Bahlobo abathandekayo,
Usapho lwam luchithe iveki ephelileyo lisiya kwindawo entsha. Ndinokufikelela okuncinci kwi-intanethi, kunye nexesha elincinci! Kodwa ndiyanithandazela nonke, kwaye njengesiqhelo, ndibala kwimithandazo yenu yokuba nifumane ubabalo, ukomelela, kunye nonyamezelo. Siqala ukwakha istudiyo esitsha sewebhu ngomso. Ngenxa yomthwalo ophambi kwethu, unxibelelwano lwam nawe luya kuba mbalwa.
Nalu ucamngco oluqhubeke ndilungiselela. Yapapashwa okokuqala ngoJulayi 31, 2006. UThixo akusikelele bonke.
NTATHU iiveki zeeholide… iiveki ezintathu zengxaki enye emva kwenye. Ukusuka kwisiqhuma esivuzayo, ukuya kwiinjini ezishushu kakhulu, ukuya kubantwana abaphikisanayo, kuyo nayiphi na into eyaphukileyo enokuthi… ndizifumene ndicaphuka. (Ngapha koko, ngexa ubhala le nto, unkosikazi wam wandibizela ngaphambili ebhasini yotyelelo –njengokuba unyana wam echithe inkonkxa yejusi kulo lonke usofa… oy.)
Ubusuku obudlulileyo, ndiziva ngathi ilifu elimnyama liyandityumza, ndaya emfazini wam kwi-vitriol kunye nomsindo. Yayingeyompendulo yobuthixo. Kwakungekho ukuxelisa uKristu. Ayisiyiyo le uyilindeleyo kumvangeli wasemazweni.
Kwintlungu endikuyo, ndiye ndalala esofeni. Kamva ngobo busuku, ndaphupha:
Ndalatha ngasempuma esibhakabhakeni, ndixelela umfazi wam ukuba iinkwenkwezi zizakuwela apho ngenye imini. Kanye ngelo xesha, umhlobo wam wenyuka, kwaye ndandinomdla wokumxelela "eli lizwi lesiprofeto". Kunoko, umfazi wam wadanduluka esithi, “Jonga!” Ndijike ndajonga emafini emva kokutshona kwelanga. Ndingayenza indlebe eyahlukileyo… kwaye ke ingelosi, igcwalise isibhakabhaka. Kwaye, ngaphakathi kwamaphiko engelosi, ndambona… uYesu, amehlo akhe evale, kwaye intloko yaguqa. Isandla sakhe sasoluliwe: Wayendinika isithsaba sameva. Ndawa ngamadolo ndilila, ndiqonda ukuba igama elibanjwe zizulu, lilunge kum.
Ndiye ndavuka ke.
Kwaoko, inkcazo yeza kum:
Phawula, kufuneka uzimisele ukuthwala isithsaba sameva. Ngokungafaniyo neenzipho, ezikhulu nezinzima, ameva zincinci iiphini. Ngaba uyakwamkela ezi zilingo zincinci?
Nangona ndichwetheza oku, ndiyalila. Kuba uYesu ulungile-ndohlulekile, amaxesha ngamaxesha, ukwamkela ezi zilingo zibonakala zincinci. Ukanti, ukhangeleka esandanga nangoku, nanjengoko wamkela uPeter naye owahluleka izilingo, eqalekisa ekhalaza… Ngentsasa elandelayo, ndavuka, ndaguquka kusapho lwam. Sathandaza kunye, kwaye saba nolona suku luseluxolweni.
Emva koko ndafunda eli nqaku:
Kubaleleni ekuthini kuluvuyo olukhulu, bazalwana bam, xa nithe nagaxeleka ezilingweni ngezilingo, nisazi nje ukuba ucikido lokholo lwenu lusebenza umonde. Umonde ke mawube nokugqibelela, ukuze nibe ngabazalisekileyo abagqibeleleyo, ningaswele nto ... Unoyolo umntu ozingisayo ekuhendweni; (Yakobi 1: 2-4, 12)
Isithsaba sameva ngoku, ukuba samkelwe ngobulali, ngenye imini siya kuba "sisithsaba sobomi".
Zintanda, musani ukumangaliswa kukulingwa ngomlilo phakathi kwenu, ngokungathi kukho into engaqhelekanga eyenzekayo. Kodwa vuyani kangangokuba nibe nenxaxheba ekubandezelekeni kukaKrestu ukuze kuthi, xa kutyhilwa uzuko lwakhe, nivuye nigcoba. (1 Pt 4: 12-13)
