambiri. Sindinamvetse zomwe zinkandichitikira, mwina ngakhale kupulumutsidwa pang’ono kwamtundu wina. Choncho, ndinalimba mtima n’kuponya mapaipiwo pamoto. Kenako ndinathira vinyoyo pansi, ndikulirabe.

Kenako…ngati madzi akuyamba kusefukira m’chitsime chopanda kanthu… mtendere unayamba kudzaza mipata ya chikondi.

 

KUPEZA mpumulo

Tsiku lotsatira, ndinadzifunsa ngati ndinapita patali kwambiri. Ndinadzifunsa ngati izi zinali zokhwima kwambiri. Ndiyeno, Ambuye mwa ubwino Wake, anandifotokozera chifukwa chimene ndinayenera kuchita izi:

Mafano awa adatenga malo a Ine. Zitonthozo izi zidakhala mu mtima mwako zosungidwa kwa Ine ndekha—ine amene ndinakulengani kwa Ine ndekha. Mwana wanga, Malemba amati: “Idzani kwa Ine nonsenu akulema ndi akuthodwa, ndipo Ine ndidzakupumulitsani inu. Koma mwatembenukira kwina kuti mupumule;

Kutembenukira kwa Yesu kaamba ka mpumulo umenewu kumatanthauza kusiya kapena kutaya zothodwetsa zathu. Koma bwanji sitichita izi? Yankho ndi limene St. Thomas Aquinas amatcha chikondi kapena “kufewa”—moyo  amene safuna kuvutika.

Awo amene ali okhoterera ku zokondweretsa zimenezi alinso ndi kupanda ungwiro kwina kwakukulu, ndiko kuti ali ofooka ndi osasamala poponda njira yoipa ya mtanda. Munthu wodzipereka ku zosangalatsa mwachibadwa amadana ndi kuwawidwa mtima kodzikana. -Usiku Mdima, Buku Loyamba, Ch. 6 ,n. 7

Koma kufewa kumeneku ndi bodza. Kumatimana ife katundu wamkulu zimene zikanabweretsa kukwaniritsidwa kwakukulu kopambana.

Kukwaniritsidwa kwa cholinga chathu kumafuna kuti tisayime panjira iyi, zomwe zikutanthauza kuti tiyenera kumangotaya zomwe tikufuna m'malo mongofuna kuzikwaniritsa. Pakuti ngati sitiwachotseratu onsewo, sitidzakwaniritsa cholinga chathu. chipika cha nkhuni sichingasinthidwe kukhala moto ngati ngakhale mlingo umodzi wa kutentha ukusowa pokonzekera izi. Moyo, mofananamo, sudzasandulika mwa Mulungu ngakhale utakhala ndi kupanda ungwiro kumodzi kokha…  —St. Yohane wa Mtanda, Kukwera kwa Phiri la Karimeli, Buku I, Ch. 11, n. 6

Kuyambira tsiku limene “ndinaphwanya” mafano amenewo, ndakhala ndikukumana ndi mafunde a chisomo, kumva kumveka kwatsopano ndi mtendere pakati pa misozi yachisangalalo. Yohane Woyera wa pa Mtanda ananenapo kuti tikhoza kupita patsogolo mofulumira ku umodzi wa umulungu ngati ife tikana uchimo wonse ndi kugwirizana kosayenera. M’mawu ena, sitiyenera kukhala ndi moyo wosakhazikika, wachisoni ndi wankhawa tili padziko lapansi. Yesu anati:

Ndinadza Ine kuti akhale ndi moyo, ndi kukhala nao wocuruka; koma ngati ifa, ibala chipatso chambiri. ( Yohane 10:10; 12:24 )

 

OSATI CHIFUNIRO CHANG

Lingalirani izi: zonse zomwe zayima pakati panu ndi Mphatso ndi chifuniro chanu! Ikuchita "chinthu chovuta" (pomwe imamva choncho poyamba) kuti ilandire bwino chinthu. Mayi athu adauza Mtumiki wa Mulungu Luisa Piccarreta kuti akufuna kuti ana ake onse adziwe moyo wamkati womwewo zomwe ali nazo mwa kukhala mu Chifuniro Chaumulungu, osati chathu.

Kodi mukudziwa zomwe zimatipangitsa kuti tisafanane? Ndi chifuniro chanu chimene chimakuchotserani kutsitsimuka kwa chisomo, kukongola kumene kumakokera Mlengi wanu, mphamvu imene imagonjetsa ndi kupirira chirichonse ndi chikondi chimene chimakhudza chirichonse. -Dona Wathu ku Luisa Piccarreta, Namwali Maria mu Ufumu wa Chifuniro Chaumulungu, Kope Lachitatu (lotembenuzidwa ndi Rev. Joseph Iannuzzi); Ndili Obstat ndi Zamgululi Msgr. Francis M. della Cueva SM, nthumwi ya Bishopu Wamkulu wa Trani, Italy (Phwando la Christ the King); kuchokera Buku la Pemphero la Chifuniro Cha Mulungu, p. 87

Choonadi chimenecho ndikukumana nacho panthawi yomweyi. Ndi mafano amene aphwanyidwa kukhala zidutswazidutswa, tsopano muli malo mu mtima mwanga wa Chifuniro Chaumulungu; pali “nthaka yabwino” yoti mbewu za Ufumu zimere; ^[2]onani. Luka 8:8 pali mtima wodzikhuthula kwambiri kotero kuti ukhoza kudzazidwa ndi Umulungu. ^[3]onani. Afil 2: 7 Ndipo ine ndimadzipeza ndekha ndikufuula mu mawu a Augustine, “Ndakukondani mochedwa, O Ambuye! Ine ndakukondani mochedwa!”

O, zokhumba zanga zachedwa bwanji, ndipo, Ambuye, munali kufunafuna ndi kuyitana mochedwa kuti nditengedwe ndi inu! — St. Teresa waku Avila, wochokera Ntchito Zosonkhanitsidwa za St. Teresa waku Avila, Vol. 1

Yesu Khristu, Ambuye wanga, ngakhale machimo anga kuyambira ubwana wanga, ndi amene ndinawachita kufikira nthawi ino, ali aakulu ndithu… chifundo chanu ndi chachikulu kuposa kuipa kwa machimo anga. — St. Francis Xavier, wochokera Makalata ndi Malangizo a Francis Xavier; onenedwa mu zazikulu, Dec. 2019, p. 53

 

KULIMA

Nanga tiphunzilapo ciani masiku ano? Ndikuti muyenera kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi kulimba mtima. Ndikukhulupirira kuti, chifukwa mukuwerenga izi, mulinso ndi chisomo chochita zoyenera. Koma muyenera kukhala olimba mtima—kuti ‘musachite mantha. Kwa zaka zambiri, ndinalira ngati Batimeyo wakhungu, “Yesu, Mwana wa Davide, mundichitire chifundo!” Koma chimene ndinali kusowa chinali kulimba mtima kuti ndisiye zimene ndinkakakamira.

Yesu anayima nati, “Muyitaneni.” Ndipo anaitana munthu wakhunguyo, nati kwa iye, Limba mtima; nyamuka, akukuitana.” Anataya mkanjo wake pambali, anadzuka, nadza kwa Yesu. ( Marko 10:46-52 )

Anataya mkanjo wake pambali. Ndipo ndi zimenezo iye anachiritsidwa. Kodi mukukakamira chiyani lero? Kapena kani, ndi chiyani kukakamira kwa inu. Chifukwa chowonadi, chobisika mkati mwa zowawa zosiya zinthuzo (mtanda) ndi mbewu ya moyo watsopano ndi kuwala (kuuka kwa akufa). Chifukwa chake…

…tiyeni tichotse tokha kulemedwa ndi uchimo uliwonse umene wamatimatira ndi kulimbikira kuthamanga mpikisano umene uli patsogolo pathu pamene maso athu ali pa Yesu, mtsogoleri ndi wokwaniritsa chikhulupiriro. Chifukwa cha chimwemwe chimene chinali pamaso pake anapirira mtanda… (Aheb 12:1-2)

Izi zinati, pemphani Amayi anu Odala kuti akuthandizeni, monga momwe atumiki a ukwati wa ku Kana adayandikira kwa iye pamene vinyo anatha. 

Kodi udzayika mtima wako, chifuniro chako ndi moyo wako wonse m'manja mwa amayi anga kuti ndikukonzekeretse, kukuwononga, kukulimbitsa ndi kukuchotsera chilichonse? Mukatero, ndikudzazani ndi kuwala kwa Chifuniro Chaumulungu, ndikupanga moyo wake waumulungu mwa inu. - Mayi Wathu kwa Luisa, Ibid. Buku la Pemphero la Chifuniro Cha Mulungu, p. 86

Mitsuko ya vinyo wako, ndiye kuti, kufuna kwanu ayenera kukhuthulidwa kaye asanadzazidwe ndi Chifuniro Chaumulungu. Mayi athu adzakuthandizani. Kenako iye anapempha Mwana wake kuti asinthe madzi a kufooka kwanu mu vinyo wa mphamvu Yake; ku sinthani chifuniro chanu kukhala Chifuniro Chaumulungu. Mkazi wathu, ngati mkhalapakati wa chisomo, “adzadzaza iwe kwathunthu” ndi Vinyo Watsopano uyu akutsanulidwa ngati nyanja kuchokera ku Mtima wowala wa Chifundo Chaumulungu cha Khristu. Iye achita izo! Kumbali yanu, ndi kulimba mtima kukana, kamodzi kokha, ku zinthu zomwe mumazikonda mopambanitsa.

Nthawi ina Yesu anauza Luisa kuti, "Kulowa [mu Chifuniro Chaumulungu] zolengedwa zimafunikira koma kuchotsa mwala wa chifuniro chawo… Mzimu umangofuna basi ndipo zonse zachitika, Chifuniro changa chimagwira ntchito yonse.”  Ngati muli ndi wotsogolera wauzimu, muululeni kwa iye mafano amene mukuona kuti ayenera kuphwanyidwa musanachite chilichonse chokhwima. Ngati mulibe wotsogolera, funsani Mayi Wathu ndi Mzimu Woyera kuti achepetse changu chanu kuti muchite zomwe zimakondweretsa Mulungu. Musagwere m’kulakwitsa poganiza kuti zinthu zabwino monga chilengedwe, chokoleti, kugonana m’banja, ngakhale kapu ya vinyo ndi zoipa. Ayi! Chomwe chili choyipa komanso chowononga ndi pamene awa asanduka mafano omwe amapanga "zopanda chikondi" pomwe Chifuniro cha Mulungu chiyenera kulamulira. Funsani Mayi Wathu Mpando Wanzeru kuti akupatseni chidziwitso ndi nzeru zofunika kuti mukhale munthu amene Atate adakulengani kuti mukhale, zomwe zimapezeka mu Mphatso ndi chisomo chokhala mu Chifuniro Chaumulungu.

Ndi chisomo chakundiphunzitsa thupi, kukhala ndi moyo ndikukula m'miyoyo yanu, osachisiyapo, kukhala nanu ndi kukhala nanu monga chinthu chimodzi. Ndine amene ndimawadziwitsa mzimu wanu mu chipangano chomwe sichingamvetsetsedwe: ndi chisomo cha mawonekedwe ... Ndi mgwirizano womwewo monga umodzi wa kumwamba, kupatula kuti mu paradiso chotchinga chomwe chimabisa Umulungu kusiyiratu… —Blessed Conchita (María Concepción Cabrera Arias de Armida), wotchulidwa Korona ndi Kukwaniritsidwa kwa Magazi Onse, lolembedwa ndi Daniel O'Connor, p. 11-12; nb. Ronda Chervin, Yendani ndi ine, Yesu

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Nyamuka, limbikani mtima;
—Dona Wathu ku Luisa, Namwali Mariya mu Ufumu, Tsiku 2