Ukuphika kukaPeter, ngu-Michael D. O'Brien
Kusuka kumfundi:
Ukukhathazeka kwami nombuzo wami kungaphakathi kimi. Ngikhuliswe ngingumKatolika futhi ngenzile okufanayo namadodakazi ami. Ngizamile ukuya esontweni cishe njalo ngeSonto futhi ngazama ukuzibandakanya nemisebenzi esontweni nasemphakathini wami. Ngizamile ukuba "muhle." Ngiya kuConfession and Communion ngithandaze iRosari ngezikhathi ezithile. Ukukhathazeka nokudabuka kwami ukuthi ngithola ukuthi ngikude kakhulu noKristu ngakho konke engikufundayo. Kunzima kakhulu ukwenza okulindelwe nguKristu. Ngimthanda kakhulu, kepha angisondeli nakancane kulokho Akufuna kimi. Ngizama ukufana nabangcwele, kepha kubonakala sengathi kuhlala umzuzwana noma emibili, futhi ngibuyele ekubeni ngumuntu wami ophakathi. Angikwazi ukugxila lapho ngithandaza noma ngiseMiseni. Ngenza izinto eziningi ezingalungile. Ezincwadini zakho zezindaba ukhuluma ngokuza [kwesahlulelo sikaKristu esinesihe], ukujeziswa njll. Ukhuluma ngokuthi ungazilungiselela kanjani. Ngiyazama kodwa, kubonakala sengathi angisondeli. Nginomuzwa wokuthi ngizoba esiHogweni noma ezansi nesihlanzo. Ngenzeni? Ngabe uKrestu ucabangani ngomuntu onjengami ongumdaka wesono nje futhi aqhubeke awe phansi?
Ndodakazi kaNkulunkulu othandekayo,
UKrestu ucabangani ngomuntu ofana "nawe" ongumjolo nje wesono oqhubeka ewa phansi? Impendulo yami ikabili. Okokuqala, ucabanga ukuthi nguwe kanye owafelwa nguye. Ukuthi uma bekufanele akwenze futhi, uzokwenzela wena kuphela. Akezelanga mthombo, kepha uzele abagulayo. Ufaneleke kakhulu ngenxa yezizathu ezimbili: esisodwa ukuthi nguwe kukhona isoni, njengami. Okwesibili ukuthi uyasivuma isono sakho kanye nesidingo sakho soMsindisi.
Uma uKristu eze ngabaphelele, ngakho-ke wena nami asinathemba ezulwini lokufika lapho. Kepha kulabo abamemeza bathi:Nkosi, ngihawukele mina soni, "Akagcini nje ngokugoba ukuzwa umkhuleko wabo ... cha, wehlela emhlabeni, athathe inyama yethu, ahambe phakathi kwethu. Udla etafuleni lethu, asithinte, futhi asivumele ukuba simanzise izinyawo zakhe ngezinyembezi zethu. UJesu weza efana nawe ukusesha kwakho. Akashongo yini ukuthi uzoshiya izimvu ezingamashumi ayisishiyagalolunye nesishiyagalolunye ayofuna eyodwa elahlekile yalahleka?
UJesu usitshela indaba ngalabo abanikwa umusa waKhe — indaba yomthelisi owabona umFarisi ethandaza ethempelini. Umthelisi wakhala wathi, "O Nkulunkulu, yiba nomusa ku mina soni!"ngenkathi umFarisi eqhosha ngokuthi uzilile futhi uyathandaza futhi akafani nabanye abantu: ohahayo, ongathembekile, ophingayo. UJesu wathi ubani owalungisiswa emehlweni kaNkulunkulu? Nguye owazithoba, umthelisi. Futhi lapho uKristu walengiswa esiphambanweni, waphendukela esela elinje elalichithe impilo yalo njengesigebengu, elacela ngezikhathi zalo zokufa ukuthi uJesu alikhumbule lapho lingena embusweni Walo. UJesu waphendula wathi, "Namuhla uzoba nami epharadesi."Yilolo hlobo lomusa uNkulunkulu wethu okufanele asinikeze lona! Ngabe isithembiso esinje esokweba sinengqondo? Unomusa ongaphezu kwesizathu. Uthando lwakhe lukhulu kakhulu. Lunikezwa ngokukhulu ukupha ngesikhathi ebesingafanelekile:"Siseyizoni, wasifela."
USt. Bernard waseClairvaux uthi ngokuphelele wonke umuntu, noma ngabe…
… Efakwe kokubi, ebanjwe ukuheha kenjabulo, othunjiwe ekudingisweni… omiswe odakeni… ophazanyiswe yibhizinisi, okhathazwe usizi… futhi ebalwa nalabo abehlela esihogweni — ngithi wonke umphefumulo, umi kanjalo ngaphansi kokulahlwa futhi ngaphandle kwethemba, unamandla okuphenduka akuthole kungagcini nje ngokuphefumula umoya omusha wethemba lokuxolelwa nesihe, kepha futhi angalokothela ukufisa imishado yeZwi. -Umlilo Ngaphakathi, UThomas Dubay)
Ngabe ucabanga ukuthi awusoze waba yilutho kuNkulunkulu? UFr. UWade Menezes uveza ukuthi uSt.Mary Magdelene de Pazzi wayehlushwa njalo yizilingo zokuhaha, ukuminza, nokuhlushwa ukuphelelwa yithemba. Wakhuthazelela ubuhlungu obukhulu emzimbeni, ngokomzwelo nangokomoya futhi walingeka ukuba azibulale. Noma kunjalo, waba ngcwele. USt. Angela waseFoligno uzinikele ngokunethezeka nangokwezocansi futhi wazitika ngezinto ngokweqile. Ungathi ubengumuntu obefuna ukuthenga. Bese kuba khona uMariya oNgcwele waseGibhithe owayekade eyisifebe owayejwayele ukujoyina izindwendwe zamadoda phakathi kwamadolobha asethekwini, futhi ethokozela ikakhulukazi ukuyenga abahambeli abangamaKristu — kwaze kwaba yilapho uNkulunkulu engenelela. Wamguqula waba msulwa ogqamile. USt. Mary Mazzarello wayekhuthazelele izilingo ezinzima zokuba incithakalo nokuphelelwa yithemba. USt.Rose waseLima wayevame ukuzihlanza ngemuva kokudla (i-bulimic behaviour) futhi wayeze azilimaze. Ubusisiwe Bartolo Longo waba ngumpristi omkhulu wobusathane ngenkathi efunda e-University of Naples. Amanye amaKatolika asemasha amkhipha kuwo futhi amfundisa ukuthandaza iRosari ngokwethembeka usuku ngalunye, wonke amashumi eminyaka ayi-15. UPapa John Paul II kamuva wammisa njengo isibonelo ngokukhuleka iRosari: "Umphostoli weRosari". Bese kuthi-ke, kube khona uSt. Augustine okwathi ngaphambi kokuguquka kwakhe waba ngumuntu othanda abesifazane owazidlalela ngokwenyama. Okokugcina, uSt. Jerome wayaziwa ukuthi wayenolimi olucijile nobuntu obushushu. Ububi bakhe nobudlelwano obabudilikile balimaza igama lakhe. Ngesinye isikhathi lapho upapa ebuka umdwebo ulenga eVatican yaseJerome eshaya isifuba sakhe ngetshe, upapa wayengaphezulu kokuthi, “Ukube bekungelona lelo dwala, uJerome, iSonto belingasoze lathi ungumuntu ongcwele."
Ngakho-ke, uyabona, akukhona okwedlule okukhomba ubungcwele, kepha izinga ozithoba ngalo manje nasesikhathini esizayo.
Ngabe usazizwa ungakwazi yini ukuthola umusa kaNkulunkulu? Cabanga ngale Mibhalo:
O Nkulunkulu, umhlatshelo wami umoya odabukile; inhliziyo edabukile futhi ithobekile, Nkulunkulu, awuyikulahla. (IHubo 51:19)
Lo nguyena engimkholisayo: indoda ephansi nephukile othuthumela ngezwi lami. (U-Isaya 66:2)
Ngihlala phezulu, ngobungcwele, kanye nomoya ochotshoziwe nodangele. (U-Isaya 57:15)
Kepha mina ngobumpofu nobuhlungu bami, usizo lwakho, Nkulunkulu, malungiphakamise. (IHubo 69: 3)
INkosi iyabalalela abampofu, futhi ayilahli izinceku zayo emaketangeni. (IHubo 69: 3)
Into enzima kakhulu ukuyenza kwesinye isikhathi ukwenza empeleni ukwethemba ukuthi Uyakuthanda. Kepha ukungathembeki ukuphendukela ohlangothini okungaholela kulo ukuphelelwa ithemba. Yilokho uJuda akwenza, futhi wazilengisa ngoba wayengeke ayamukele intethelelo kaNkulunkulu. UPetru, naye owakhaphela uJesu, wayesengcupheni yokuphelelwa yithemba, kodwa wabuye wathembela futhi ebuhleni bukaNkulunkulu. UPetru wayevumile phambilini, "Ngizoya kubani? Unamazwi okuphila okuphakade." Ngakho-ke, ezandleni nasemadolweni akhe, wabuyela endaweni okuwukuphela kwakhe ayazi ukuthi angakwazi kuyo: eZwini lokuphila okuphakade.
Wonke umuntu oziphakamisayo uzothotshiswa, nalowo ozithobayo uzophakanyiswa. (Luka 18:14)
UJesu akakuceli ukuthi uphelele ukuze akwazi ukukuthanda. UKristu ubengakuthanda noma ngabe ubuyisoni esedlula zonke izoni. Lalela ukuthi uthini kuwe ngoSt Faustina:
Vumela izoni ezinkulu zibeke ithemba lazo emseni Wami. Banelungelo phambi kwabanye lokuthembela kwalasha womusa Wami. Ndodakazi yami, bhala ngomusa Wami maqondana nemiphefumulo ehlushwayo. Imiphefumulo eyenza isikhalazo kumusa Wami iyangijabulisa. Leyo miphefumulo ngiyinika umusa ongaphezu kwalokhu ekucelayo. Angikwazi ukujezisa ngisho nesoni esikhulu kunazo zonke uma senza isicelo sozwelo Lwami, kodwa ngokuphambene nalokho, ngiyamthethelela ngesihe Sami esingaqondakali futhi esingaqondakali. -Idayari, Isihe Saphezulu Emphefumulweni Wami,n. 1146
UJesu usicela ukuba silandele imiyalo yakhe, "niphelele njengoba uYihlo wasezulwini ephelele,"ngoba ngokwenza intando yaKhe ngokuphelele, sizojabula kakhulu! USathane unemiphefumulo eminingi eqinisekile ukuthi uma ingaphelele, ayithandwa uNkulunkulu. Lokhu kungamanga. UJesu wafela isintu ngenkathi sasingaphelele waze wambulala.Kodwa impela kulelo hora, uhlangothi lwaKhe lwavuleka futhi umusa Wakhe wathululwa, okokuqala nokuphambili kubabulali Bakhe, kwase kuba ngokomhlaba wonke.
Ngakho-ke, uma wona isono esifanayo izikhathi ezingamakhulu amahlanu, lapho-ke udinga ukuphenduka ngobuqotho izikhathi ezingamakhulu amahlanu. Futhi uma uwa futhi ngenxa yobuthakathaka, udinga ukuphenduka futhi ngokuthobeka nangobuqotho. Njengoba iHubo 51 lisho, uNkulunkulu ngeke awulahle umthandazo wokuthobeka onjalo. Ngakho-ke nansi ukhiye wakho enhliziyweni kaNkulunkulu: ukuthobeka. Lesi yisikhiye esizovula umusa waKhe, yebo, ngisho namasango eZulu ukuze ungabe usasaba. Angisho ukuthi kufanele uqhubeke wona. Cha, ngoba isono sichitha isisa senhliziyo emphefumulweni, futhi uma sifa, sinquma umuntu emseni wokungcweliswa odingekayo ukuze angene ebumnandini obungunaphakade. Kodwa isono ayisinqamuli othandweni lwaKhe. Uyawubona umehluko? USt. Paul uthe ngisho nokufa ngeke kusihlukanise nothando lwaKhe, futhi lokho kuyisono esibi, ukufa komphefumulo. Kepha thina akufanele ihlale kuleso simo esesabekayo, kodwa ubuyele ezinyaweni zesiphambano (Ukuvuma) bese ucela intethelelo yakhe bese uqala kabusha. Ukuphela kwento okufanele ukwesabe ngempela ukuziqhenya: ukuziqhenya kakhulu ukwamukela ukuthethelelwa Kwakhe, ukuziqhenya ngokukholwa ukuthi Naye angakuthanda. Kwakungukuziqhenya okwahlukanisa uSathane noNkulunkulu ingunaphakade. Lesi yisono esibi kunazo zonke.
UJesu wathi eSt Faustina:
Mntanami, zonke izono zakho azilimazanga Inhliziyo Yami kabuhlungu njengoba kwenza ukungathembi kwakho njengamanje — ukuthi emva kwemizamo eminingi kangaka yothando Lwami nesihe, kufanele usangabaza ukulunga Kwami. -Idayari, Isihe Saphezulu Emphefumulweni Wami,n. 1186
Ngakho-ke, ndodakazi ethandekayo, lencwadi mayibe yisizathu senjabulo kuwe, nesizathu sokuguqa ngamadolo wamukele uthando lukaBaba ngawe. Ngoba iZulu lilindele ukujaha ukuza kuwe, futhi likuthole ezandleni Zalo ngendlela ubaba athola ngayo indodana elahlekile. Khumbula, indodana yolahleko yayigcwele isono, umjuluko nephunga lezingulube lapho uyise "ongumJuda" egijima ezomgona. Umfana wayengakavumi nokuvuma, kepha ubaba wayesemtholile ngoba umfana wayenjalo esendleleni ebheke ekhaya.
Ngisola okufanayo nakuwe. Uyaphenduka, kepha awuzizwa ufanelekile ukuba "yindodakazi" yaKhe. Ngiyakholelwa ukuthi uBaba usevele unezingalo zaKhe manje, futhi ukulungele ukukugqokisa ingubo entsha yokulunga kukaKristu, apholishe indandatho yobudodana emunweni wakho, abeke nezimbadada zeZindaba Ezinhle ezinyaweni zakho. Yebo, lezozimbadada akuzona ezakho, kodwa ezabafowenu nodadewenu abalahlekile emhlabeni. Ngoba uBaba ufuna ukuthi nizitike ngenkonyane ekhuluphele yothando Lwakhe, futhi lapho senisuthi futhi nichichima, phumani niye ezitaladini nimemeze niphezu kophahla lwendlu: "NINGESABI! UNKULUNKULU UNOMUSA! UNOMUSA!"
Manje, into yesibili ebengifuna ukuyisho ukuthi thandaza… Njengoba nje ubamba isikhathi sedina, beka isikhathi somkhuleko. Emthandazweni, awuzokwazi nje kuphela futhi uhlangane nothando lwaKhe olungenamibandela ngawe, ukuze izinhlamvu ezifana nalezi zingabe zisadingeka, uzoqala nokuzwa imililo eguqukayo kaMoya oNgcwele okwazi ukukuphakamisa ususe isiziba sesono ekuhloniphekeni kobuyena: ingane, eyenziwe ngomfanekiso woPhezukonke. Uma ungakakwenzi lokho, sicela ufunde Xazululwa. Khumbula, uhambo oluya eZulwini ngesango elincane futhi ngendlela enzima, yingakho bambalwa abayithathayo. Kepha uKristu uzoba nawe isinyathelo ngasinye sendlela aze akuthwese umqhele wenkazimulo yaphakade.
Uyathandwa. Ngicela ungikhulekele, ngiyisoni, esidinga umusa kaNkulunkulu.
Isoni esizizwa siphucwa ngokuphelele konke okungcwele, okumsulwa, nesibindi ngenxa yesono, isoni esizibona sisebumnyameni obukhulu, sihlukaniswe nethemba lensindiso, ekukhanyeni kwempilo, naku ukuhlangana kwabangcwele, nguyena umngane uJesu ammemele esidlweni sakusihlwa, lowo owacelwa ukuba aphume ngemuva kwezingcingo, lowo ocelwe ukuba abe ngumlingani emshadweni wakhe futhi abe yindlalifa kaNkulunkulu… Noma ngubani ompofu, olambile isono, ukuwa noma ukungazi yisihambi sikaKristu. —UMathewu Ompofu
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