Rembrandt van Rijn, “Kubwerera kwa mwana wolowerera”; c. 1662
MY nthawi ku Roma ku Vatican mu Okutobala, 2006 inali nthawi yachisomo chachikulu. Komanso inali nthawi yamayesero akulu.
Ndinabwera ngati mlendo. Chinali cholinga changa kudzipemphera ndekha kudzera mu chipinda chozungulira chauzimu ndi mbiri ya Vatican. Koma pomwe ndimakwera takisi mphindi 45 kuchokera ku Airport kupita ku St. Magalimoto anali osaneneka — momwe anthu amayendetsera magalimoto modabwitsa kwambiri; munthu aliyense payekha!
St. Peter's Square sinali malo abwino kwambiri omwe ndimayembekezera. Imazunguliridwa ndi mitsempha yayikulu yamagalimoto yomwe ili ndi mabasi mazana, ma taxi, ndi magalimoto omwe amangokhalira kuthamanga ola lililonse. Tchalitchi cha St. Peter, chapakati pa Tchalitchi cha Vatican ndi Tchalitchi cha Roma Katolika, chikukwawa ndi alendo zikwizikwi. Mukamalowa mu Tchalitchichi, munthu amalandiridwa ndi matupi omwe akukankha, kuwalitsa makamera, alonda achitetezo, mafoni am'manja, komanso kusokonezeka kwa zilankhulo zambiri. Kunja, misewu yadzaza ndi malo ogulitsira ndi ngolo zodzaza ma rozari, zonunkhira, ziboliboli, komanso pafupifupi nkhani iliyonse yachipembedzo yomwe mungaganizire. Zosokoneza zoyera!
Nditangolowa ku St. Peter, zomwe ndimachita sizomwe ndimayembekezera. Mawu adandizungulira kuchokera kumalo ena… "Ndikadakhala kuti anthu Anga adakometsedwa ngati tchalitchichi!”Ndinabwerera kuchipinda changa cha bata (chapamwamba pamsewu wammbali waku Italiya), ndipo ndinagwada. "Yesu ... muchitireni chifundo."
POPEMBEDZA PEMPHERO
Ndinakhala ku Roma pafupifupi sabata. Chofunika kwambiri, ndichakuti, chinali omvera ndi Papa Benedict ndi konsati usiku watha (werengani Tsiku la Chisomo). Koma masiku awiri kuchokera pamsonkhano wamtengo wapataliwo, ndinali wotopa komanso wokhumudwa. Ndinkalakalaka mtendere. Panthawiyi, ndinali nditapemphera ma Rosaries, Divine Mercy Chaplets, ndi Liturgy of the Hours… ndiyo njira yokhayo yomwe ndingakhalire ndikutsimikiza kuti uwu ndi ulendo wopemphera. Koma ndimathanso kumva kuti mdaniyo sanali kumbuyo kwenikweni, ndikundifunsa mayesero ang'onoang'ono apa ndi apo. Nthawi zina, ndinkangozindikira nditaganiza kuti kuli Mulungu kulibe. Awo anali masiku… nkhondo zapakati pa grit ndi chisomo.
USIKU WAKuda
Usiku wanga womaliza ku Roma, ndinali nditatsala pang'ono kugona, ndikusangalala ndi masewera achilengedwe pawailesi yakanema (china chomwe ife tiribe kwathu), ndikuwonera zazikulu za tsikulo.
Ndinatsala pang'ono kutseka TV nditamva kufuna kusintha njira. Momwe ndimachita, ndidakumana ndi malo atatu otsatsa otsatsa zolaula. Ndine bambo wamagazi ofiira ndipo nthawi yomweyo ndinadziwa kuti ndili pankhondo. Malingaliro amitundu yonse adathamangira pamutu panga pakati pa chidwi choopsa. Ndinakhumudwa komanso kunyansidwa, nthawi yomweyo ...
Nditatseka TV, ndinakhumudwa kuti ndagwidwa ndi msampha. Ndinagwada ndi chisoni, ndikupempha Mulungu kuti andikhululukire. Ndipo nthawi yomweyo, mdani uja adasokonekera. “Kodi ungachite bwanji izi? Inu amene munawona papa masiku awiri okha apitawo. Zosaneneka. Zosatheka. Zosakhululukidwa. ”
Ndinapsinjika; kulakwa kunandigwera ngati chovala cholemera chakuda cholemera cha mtovu. Ndinanyengedwa ndi kukongola konyenga kwa tchimo. “Pambuyo pa mapempherowa, pambuyo pa chisomo chonse chomwe Mulungu wakupatsani… mungakwanitse bwanji? Zatheka bwanji? ”
Komabe, mwanjira ina, ndimatha kumva Chifundo za Mulungu zikuwuluka pamwamba panga, kutentha kwa Mtima Wake Woyera kuyaka pafupi. Ndinali pafupi kuchita mantha ndikupezeka kwa Chikondi ichi; Ndinkaopa kuti ndikudzikuza, motero ndidasankha kumvetsera kwambiri zomveka mau… “Mukuyenera maenje a gehena… osadabwitsa, inde, osadabwitsa. O, Mulungu akukhululukirani, koma chisomo chilichonse chomwe Iye adayenera kukupatsani, madalitso aliwonse omwe adatsanulira pa inu m'masiku akudzawo ndi wapita. Ichi ndi chilango chanu, ichi ndi chanu basi chilango. ”
MEDJUGORJE
Inde, ndinali kukonzekera kukhala masiku anayi otsatira m'mudzi wawung'ono wotchedwa Medjugorje ku Bosnia-Herzegovina. Kumeneko, akuti, Namwali Wodala Mariya wakhala akuwonekera tsiku ndi tsiku kwa owonera. [1]cf. Pa Medjugorje Kwa zaka zopitilira makumi awiri, ndinali nditamva zozizwitsa zikubwera kuchokera pano, ndipo tsopano ndimafuna kudziwonera ndekha kuti zinali za chiyani. Ndinali ndi chiyembekezo chachikulu kuti Mulungu amanditumiza kumeneko ndicholinga. “Koma tsopano cholinga chimenecho chapita,” anatero mawu awa, kaya anga kapena a munthu wina sindimatha kunena. Ndinapita ku Confession and Mass m'mawa mwake ku St. Peter's, koma mawu omwe ndidamva kale ... adamva ngati chowonadi pamene ndimakwera ndege yopita ku Split.
Maola awiri ndi theka akuyenda m'mapiri kupita kumudzi wa Medjugorje kunali bata. Woyendetsa galimoto yanga ankalankhula Chingerezi pang'ono, zomwe zinali zabwino. Ndimangofuna kupemphera. Inenso ndinkafuna kulira, koma ndinadziletsa. Ndinachita manyazi kwambiri. Ndidapyoza Mbuye wanga ndikulephera kudalira Iye. “O Yesu, ndikhululukireni, Ambuye. Ndine wachisoni.""
“Inde, wakhululukidwa. Koma nthawi yatha… ungopita kunyumba, ” linatero liwu.
CHAKUDYA CHA MARIYA
Woyendetsa adandisiya mumtima mwa Medjugorje. Ndinali wanjala, wotopa, ndipo mzimu wanga unasweka. Popeza linali Lachisanu (ndipo mudzi wakomweko umasala kudya Lachitatu ndi Lachisanu), ndidayamba kufunafuna malo oti ndigule buledi. Ndinawona chikwangwani kunja kwa bizinesi chomwe chimati, "Zakudya za Mary", ndikuti amapereka chakudya chamasiku osala kudya. Ndinakhala pansi pamadzi ndi mkate. Koma mkati mwanga, ndinali kulakalaka Mkate wa Moyo, Mawu a Mulungu.
Ndidatenga bible langa ndipo lidatsegulidwa pa Yohane 21: 1-19. Apa ndi pamene Yesu adaonekeranso kwa ophunzira ake ataukitsidwa. Akuwedza ndi Simoni Petro, ndipo sakugwira kalikonse. Monga anachitira kale, Yesu, amene waima m'mbali mwa nyanja, anawaitana kuti aponye ukonde wawo tsidya lina la bwato. Ndipo akatero, amakhuta mpaka kusefukira. Ndi Ambuye! ” afuula John. Pomwepo, Petro adumpha m'nyanja ndikusambira kupita kumtunda.
Nditawerenga izi, mtima wanga udatsala pang'ono kutuluka misozi itayamba kutuluka. Aka ndi koyamba kuti Yesu awonekere mwachindunji kwa Simoni Petro atakana Khristu katatu. Ndipo chinthu choyamba chomwe Ambuye amachita ndi Dzazani khoka lawo ndi madalitso—Osati chilango.
Ndinamaliza kudya kadzutsa, ndikuyesetsa kuti ndikhale wodekha pagulu. Ndinatenga bible mmanja mwanga ndikuwerengabe.
Atamaliza kudya, Yesu anati kwa Simoni Petro, “Simoni mwana wa Yohane, kodi umandikonda ine kuposa izi?” Adanena ndi Iye, Inde Ambuye; mukudziwa kuti ndimakukondani. ” Ananena naye, Dyetsa ana a nkhosa anga. Ndipo anati kwa iye nthawi yachiwiri, Simoni mwana wa Yohane, kodi undikonda? Adanena ndi Iye, Inde Ambuye; mukudziwa kuti ndimakukondani. ” Iye anati kwa iye, "Dyetsa nkhosa zanga." Ananena naye kachitatu, Simoni mwana wa Yohane, kodi undikonda? Petro adamva chisoni chifukwa adanena naye kachitatu, Kodi umandikonda? Ndipo adati kwa Iye, Ambuye, mudziwa Inu zonse; mukudziwa kuti ndimakukondani. ” Yesu anati kwa iye, "Dyetsa nkhosa zanga ..." Ndipo zitatha izi anati kwa iye, "Nditsate."
Yesu sanakalipire Petulo. Sanakonze, kudzudzula, kapena kudzudzula zakale. Anangofunsa, "Kodi mumandikonda?"Ndipo ndinayankha," Inde Yesu! Inu mukudziwa Ndimakukondani. Ndimakukondani mosapanda ungwiro, moperewera… koma mukudziwa kuti ndimakukondani. Ndataya moyo wanga chifukwa cha inu Ambuye, ndipo ndawuperekanso. ”
"Nditsateni."
CHAKUDYA CHINA
Nditadya "chakudya choyamba cha Mary," ndinapita ku Mass. Pambuyo pake, ndinakhala panja padzuwa. Ndidayesa kusangalala ndi kutentha kwake, koma mawu ozizira adayambiranso kulankhula ndi ine ... “Chifukwa chiyani wachita izi? O, zikanakhala zotani pano! Madalitso amene akusowa! ”
“O Yesu,” ine ndinati, “Chonde, Ambuye, chitirani chifundo. Ndine wachisoni. Ndimakukondani, Ambuye, ndimakukondani. Mukudziwa kuti ndimakukondani… ”Ndidalimbikitsidwa kuti ndigwirenso kabaibulo kanga, ndipo ndidatsegula nthawi ino ku Luka 7: 36-50. Mutu wa gawo lino ndi "Mkazi Wochimwa Akhululuka"(RSV). Iyi ndi nkhani ya wochimwa wodziwika yemwe adalowa m'nyumba ya Mfarisi pomwe Yesu anali kudya.
… Atayimirira kumbuyo kwake kumapazi ake, akulira, adayamba kunyowetsa mapazi ake ndi misozi, napukuta ndi tsitsi la mutu wake, nampsompsona mapazi ake, nawadzoza ndi botolo la alabasitala la mafuta.
Apanso, ndinamva kuti ndikubatizidwa ndi munthu wapakati pandimeyo. Koma anali mawu otsatira a Khristu, pamene Iye analankhula kwa Mfarisi amene ananyansidwa ndi mkazi uja, amene anandigwira.
“Wobwereketsa wina adali nawo angongole awiri; m'modzi anali ndi ngongole ya madinari mazana asanu, koma mzake makumi asanu. Atalephera kulipira, anawakhululukira onse awiri. Tsopano ndani wa iwo adzamkonda koposa? ” Simoni Mfarisi anayankha kuti, "Ndikuganiza kuti, amene wamukhululukira zoposa." … Ndipo potembenukira kwa mkaziyo anati kwa Simoni… “Chifukwa chake, ndinena ndi iwe, machimo ake, ndiwo ambiri, akhululukidwa; koma amene wakhululukidwa pang'ono, akonda pang'ono. ”
Apanso, ndinatekeseka pamene mawu a Lemba adadutsa kuzizira mumtima mwanga. Mwanjira ina, ndimatha kuzindikira chikondi cha Amayi kuseri kwa mawu awa. Inde, chakudya china chosangalatsa cha choonadi chachikondi. Ndipo ndidati, "Inde, Ambuye, mukudziwa zonse, mukudziwa ndimakukondani…"
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Usiku womwewo, nditagona pakama panga, malembo anapitilizabe kukhala amoyo. Ndikakumbukira, zimawoneka ngati kuti Mary anali pafupi ndi bedi langa, akusisita tsitsi langa, ndikuyankhula motsitsa mawu ndi mwana wake. Amawoneka kuti amandilimbikitsa… "Kodi ana anu mumawachitira chiyani?”Adafunsa. Ndinaganiza za ana anga omwe komanso momwe nthawi zina ndimawalekerera chifukwa cha machitidwe oyipa… koma ndi cholinga chowapatsabe, zomwe ndinachita, nditawona chisoni chawo. "Mulungu Atate sali wosiyana, ”Akuwoneka kuti akunena.
Kenako nkhani ya Mwana Wolowerera idabwera m'mutu mwanga. Nthawi ino, mawu a abambo, atakumbatira mwana wawo wamwamuna, adamvekera mu moyo wanga ...
Bwera msanga ndi mwinjiro wokometsetsa, nimuveke; ndipo mpatseni mphete kudzanja lake, ndi nsapato kumapazi ake; ndipo idzani naye mwana wa ng'ombe wonenepa, mumuphe, ndipo tidye, tisekere; chifukwa mwana wanga uyu adali wakufa ndipo ali ndi moyo tsopano; anali wotayika, ndipo wapezedwa. (Luka 15: 22-24)
Abambo sanali kulakalaka zakale, kutaya cholowa, mwayi, ndi kuwukira… koma kupereka madalitso ochuluka pa mwana wolakwa, yemwe adayimirira wopanda kanthu-matumba ake adatsitsidwa ndi ukoma, mzimu wake wopanda ulemu, ndipo kuwulula kwake koyeserera sikunamveke. Zoona zake iye anali kumeneko zinali zokwanira kuti bambo azisangalala.
"Mwawona, "Adatero mawu ofatsa awa kwa ine… (modekha kwambiri, amayenera kukhala Amayi…)"bambowo sanakane madalitso awo, koma anawatsanulira — madalitso okulirapo kuposa omwe mnyamatayo anali nawo poyamba."
Inde, bambo ake adamuveka "mwinjiro wabwino koposa. ”
PHIRI LA KRIZEVAC: CHIMWEMWE CHISANGALALO
Kutacha m'mawa, ndinadzuka ndili ndi mtendere mumtima. Chikondi cha Amayi ndi chovuta kukana, kumpsompsona kwake ndikokoma kuposa uchi komwe. Koma ndinali ndikadali dzanzi, ndikuyesabe kuthetsa mauna a chowonadi ndi zopotoza zomwe zimazungulira m'malingaliro mwanga - mawu awiri, olimbirana mtima wanga. Ndinali wamtendere, komabe ndinali wachisoni, pang'ono pang'ono mumthunzi. Apanso, ndinatembenukira kupemphero. Ndi mu pemphero pomwe timapeza Mulungu… ndi kuzindikira kuti Iye sali kutali kwenikweni. [2]onani. Yakobe 4: 7-8 Ndinayamba ndi Pemphero la M'mawa kuchokera ku Liturgy of the Hours:
Zowonadi ndakhazika moyo wanga chete ndi mwamtendere. Monga mwana ali ndi tulo m'manja a amake, momwemonso moyo wanga. Inu Aisraeli, yembekezani mwa Ambuye kuyambira tsopano mpaka muyaya. (Masalimo 131)
Inde, moyo wanga unkawoneka kuti uli mmanja mwa Amayi. Iwo anali mikono yodziwika, komabe, yoyandikira komanso yowona kuposa momwe ndidakumana nayo.
Ndimafuna kukwera phiri la Krizevac. Pali mtanda pamwamba pa phirilo womwe umakhala ndi choyikapo - cholembera cha Mtanda weniweni wa Khristu. Madzulo amenewo, ndidanyamuka ndekha, ndikukwera phirilo mwachangu, ndikuyima pafupipafupi ku Station of the Cross komwe kumayandikira njira yokhotakhota. Zinkawoneka ngati Amayi omwewo omwe amapita panjira yopita ku Kalvari tsopano akuyenda ndi ine. Lemba lina mwadzidzidzi linadzaza malingaliro anga,
Mulungu aonetsa cikondi cace kwa ife m'mene ife tinali chikhalire ochimwa Kristu anatifera. (Aroma 5: 8)
Ndinayamba kusinkhasinkha momwe, pa Misa iliyonse, Nsembe ya Khristu imakhaliradi kwa ife kudzera mu Ukalistia. Yesu samafanso, koma chikondi Chake chamuyaya, chomwe sichingokhala m'malire a mbiriyakale, chimalowa munthawi yomweyo. Izi zikutanthauza kuti akudzipereka yekha chifukwa cha ife pamene tidakali ochimwa.
Nthawi ina ndidamva kuti, nthawi zopitilira 20,000 patsiku, Misa imanenedwa kwina kulikonse padziko lapansi. Chifukwa chake ola lililonse, Chikondi chimayikidwa pamtanda ndendende kwa iwo omwe ndi ochimwa (ndiye chifukwa chake, tsiku lidzafika loti Nsembe ichotsedwe, monga kunanenedweratu mu Danieli ndi Chivumbulutso, chisoni chidzakuta dziko lapansi).
Pomwe Satana anali kundikakamiza kuti ndiope Mulungu, mantha anali kusungunuka ndi sitepe iliyonse kulowera pamtanda wa Krizevac. Chikondi chinali kuyamba kutaya mantha ... [3]onani. 1 Yohane 4:18
MPHATSO
Pambuyo pa ola limodzi ndi theka, pamapeto pake ndidafika pamwamba. Ndituluka thukuta kwambiri, ndinapsompsona Mtandawo ndikukhala pansi pakati pa miyala. Ndinachita chidwi ndi momwe kutentha kwa mphepo ndi mphepo zinali zabwino kwambiri.
Posakhalitsa, ndinadabwa kuti panalibe wina pamwamba pa phirilo kupatula ine, ngakhale panali alendo zikwizikwi m'mudzimo. Ndinakhala pamenepo pafupifupi ola limodzi, ndekha ndekha, chete, phee, ndimtendere… ngati mwana atapuma mmanja mwa amayi ake.
Dzuwa linali likulowa… ndipo o, kunali kulowa kotani dzuwa. Icho chinali chimodzi mwa zokongola kwambiri zomwe ine ndinayamba ndaziwonapo… ndipo ine kukonda kulowa kwa dzuwa. Ndimadziwika kuti ndimasiya mwanzeru patebulo kuti ndiwonerere pomwe ndimamva kuti ndili pafupi ndi Mulungu m'chilengedwe nthawi imeneyo. Ndinaganiza mumtima mwanga, "Zingakhale zosangalatsa kwambiri kumuwona Mary." Ndipo ndidamva mkati mwanga,Ndikubwera kwa inu kulowa kwa dzuwa, monga ndimakhalira nthawi zonse, chifukwa mumawakonda kwambiri.”Zomwe zidatsalira pamlanduwo zidasungunuka: Ndidamva kuti ndi Ambuye ndikuyankhula kwa ine tsopano. Inde, Mary adanditsogolera pamwamba pa phiri ndikuima pambali pomwe adandiyika pamwendo wa Atate. Ndinamvetsetsa pamenepo kenako kuti chikondi chake chimabwera popanda mtengo, madalitso ake amaperekedwa mwaulere, ndikuti…
… Zinthu zonse zimagwirira ntchito zabwino iwo amene akonda Mulungu… (Aroma 8: 28)
“Inde, Ambuye. Mukudziwa kuti ndimakukondani! ”
Dzuwa likamalowa kupitirira masana, ndidatsika phirilo ndichisangalalo. Pomaliza.
Wochimwa yemwe amadzimva kuti walandidwa zonse zomwe zili zoyera, zoyera, komanso zaulemu chifukwa cha tchimo, wochimwayo yemwe m'maso mwake ali mumdima wandiweyani, adachotsedwa ku chiyembekezo cha chipulumutso, kuwunika kwa moyo, ndi mgonero wa oyera mtima, ndiye bwenzi lomwe Yesu adamuyitana kuti adzadye chakudya chamadzulo, amene adafunsidwa kuti atuluke kuseli kwa mipanda, amene adapemphedwa kuti akhale mnzake waukwati wake komanso wolowa m'malo mwa Mulungu… Aliyense amene ali wosauka, wanjala, wochimwa, wakugwa kapena wosazindikira ndiye mlendo wa Khristu. —Mateyu Osauka
Samatichitira monga mwa zolakwa zathu, kapena kutibwezera monga mwa zolakwa zathu. (Masalmo 103: 10)
Onani Mark akunena nkhaniyi:
Idasindikizidwa koyamba Novembala 5, 2006.
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| ↑1 | cf. Pa Medjugorje |
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| ↑2 | onani. Yakobe 4: 7-8 |
| ↑3 | onani. 1 Yohane 4:18 |