"Ukuthanda kukaKristu"
NDIBENE imizuzu engamashumi amathathu phambi kwentlanganiso yam namahlwempu aMdumo woKuNqula okungapheliyo eShrine ye-Sacrament Ebusisiweyo eHanceville, Alabama. Aba ngoonongendi abasekwe nguMama Angelica (EWTN) abahlala nabo phaya eShrine.
Emva kokuchitha ixesha ndithandaza phambi kukaYesu kwiSakramente eliSikelelekileyo, ndibhadule ngaphandle ndisiya kufumana umoya wangokuhlwa. Ndadibana nomnqamlezo wobomi obabubonisa gca, ubonakalisa amanxeba kaKrestu ngendlela ebeya kuba ngayo. Ndaguqa phambi komnqamlezo… kwaye ngequbuliso ndaziva nditsaleleke kwindawo enzulu yosizi.
Emva kwethuba ndineenyembezi, ndathi, "Nkosi ... kutheni ungandishiyi, mna moni?" Kwaye ngoko nangoko ndeva entliziyweni yam, "Ngokuba ungandilahlanga."
Ndema ndaza ndawola iinyawo ezinegazi phambi kwam, kwaye emva kwexesha elithile ndadanduluka, "Nkosi, ndiyathembisa ukuba andisoze ndenze isono esifayo, okanye nasiphi na isono kuwe." Kodwa nje ukuba ndithethe loo mazwi, ndaqala ukuva ubuhlwempu bam obungaphakathi—ukuthetha intlupheko.
Ndema apho ndibambe iinyawo zeNyaniso, ndimi enyanisweni.
"Owu Yesu wam. Izithembiso zam ndizigcine ngantoni? Ndiza kuzigcina ngantoni? Andinanto. Izandla zam zingenanto!" Andikwazi kuyichaza intlungu endandinayo entliziyweni yam. Wonke umphefumlo wam wawunqwenela ukuthembeka kuYesu, kodwa ke, ndaziva ndingenako ukumnika nantoni na.
"Nkosi... ndisigcina ngantoni isithembiso sam!?"
Emva koko uYesu waphendula wathi:Ndizakunika uMama wam."
Amazwi akhe ayefana nokuqhwaba kwendudumo… kwaye ukulila kwajika kwaba kukulila. Ndayiqonda ngokucacileyo indima kaMama kaYesu. Unikelwe kuthi ukuze sibunjwe kwisibeleko sakhe somoya. Sikhuliswe kwaye sondliwa zizandla zakhe ezithembekileyo, sibunjwe kwaye sibunjwe kwiNtliziyo yakhe eNgenasiphelo, sikhokelwa kwaye sondliwa buBulumko bakhe kunye nokulunga kwakhe, ukhuselwe kwaye ukhuselwe kwisambatho sakhe kunye nemithandazo. Lowo ukhoyo uzele lubabalo sinikwe thina banako siwile elubabalweni.
UMpostile uYohane wadanyaza engqondweni yam, noYesu enikela kuye uMariya phantsi koMnqamlezo. “Nanko unyoko…” watsho uKrestu. "Nanku ke ozakuzala."
Ndaphinda ndacinga ngamazwi angaphambili eNkosi, "Ngokuba ungandilahlanga."
“Kodwa Nkosi, mna baye ndakushiya esonweni sam.
"Ewe, njengoYohane, owashiya umyezo njengabanye… Kodwa emva koko wabuyela kum, phantsi komnqamlezo wam. WABUYA."
Ndaqonda…UYesu akazihoyanga izono zethu xa sibuyela kuYe, ngokungathi asizange simshiye.
Inceba ibiqukuqela kum ngoku ingenagazi. UKristu lo, endamhlaba ngaye, ndamhlaba my izono, zazithuthuzela me. Kwaye Ebendinika uMamakhe kanye.
"Ewe, Nkosi. Ndiyamamkela ekhayeni lam; Ndimfaka entliziyweni yam kwakhona ... ngoku, nangonaphakade."
Ndajonga iwotshi yam. Kwafika ixesha lokudibana nonongendi.
Nanko unyoko! Wathi kwakwelo lixa umfundi lowo wamthabatha, wamsa ekhayeni lakhe. ( Yohane 19:27 )
... ukuba asithembekile, yena uhlala ethembekile; kuba akanako ukuzikhanyeza. ( 2 Timoti 1:13 )
Musa ukoyika, ngokuba ndikukhulule ngokukuhlawulela; ndikubize ngegama, ungowam; unqabile emehlweni am, uzukile, ndikuthanda; (Isaya 43:1, 4)
uMkhululi oNgcwele unqwenela ukungena kumphefumlo wabo bonke ababandezelekileyo ngentliziyo yoMama wakhe ongcwele, owokuqala noyena uphakamileyo kubo bonke abasindisiweyo. Ngokungathi ngokuqhubekeka kobo omama bathi ngamandla kaMoya oyiNgcwele wamnika ubomi, uKrestu owayesifa wanika iNtombi Enyulu ehlala ihleli uMariya ubomi. uhlobo olutsha lobumama-ngokomoya nasemhlabeni jikelele-kubo bonke abantu, ukuze wonke umntu, ngexesha lokuhamba kokholo, ahlale, kunye naye, emanyene ngokusondeleyo naye emnqamlezweni, nokuze zonke iintlobo zokubandezeleka zinikwe ubomi obutsha ngamandla lo Mnqamlezo, mawungabi bubuthathaka bomntu kodwa ube ngamandla kaThixo. -ISalvifici Doloros, 26; Ileta yobuPostile yeJPII, ngoFebruwari 11, 1984
